September 23, 2006

"Bella." Edward said as he come up to me and Angela, by the front steps of the school. "Can I talk to you for a second?" he asked.

"Sure." I said to him. "I'll talk to you later." I said to Angela. "Talk to you later tonight."

"Okay, bye Bella." she said giving me a hug. "I'll call you later tonight."

I took Edward's hands. "What's up?" I asked. Edward looked so serious. Was something wrong? I hope nothing bad happened.

"I'll tell you later, when we get a bit more privacy." he said.

"Okay." I said. "Are you okay?" I asked worried.

"Yeah." he said. "I am fine."

"Okay." I said. "Are you sure? Because you don't look too good. I can tell there's something bothering you."

"No, Bella I am going to be fine." he said reassuring me.

I can tell it is not nothing. There's something in my gut feeling that is telling me it is not.

He told me to get into the car.

I complied.

He took off, speeding as usual. By now I had gotten used to his speed.

He stopped when we were by the woods.

I got out of the car, mystified. What the heck is going on?

"Bella." he said quietly. "I have to tell you something."

"Okay." I said looking at him. "What is it?"

"We have to leave." he said.

I didn't understand. By we, does he mean us? Was there more danger? I mean the last kind of danger I had was the disastrous birthday party last week. But other than that nothing bad has really happened since the James incident. And I already told Edward that I am not mad about the party.

"What do you mean by we? Do you mean 'we', as in me and you?" I asked.

"No." he said. "We , as in me and my family, Bella. We are leaving."

I cant wrap my head around his words.

"Edward, I don't understand. Why?"

"There's a lot of reason's. Carlisle can barely pass for thirty. We cant stay here forever. We might as well leave now." he said void of emotions.

"I don't want you to leave." I said. "I love you." This was not acceptable. He cant leave!

He looked down. He didn't say anything.

"I love you with all of my heart. I love you so much." I whispered. "Do you love me?"

He didn't even paused. He didn't hesitated. He looked at me in the eye and answered me. "No. Not anymore. I am sorry, Bella. I don't want you anymore. You will always be special to me. You're the first human I really like. But that's all you will ever mean to me. You love me more than I love you. And I see that we cant continue this anymore."

"You- don't- love- me-anymore?" I stuttered.

"No." he said. "Bella, I am leaving for good. I wont be back."

"No." I whispered. "Why are you doing this? I loved you so much."

"I love you too in way." he said. "I am doing this for you. I have to leave."

"Than I will come with you." I said. "You cant leave me. You said you love me." I said sobbing.

"You cant." Edward said. "There are places in this world that you don't belong in. You don't belong in my world, Bella. You deserve to be happy. You deserve to live a normal life."

"No." I begged. "You cant do this."

"I have to go, Bella. You deserve a normal life. You deserve happiness."

"I am happy with you." I protested.

"You deserve more." Edward said. "But, promise me one thing. Promise you would take care of yourself. Promise you will he careful." he said looking at me deep in the eye in the way that made me promise him.

I nodded.

"Good." he said a little relieved. "I wont be back. I will leave you alone. It will be as I never existed. You are special to me, Bella. Your kind, always move on. Time heals all wounds." he whispered into me ears, his cold air hitting me.

"Goodbye, my love." he whispered his last words to me. He kissed me in the cheeks and left, leaving me to crumble like a fallen kingdom that has been captured by enemy soldiers.

September 24, 2006

I cant eat. I cant sleep. Every time that I close my eyes, I dream of him. I have nightmares. When is this nightmare going to end? Edward take everything away from me. He took away the birthday presents. He took away my happiness. My life is empty without him. I cant live without Edward. Why is he doing this to me?

January 15, 2007,

It's been a while I wrote in my diary. My last entry was the day after Edward broke up with me. It was a been a little while now. But I remember it like it was yesterday. Day after day I think about what happened in my life over and over again. For the longest time I was very depressed. But my depression soon turned to anger. I am no longer just hurt. It is much more than that now. There is a new feeling now. A much stronger feeling. It is hatred for the Cullen's. This scars, are like a tattoo. They are like a sign that I gotten hurt, by being in love. I hate the Cullen's for what they have done. But most of all, I hate Edward. How could he do this to me? How could he take away my happiness? How could he only leave me the darkness? For a month I cried day after day. For a month I have lost twenty pounds by not eating. My dad was worried, my friends were worried. They all tried to do something. But what can they do? The only thing they can do to cure me from this disease, was to bring Edward back. And I have no idea where they went. But one day all this changed. Not too long ago, a new family came into town. It was a brother and a sister. Alyson and Steven Johnson. From one look at them, I knew they were vampires. They were the same type of diet as the Cullen's. Since meeting them my spirits are lifted. I started eating again, I started laughing again. I started hanging out with my old friends again. Steven healed me, not Edward. And here's my last statement, Edward, I hate you. I hope I never see you again. You screwed me over for the last time.

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