Snape looked at the calendar . It was the 1st of January . Another year had passed by.

Today was Lily's birthday ,35th to be exact , that is if she was alive .

How he missed her! Her laugh , her smile…

She was the only one who was his true friend , who stood by him when everyone was againt him, consoled him when he was depressed , she was everything to him..

He loved her, loved her from the day he met , and he still loved her even now…..It just pained him to think of her…

MEMORY first year

He and Lily were walking down the Forbidden Forest .He had just finished telling her about the story of Deathly Hallows..

"So" , asked Lily " The ring allows you to see people even if they are dead?"

"Yes , Lily . That's what the story says."

"Who would you wish for ?"

"You , of course"

"Me " asked Lily , clearly surprised . "but we've known each other only for two years"

"You are my best friend. Who else will I choose?" said Snape rolling his eyes . "What about you – your parents or relatives?"

"I'll choose you" , said Lily , looking at him , her eyes which showed only truthfulness…

MEMORY

The day when he uttered that nasty word was the day that everything ended . His whole life had changed with that one , dreadful word . He had begged her for forgiveness . But she never did forgive.

And then she made Potter her friend , and later fell in love with him . That thought was nearly unbearable . Seeing them together was unbearable.

MEMORY

It was their 7th saw Lily and Potter walking holding hands together . Not having heard her voice for so long, he put a dillusionment charm and walked forward .

"I love you, James"she was saying ."I love you so much that I would prefer dying than letting you get killed" . Saying so , she kissed him , her eyes full of love.

He felt tears brim his eyes. He felt like his heart had broken into a million pieces. His legs felt like lead and refused to move. He had no energy left in him . All was lost .The reality struck him .

She was going to marry Potter. She would never be his friend ever .The pain was overwhelming. He had lost the battle. Potter had won the only thing he ever wanted . . He felt his emotions slowly turning to hatred . He never felt so much hatred for someone until now like he felt for Potter. Both had left the corridor...Wiping tears out of his eyes , he made his decision. He will join Voldemort and become a death eater. Anyway,she was going to marry Potter...

MEMORY

Lily died three years later because of his mistake... Her son , Harry had her eyes . He was a part of her with her blood . He would always protect him and eventhough he hated his father , he would do it for her.