Disclaimer: I don't own HFive-0, if I did you would know. This is the first chapter so please read and review so I can decide if it will be a one shot or multiple chapters!….Oh and MAJOR slash (Steve/Danny)

Ever-growing passion

Why not love instead of this macabre lust

Sleepless nights

Dream filled mornings

Un-natural want

Heart-broken in the end

What is the use?

We never act normal

We don't know what's happening

We get lost and no longer know whom we are.

Why must this happen?

Give up this useless passion and find that one true love.


Six months after starting H5-0

Steven J. McGarrett

Danny looked up from his computer when I walked in. "Why is it you never knock? You know what? Never mind…this is the same reason why I never knock when I come over."

I felt myself smiling as I sat on the edge of Danny's desk. "Technically, I'm the boss, the governor gave me this suite to work out of, and asked me to pick my crew, so I have a right to walk in whenever I want."

Danny settled back in his chair, opened his mouth to argue, paused, then pointed his finger… "I hate you, you know that right?" I laughed, "yeah but only in the best possible way right?"

"No Steven, not in the best possible way. Only you would say that. How is it possible to hate someone in the best possible way? That is an oxymoron, you do know that right? What am I saying, you wouldn't know an oxymoron if it came up and slapped you in the face."

I didn't answer. Instead I chose to talk about the case we were working on. But that didn't stop me from thinking: I do know what an oxymoron is you moron, because you are sitting right in front of me.

After the day's work was done and the criminals were rounded up Danny and I headed home; I was driving and Danny as usual, was talking a mile-a-minute punctuating every other word with a hand gesture.

"….and then you go and do something stupid. One of these days, I swear….just one of these days. I just know something will come back from the past and bite you in the ass, and when that day comes, I refuse to be your back-up!"

"Really, Danny? I mean you have nothing else to say so you start rhyming your words? Is that a Jersey thing I don't know about?"

"Why is it every time I bring up your Neanderthal antics I am met with 'is that a Jersey thing Danny?' Have you nothing to say for your-self?" With every word his accent and gesticulations emphasized the point he was trying to make. "Hold up, I understand now, you are completely avoiding the subject in the hopes that I will shut up and drop it. Well I for one do not plan on bending to your every whim and will, I have a daughter to think about and I refuse to get caught up in your utter and complete disregard for protocol; especially when said disregard puts my life in danger!"

"Yeah but it helps me catch the bad guys and makes the island a safer place for Grace, doesn't it?"

Danny looked at me then looked out the window. We drove the rest of the way home in silence but I couldn't help but think at least now he knows I do it in part for him.


Two months later

Daniel Williams

Steve stopped the car in front of the Palace and climbed out, handing the keys over to me. "Go get Gracie, go to the park, take the day off, I don't care, but whatever you do, do NOT come back to the office. That is an order. It's the first Father's Day that you have had her since your divorce" he stated before he stalked off.

I stuck my head out of the passenger side window and yelled "Hey Steve!" My partner stopped, and turned around. "What Danny?" he asked, I just looked at him and signed my thanks. McGarrett laughed and walked away.

You don't know how lucky I am to have you as a partner, I thought.

"Just don't talk to me," I stated.

"We're back to that again," he stated.

"Well we wouldn't be 'back to that again' if you acted in a rational, competent, normal human, manner, would we?" I retorted.

"Are you saying I am not human, Danny? Is that what you are saying?"

I gave him the most incredulous look I could muster. "Did you lose your hearing sometime between shooting the suspect and diving off a building, McGarrett? Or is that just your normal response to a question that should be answered but is being avoided…again I should add."

"It wasn't a building Danny, It was an abandoned shack, and no I did not lose my hearing. I heard you perfectly well, I just chose not to answer because you would just get upset."

"And why would that be Steven, I wonder? What could I possibly have to be worried about? I do not suppose you would like to keep the job that you have, much less stay alive, but I would. And I for one do not appreciate the hazards that come with having you for a partner."

Steve looked at me for a full beat. "Stop staring at me and look at the road you goof. I don't want to explain to my eight year-old that I was in an accident because you were looking at me. That would just be disturbing….on so many levels." Steve looked back at the road without saying anything. But I thought: I don't want her to know until I know for sure.