Dear Diary,

As I'll tell you with very little regret, I miss him. I miss Tamoszius Kusleika. He unbelievably charmed me, but I know that we'll never have our chances at marriage, and I'd rather suffer for Elzbieta and the kids regardless. Love can be rather hopeless as I need to survive out here in this new country where laws aren't always for the people, and Lithuanians are rarely taken care of as we are foreigners. I'm sorry that we can't have that little bit of happiness, but I can still suffer for the good of others, and yes, Ona, I know in a more in depth way what you'd done, and I'd have done it too which shows as we all now know. America is not what it's all cracked up to be.

-Marija Berczynskas