You Are The Reason
Disclaimer: Sadly I didn't create this universe. These characters all belong to George Lucas and Disney.
Prologue
"You have to go. NOW!" Ben shouted. The ship was rocked from the last of the Resistance bombers, but Ben kept his footing. He could see the last of the Resistance ships jumping into hyper drive. Despite his tone and stance his eyes betrayed him, he was afraid. Rey sliced the last Stormtrooper with her lightsaber, and ran to Ben's side. "I can't leave you. I won't!" her voice shaking and eyes flooding with tears.
"Rey..I.." he stammered, but she just wrapped her arms around Ben and placed a searing kiss to his lips. He pulls her closer, and his embrace so tight it's almost painful. For a moment it felt like the force made time stand still, and they both poured their love for one another into their kiss. Ben brought his hands up to cup Rey's cheeks, and she sighs into their kiss.
"We don't have much time. This destroyer is going to fall apart, and you can't be on it when it does." Ben's right hand slides down onto her belly, and he feels two strong heartbeats flowing through the force. She knows he's right, but she can't bear the thought of leaving him behind. "Promise you'll be right behind me" she demands. He's never lied to her, and he doesn't want to start now. "You know I can't promise that sweetheart." Ben no longer flinches at the term of endearment he learned from his father. He feels her emotions through their bond fear, anger, despair, and at the core hope. "Promise you'll try! For them! For me!" she's sobbing now. "I can't do this without you!"
"Yes you can. You're strong, but you know I'm a selfish creature. I will do everything in my power to come back to you. I will find you in this life or the next I will always find you."
"REY!" "BEN!" Finn and Leia shout at the same time as they coming running into the bridge to meet the couple. Finn reaches Rey first and Leia is not too far behind him. "Are you two okay?" A wave of surprise from Ben flows through their force bond at Finn's concern. "Get her out of here Finn, please?" Finn and Ben share a look, and Rey can't quite decide what it's supposed to mean. Finn starts to lead Rey away, but she's still holding onto Ben. "What did I tell you love?"
"You will find me."
"Always."
Ben looks to his mother to say goodbye, but she turns away towards Rey. He tries to fight off the feelings of hurt and disappointment when he realizes she is having a silent conversation with Rey. Sadness and understanding cross Rey's face, and Ben fights the urge to read their minds. She gives him one last look pushing her warmth and love towards him before Finn ushers her away towards the ship where Poe is waiting.
His mother turns around making her way to face him. He is confused. Why is she still here? She needs to leave before it's too late. "No" she answers him aloud. "I'm right where I should be son" Leia says as she takes his hand gently. She's afraid he'll reject her even now. Then he is on his knees hugging her with his head pressed against her middle, sobbing like he did when he child was and she would hold him close whispering words of comfort through their bond. "Mother I'm sorry."
"Shh now, no more apologizes. We can't change the past. Forget Kylo Ren. Forget General Organa. Right now I'm just a mother who loves her son. "
Ben took a deep breath and rose to face his mother. He towered over her, but just like Rey she never let her height deter her fiery spirt. It radiated around her, coming off in waves, and Ben was once again reminded that his mother was the strongest person he'd ever known. She smirked at his thought her eyes shifting behind him.
"Hey kid."
Ben Solo's heart dropped.
Author's Note: This is my first story. Please leave a review with any advice and/or whether I should even continue. Thank you for reading!
