A/N: Well, I had this idea after I finished another story and I thought too bring a character from that story into this one. You don't have to follow the other story to keep up with this one. Normally my stories revolve around Ronon. This one I wrote because this season on Atlantis renewed my lust for John Sheppard.
Disclaimer: I don't own anyone or thing in SGA.
Keeping A Secret Reveals The Truth
"Hey Sheppard I thought you'd be in here." Ronon said as he walked into the sparring room where he saw John practicing.
He knew he'd find him here since he could tell that he was uneasy. Last week the latest installment of the new crew came in with the Daedalus. That new crew brought over his past love. Ronon could tell that he was upset simply by her being here. Nalani on the other hand was ecstatic. The two women had stayed up all night talking or whatever because Nalani didn't come back to his room until sometime this morning. That didn't stop him from having his way with her. In fact if he didn't need to be out of bed he wouldn't have gotten up from her.
"Hey, you need something?" he asked as he put the sticks in his hand down.
He had been in a mood since he saw his past come right into his present. All five feet and two inches of her. With longer hair that curled and was a darker shade of her normally brown hair. Her eyes hadn't changed though they were still the color of the sea. Only this time instead of love for him they would hold something else. Something he didn't want to say let alone think. Her skin was a little more tanned than he remembered, but it had been nearly five years since he saw her. It didn't help that he hadn't had a chance to tell Teyla about his past. In fact the only one that knew was Ronon. His plan was to stay as far away from her as he could, but with her beginning here working in the infirmary he was bound to run into her. Truth was he couldn't help, but feel those old feelings for her once again. He had been so close to spending his life with her. That was something he thought he would never do again. He hadn't planned on it until he met her. The more time he spent with her the more he couldn't imagine life without her in it. He sighed as he walked over to Ronon who was sitting next to the wall.
"You look like you've been in here all day." Ronon started. He knew why Sheppard was in here working up a sweat. He remembered back when he started to have feelings for Nalani, He would spend hours in here beating up everyone he could until he was so tired he could barely drag his self out of the room.
"No, just for the past two hours."John said grabbing his water and sitting next to him.
"This wouldn't have to do with the newest addition that came in last week would it?" he asked already knowing the answer
"I tried to tell Teyla last night you know." John sighed deeply " This would've been a lot easier if Teyla hadn't already met her and told me she liked her."
"The longer you keep this from Teyla the harder it's going to get." Ronon said as he thought about how he wold feel should Nalani have someone from her past that she couldn't tell him about. What if she did? How could I handle that?Knowing that another man had touched her body. Had seen her naked. He thought as he suddenly hated all the men that ever saw her naked and made a mental note to kill them should they come here.
"I know, but how do you tell the woman you're currently involved with about the one you were almost engaged to?" he questioned softly as he ran a frustrated hand through his already messy hair." It's starting to effect our relationship without her even knowing."
"I've asked you before and you couldn't give me a straight answer so I'm gonna ask you again." Ronon paused as his eyes briefly met John's." Do you still love her?"
"We didn't brake up because I didn't love her." he said softly" I broke things off with her because it wasn't fair for her to wait for me when I didn't even know if I was coming back."
"Here's an easier question." Ronon thought about what he was going to say."Do you love Teyla?"
"Of course I do." He said as his eyes met Ronon's." What kind of a question is that?"
"It's a question that you should really think about before you say anything." Ronon stated" Mainly since you can't tell Teyla about this other woman nor can you honestly say how you feel about her. If you still have feelings for her you need to tell Teyla now before things get more complicated and you end up hurting her even worse."
"It's already too complicated." John said as he sighed heavily. Truth was he could feel his relationship with Teyla falling apart. He knew it was his fault because he wasn't putting in the effort anymore.
"Teyla will understand if you tell her besides her having to hear it from someone else." Ronon said. I would be going through the same thing should by some sheer chance that Melena would've made it and came back into my life. I wouldn't know how to tell Nalani. I love Nalani with all my heart, but I loved Melena too and at one time we were married. I loved Melena before I even met Nalani.
"I know." John said feeling like his entire world was about to come crashing down around him God why does this have to be so hard for me. Why can I talk to Ronon about my past, but not Teyla the woman I love? "You've been talking with Nalani a lot haven't you?" he saw Ronon's smile before it even touched his face.
" If you want to call it talking." Ronon stated with a smirk.
John laughed softly
"Last night she didn't come in until this morning." Ronon said as he thought about his role in not telling Nalani about Sheppard's past with her best friend." I feel bad about not telling Nalani about your history with her friend."
"You could've told her you know." John stated as the two leaned back against the wall and stared into the middle of the floor.
"It wasn't my story to tell." he said softly
"I've got some beer in my room you want to go there instead of sitting on this hard floor?" John suggested as he got to his feet.
"Sure." Ronon got up.
John wasn't sure what he was going to do he just knew that his past had suddenly came crashing into his present and that didn't make him happy.
