A/N: Meep! My first fanfic. Um... I know it's kinda really horrible, but I'm an artist first, not a writer. Please review, and please be kind? hide Flames will be laughed at. Probably.
Warnings: Well, slash. Boy on boy. No like, no read. AxelRoxas, AxelDemyx and DemyxZexion. Yey.
Disclaimer: I no own Kingdom Hearts. Although I may wish.
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And, really, when was the last time I saw you? Forever and a day ago, it seems. Have you forgotten me? Could I ever forget you? All I have to do is look at fire and I see your smiling face. Is it true, though? That you killed some of them? Betrayed them? You used to preach against such actions, like when I left. You're such a hypocrite, Axel. Hypocrite. But that's okay, isn't it? So long as your reasons were justified, if only in your own mind.
Haha, your mind was always so freaking twisted. God, you thought fire was the greatest thing in the world. That's why you hated Demyx so much when I arrived, or so you said. You said it was because water and fire naturally hated each other, but now I wonder. When he looked at you, under all the hate in his gaze was something else... hurt, rejection, maybe? But then you found out about how Demyx wanted Zexion and totally couldn't get him. You were so kind to him, despite how you said you loathed him. You encouraged him on, you picked him up when Zexion pushed him away. I guess it was when I saw this kind and selfless side of you that I just... fell for you. Fell for you hard. I never even stopped to wonder why you were so kind to him after so long of hating him. I thought you were just that kind of guy, that would forget any personal grudge if you could help someone else. I wonder now.
But then came the day that I left. Seems so long ago, doesn't it? You never really knew why I left. You only know the half truth that I told you. Yeah, the Keyblades had something to do with it. I had to find out why they chose me. That was true. But there's more to the story. You should know that part well. Earlier that day, I saw you kissing Demyx.
I don't know why you did it. I don't even want to know anymore. I mean, it's been years. No... it hasn't... only been a few months. But you see, that day, that was the day I was going to tell you something important. I was going to tell you how much I loved you.
Ah, such a fool. I was so happy that day. Walking around, looking for you. I had psyched myself up all day the day before, and now I was ready. Then I rounded that corner, and there you were... against that wall with your lip between Demyx's teeth. You didn't see me, and I didn't want you to see me. I didn't want you to know I had seen you. Why? I don't know. I left that night. I didn't think you would care; I still don't think you care. But I care. I care that I was wrong in my assumptions. I care that I still love you and I'll never see you again. I care that there's no going back to apologize, never ever, ever never. So I'll carry on with my Nobody life and try my hardest to forget all about you, just like you've forgotten all about me.
