I stood there, watching Ukitake walk past me. A simple word of Hello passing his lips. Sighing, I followed him, bored somewhat since Nanao had locked herself in the main office to avoid me.

"Jyuu-kun…" I started to ask him a question but wasn't able to finish

"Shh…" He muttered, apparently deep in thought. Smiling, I caught up to his pace and looked down at his white hair. We came upon yet another corner and turned it, only to run into Kuchiki.

"Kuchiki-san?" Jyuushiro asked, stepping back a little. Blinking, I watched Kuchiki's cold onyx colored eyes go from Jyuushiro to myself.

"Have Either Of You Gentlemen Seen Rukia-chan?" He asked politely, in a monotone voice that he used when angry.

"Um.. Rukia-chan? I last saw her heading over to your division…" Jyuushiro stuttered, Kuchiki's sudden 'being there' had obviously disrupted his thought process.

"Arigatou.." Kuchiki thanked Jyuushiro then turned on his heels and left via shunpo.

"What was that all about?!" I laughed, trying to lighten the mood that the sixth division captain had caused. Jyuushiro simply shrugged and started walking again. He'd just been released from fourth division's care after he commented on feeling dizzy and then was rushed to fourth division by his two third seat officers. Later that day, I received news from Kiyone and Sentaro that Jyuushiro was stable and being watched by Isane, the fukutaichou of fourth division.

"Kyoura-kun… I was wondering… about earlier when I was in fourth… you were staring to say something but then Isane-fukutaichou came in and..." Looking away from me and out at the courtyard beside us, Jyuushiro brought up a topic I wasn't exactly wanting to talk about… 'Crap…'

"Heh, It was no--" I shut up. He was staring me in the eyes, eyebrows tilted upwards. "… I wanted to tell you something but I…" Blushing slightly, I averted my gaze, Jyuushiro had a way of looking at me and getting the truth.

"Do You Not… Trust Me…?" He asked, bottom lip trembling slightly, if he was going to cry I was too. Damnit… he rarely did this anymore…

"Baka!" I protested, making him frown and stiffen up a little. "I trust my life with you Jyuu-kun! I don't know how to tell you though!!" Mragh! I felt like shaking him by the shoulders, first he was quiet then timid then mad?! I grabbed clumps of my thick scraggly hair, my hands shaking with anger and trembling with fear, fear of rejection.

"Kyoura-kun? What's wrong? You could just tell me the best you can, or just show me.. I don't care just… stop acting like this.." It was true, I was acting like Zaraki… the mad man of the Gotei… Biting my lip, I stopped rocking back and forth on my heels and leaned against the support beam with my right side. Jyuushiro laid a hand on my left shoulder, I glanced over.. I could tell that he was worried about me, in a kind caring friendly way… but…

"I'm sorry Jyuu-kun… I've just been… so stressed lately… with Nanao-san and all… and then you passing out doesn't ease my nerves one bit…" My shoulders sank and I kept my eyes from looking at Jyuushiro. I wanted to tell him so badly…

"Please Kyoura-kun… Please tell me…" He pleaded with me, even though I wasn't look I could tell he was getting teary. He hated not being told the truth, or not being told at all, I knew this from being so close to him all these years.

"I… I can't…" I slumped lower to the ground so that I was know hugging my knees, I felt weak and somewhat… female… I remembered when I saw Nanao one day, weary from training and paperwork and … me, she was in the office on the couch sitting like this. On the verge of tears, she wouldn't speak so I simply sat there holding her lightly until she drifted to sleep. Then, I merely waited until I did the same. Jyuushiro kneeled down beside me and wrapped one arm on my shoulder then put his head on my shoulder.

"If you can will you tell me?" His voice was soft, and melodious to me, I still didn't lift me head. I nodded although, and leaned my head against his. The silence that surrounded us was enjoyable…


A/n: This is the first chapter told from Shunsui's point of view, the next might be from Ukitake's I'll say it at the beginning Anyways, reviews are loved Oh and, this story is before the actual series a.k.a. before Ichigo came in, so no one knows Aizen and co. are plotting.