I'm scared… I'm scared too

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Sara had been feeling unwell for a few weeks and has been acting so strangely. Some days she couldn't get enough of me others I think she'd rather I be back in Peru far far away from her. It hurts that's she's like this and I cant stand it anymore.

Over breakfast I sat opposite her she seemed in an ok mood

"Sara" she looks up

"I'm worried about you"

she shakes her head "why?"

how do I tackle this "well you don't look well and your always saying you feel ill why don't you go see the doctor?"

again shakes her head "its nothing ill be fine"

"well your obviously not one minute you won't leave me alone then next you couldn't get me further away, what's going on?"

"I'm not standing this, see you later"

she gets up and walks out... Exactly what I mean...

Well I sits at home trying to work out what I do wrong to upset her so much, when my cell rings 'nick' flashes up, something's wrong

"hi nick"... I can hear Sara shouting

"Gris you need to get to the hospital Sara just passed put and she's going go get checked out weather she likes it or not"

I'm deeply worried but glad we may get to the bottom of her problem

"ok ill meet you there"

I jump in the car and drive over once there I find nick,

"hi Gris, she's in there, not talking to me cos I made her come but she's been feeling ill for weeks now, I'm worried" I pat his arm "so am I, I'm glad she's here"

"they've taken samples for testing but she's intent she's fine but that's sara. Neway now your here ill run"

I smile "thanks for making her come and staying"

he nods "no problme. will you let me know what happens?"

"Of course, see you later"...

I walk in and she looks away,

"hi hun, how you doing?"

I try to hold her hand but she pulls away and crosses her arms, saying nothing...

"Sara talk to me what's wrong?"

"I'm not ill; I don't need to be here. I didn't eat properly and so I passed out"... I shake my head and sit on the chair.

We sit silently both it would appear thinking... Then a doctor comes in

"uhh you must be Mr Grissom, now I have the results of your tests. It would appear your pregnant. Now I need you to go up to ultra sound for a scan to see how far gone you are then I can refer you to your doctor to continue your care and due to your work ill sign you off for three days so you can build up your energy"

I'm smiling ear to ear stunned, she'd been off the pill for sometime now and it had never crossed my mind...

"You collapsed as you have a low iron count, but as you said you haven't been eating much. Ill prepare your iron supplements while your at ultra sound" then he leaves...

I'm still stunned and overwhelmed I stand to be with Sara who looks blankly at me... No emotion...

"Sara you not happy?"

she just looks at me "jump out while I change"

I can't believe I'm hearing it "jump out?"

"Yeah"

I do as told and wait outside... I don't like this at all, after a minute she walks out dressed

"let's go" is all she says and marches off...

"Slow down" she just carries on.

We get to ultra sound and she books in,

"is the gentleman going in with you?" asks the receptionist, she pauses before saying

"yes" in a almost unhappy way,

she sits down next to me and we wait... I move to hold her hand and she moves it away...she's never like this with me ever...maybe she's just scared or not sure how to feel but its scaring me...

Were called through, I sit next to her and wait to see our baby... All gooed up, the radiographer starts run the wand over her stomach

"uhh I can clearly see your baby, and you are roughly..." she turns to a chart "four months pregnant. Want to see?"

I smile and nod, she turns the screen,

"here you go, your baby",

I smile and grab Sara's hand she can't escape me now

"look our baby" she still stays the same...no expression

"Ill print you a copy to show to your family and friends" "thanks" I say

While Sara gets cleaned up I look at our baby... I can't believe I'm finally gonna be a daddy...

"Let's go, I wanna go home" announces sara marching off again.

We walk over to see the doctor "so what did they say?"

I smile at him "four months"

"uhh OK. Ill write to your doctor. Here's the iron and a few leaflets that may help you"

I take them, "thank you. Come on hun home time".

before we get to the car,

"Sara shouldn't you call cath tell her your gonna be off"

"I don't want anyone to know that I'll pregnant yet"

what's going on she's clearly not happy

"ok well tell her your iron count dropped and you need to get it back up before the doctor will let you come back to work"

that is near enough exactly what she said with no emotion or anything.

The car ride is silent and I hate it so much... My minds in over drive..