I looked out the window, sitting on my favorite window seat. The fire crackled in the background, and the smell of old books filled my nose. A table full of Narnian legends filled the oakwood table in the center of the room, and I sat, listening to the rain outside. With every drop it added a soothing salve to my anxious demeanor. These were the days that reminded me most of my brothers and sister. I was given a choice. It was to either live with Caspian, rule by his side, and leave my siblings, or to go with my siblings and to never see Caspian again. Aslan himself gave these choices. I looked down at my hands, thinking about what had come to pass.
I talked with my siblings first, asking them what they thought. I wanted to sound eager so the choice would be easy for them. I tried to sound like I had no doubts about staying behind, doing my best to sound logical.
"You'll be back lue, I promise. We'll see eachother again. This way we're all are happy."
Tears filled my eyes. I gave up my family to come here, and now, I've got what I wanted. I'm a queen, I have a loving husband, however, instead of being downright giddy, I'm in a castle weeping with the rain. I was so sure that this was what I wanted. I was so sure that this was the best compromise. It wasn't until afterwards that I found out he would never be coming back.
"Peter has learned his lessons here. He needs to be in his own world now."
I would never see my brother again. I sobbed even harder.
I felt a gentle tap. I didn't look up.
"Susan?" an accented voice said.
I still didn't look up
"Little horn, what's the matter."
I felt hands grasp my own.
"Will they ever come back Caspian." I murmured.
I felt the weight of someone sitting down next to me. He took my chin and lifted it up, forcing me to look at him. I looked into his brown eyes. Those eyes looked at me with love and affection. He pulled me into a hug, rocking me back and forth.
"Love knows no boundaries, and you have a very strong willed family that would find any way possible to see you again. " He whispered into my ear.
He pulled back, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear, and wiping away my tears."
"Yes, beyond a shadow of a doubt."
Hey guys, I know this is a really short chapter, but I really wanted to kind of explain how it is in my mind Susan was able to stay behind. I was also looking for a way to make it seem like Susan is feeling conflicted about staying behind. I hope to go more in-depth with this later, but I'm going to have you piece everything together, however for now this is all you're going to get :P I hope you enjoyed this.
P.S. Shout out to banzi, you were my first review. I'm very glad you liked my story, I hope I can keep up with the expectations. :D
