Wouldn't it have been better…just to have been erased on Day 1? Think about it, the goal of the Reapers Game is to erase players. I'm not for giving them a head start, but it's better than playing the game itself. I'm not smart, so I'll stop acting like I am. I died, not only saving my sister, but I died cause I wanted to. I was sick of my parents always raggin' on me for my faults yo. It wasn't my thing; I'm not for that life. I'm not gonna stop being Beat just because everybody wants me to. And then there was Rhyme. Little goody-two-shoes Rhyme, who had her whole life ahead of her and wasted it on me. Like what yo? Is this some community service shit?! Rhyme was the one person who was always there for me, and the one person I wanted gone, second to myself.
Then that day came. I was arguing with my parents and had had enough so I took off. I'm sick of them trying to make me something that I'm not. I decided it was over. Ended. I would be erased without a trace, and no one would miss me. Shibuya was a busy place, packed with people, who would care if just one person dropped off the face of the Earth? I walked away from my home knowing full well that this would me my last time dealing with the BS that Shibuya and my life had to offer.
I kept walking, I didn't know where I was going, but I wanted to go as far away as humanely possible. I ended up at the Miyashita Street Underpass. This is it. This is where I would die. Speeding cars, the confusion of traffic. Walking into the middle of the street was no problem, it's the events after. A car had come speeding towards me with absolutely no intent to stopping. I closed my eyes and braced myself.
"Beat!" My eyes opened up to see Rhyme running towards me. 'Dammit Rhyme!' I jumped in front of her, in the way of the vehicle. Maybe I was trying to save her, maybe I wanted to play hero, maybe I was just desperate to die. Who knows? I was just glad it was over…..but karma just had to be a bitch. Now, not only wake up again, but I had to play the reaper's Game, and deal with Rhyme…she died too. That wasn't the plan, she wasn't supposed to die, she was the one who had everything to live for.
…Then the game began…
Those first couple of days…I had to get used to trusting my sister, and it's not easy putting on a fake smile in front of people…but I guess she's not too bad, but I feel like I owe her. I mean in a way it's like I killed her yo. Then she had to save me from that noise man. This time was it for sure, but no, apparently I can't throw away my wasted talents just yet. It took me a while to figure out my self worth man. Eight days straight worth of thinking, Phones even gave me a pat on the back. But even after all that thinking….I end up back where I died…and I see flowers. Somebody left 'em for Rhyme. I may have thought about my worth, but I didn't fully except it, but this made me determined to make something of myself; to be all that I could be. I want to be somebody. I wanna call all the shots and make Shibuya a better place for everyone. But even with these goals ahead of me…I still would've felt better to have been erased at the start, without knowing the truth. Without knowing what I could do, without having my world utterly destroyed. Was the game really to give us a second chance or show us more of the reasons to give up? I may act tough but…I have my problems just like everybody else. So even when I get my life back I still want…to be erased.
