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A/N: To soften it up a bit I will say that this takes place almost right after Eclipse. There is some fluff later on but we'll get to that later... I am proud to say that this is my first fanfic that is not in the "humor" category! I swear I will try to make this one longer than six chapters like "When Edward goes Britney Spears". My goal is thirty chapters (at least) and I shall be sure I achieve that, unless it starts getting repetive, redundant, or just plain boring. And now Lace has something to say since we are currently at school. I SWEAR I wrote this one all by myself... I'M A BIG GIRL NOW!
Lace: I, Lace168, want to say that even though Boo wrote one serious fanfic, I am going to follow her! -Lace168
A/N: NOW! On with poor, poor Jacob Black...
Jacob POV
I had been running for days without stopping. My legs ached, my sides hurt and my heart was beating so fast it felt like it was going to explode at any moment.
The heart. It is what keeps your body going. What keeps you alive... Mine had been broken terribly and I was curious as to was keeping my blood pumping through my veins. Some supernatural thing, most likely, or maybe just some werewolf thing. Either way, the piont was it was a wonder a could still breathe without any pain whatsoever.
I finally descided to stop running, to give my muscles a rest. I wanted to keep going, to get a way from all of the pain. All of the pain she had caused me. To just leave it all behind me forever. To keep running until I could no longer feel anyhting. But unfortunatly, the pack would never let me get away with that. They would tie me up with ropes and drag me back down to LaPush before I even made it across the Canadian Border.
I turned back into my human form and put on some pants. I sat down next to an apple tree and started eating its fruits. There I sat, debating whether or not I should go back home... To LaPush. I honestly didn't know if I should just wait for the rest of the pack to come and get me or if I should just go back of my own will.
It was hours before I finally came out of my trance-like state. I had come to the conclusion that the last thing I needed right now was drama and that's exactaly what waiting for the pack would get me. The best option right now was to go back to LaPush and get it over with. I once again started running, only this time towards home instead of away from it.
Thanks Jake. You truely are doing the right thing, whether you think so or not, it really is best. For every one...
I just ignored Sam. I was too busy thinking about all the attention I would get back in LaPush. Negative or positive, I did not welcome it and definatly was not looking forward to it. But I didn't want to keep anybody up all night, waiting, waiting for me to come back anymore. My heart wasn't completely gone... Yet...
-One Week Later-
I was back at the reservation now, human and with pants on. Within seconds, every one was right in front of me, asking things like how I've been or if I wanted anything. I just said "no", sometimes not even knowing what people were saying.
"Glad 'ya came back Jake! We thought you never would!" Quil was being... Quil, as in very chipper and up-beat. I ignored him also. I felt crowded and just felt like running away again. But I knew if I did, I would be tackled within seconds and brought back. And besides, I really didn't was to cause them anymore pain then I already had.
"I'm getting claustrophobic guys. I'm just gonna go lay down." And without even waiting fo anyone to say anything, I started walking back to the house. I heard Billy shouting at me to come back, but I just ignored him and kept walking.
It seemed like forever before I finally got back. I immediatly went into my room and sat on my bed. It felt strange to be back. Back in a place I hadn't been for what seemed like years. It felt strange because... I couldn't quite place a finger on it, but I knew there was a reason.
After a couple of minute sitting there, trying to remember, I finally did, and it probably would have brought tears to my eyes if I hadn't felt so emotionless.
It was the last place I saw her, the one who had caused this whole thing. Running of and marrying that leech. I would wait for the day he left her again and she came running back to me. Only this time, I wouldn't help her, I wouldn't act as if she hadn't known that it would eventually happen again. Instead, I would pretend she was just a figment of my imagination and completly ignore her. It sounds cruel, and it is, but when I thought about how much she had hurt me, by picking the one who had left her alone in the woods, over me, I really didn't care because she obviously didn't care about how much she had hurt me...
"Jake, want anything to eat? I'm sure your pretty hungry after beign away for alomst three weeks." Billy came in and I immeadiatly came out of my little world, where I was actually happy.
"No thanks Dad, I'm fine." Although I really was hungry, I didn't feel like I would actually be able to eat. I just waited for Billy to leave the room. I sat on my bed for hours until I finally fell asleep around two in the morning.
I need 10 reviews or I shan't update. Maybe I will update sooner, but that's only gonna happen if I get really really bored, which is VERY likey... Ni! I am the night who says Ni!
Also, I have finished chapter two, but I am currently at my friends's house so I sadly cannot save anyhitng onto this computer. I will be here for a couple of days so I shan't be able to update until I get home. I shall update sooner if you bring me a shrubbery! Or review, either one works...
