A/N: YO ! this is just a spur of the moment thing that I thought up during school today. I was kinda depressed and decided to write down some thoughts when all of a sudden. Poop! I thought, "Why not write this into a fanfiction instead? I mean…it does kinda suite our dear little Kai-chan ne?"
So yeah, here I am, trying to twist what was originally meant to be a diary entry (though I don't have a dairy) into a hopefully angsty but sweet little ficcie for our beloved Phoenix
Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade or any of its characters. (Sniffs miserably)
The little things that mean so much.
People say that the eyes are the windows to one's soul.
I never used to believe it until just recently....
You used to distance yourself from us, snapped at us and ignore us constantly. You used to do everything within your power to get away from us, to make us believe that you despise our company.
You used to say that you hate us....
Actions speak louder than words….yet the heart always speak the truth….
Your action shows that you despise us, but your eyes always say otherwise….
I guess that was the only reason that I tolerated your cold demeanor.
I could always see it. The small sparkle in your eyes every time one of us talks to you. The lighter atmosphere around your presence every time one of us invites you to join in on something. The small yet happy smile every time we ask about your being.
You needed the little things that we gave you. The little attention and care that you received, and you knew it. Though you'd no doubt deny it if I had asked you, but I was glad that we helped all the same.
I could tell that you cherish all the times we involved you in our activities, be it a conversation, or a trip to the theaters, I know that you enjoyed it and truthfully, I cherished them too. Just being able to see that small bit a of excitement in your eyes at being a part of our group and doing something with us. Just seeing that you were happy and for once, carefree, was enough to make my heart soften with joy.
Life hasn't treated you fairly, that much I knew. Your childhood had been snatched away from you, and so has your innocence as a child. You were forced to grow too quickly, without the care and love you should have received.
I remembered the reaction the team and I had when you gathered enough courage to drop your pride and asked us how it felt to be loved and cared. There was no sorrow or regret in those crimson depths then, only a feeling of pure curiosity.
It was then that the team and I had agreed to do everything in our power to make sure that you got back what you had lost.
You hadn't made it easy for us. Heck! You never do! But I can tell that we're succeeding. Little by little, the ice was melting.
I must say though that I was quite surprised at how much our little attention had meant to you. I remember this one time, when the all the teams had a reunion. Everybody was there, the All Stars, Majestics, White Tigers, and to everyone's surprise, the Dark Bladers too. The Demolition Boys were no where in sight. No body knew what became of them after the World Champions.
It was Five days later, when I went out into the garden to get some air and escape from the party for a while that I saw you.
I remember it clearly; there you were, seated with your back against a tree and facing the moon. What had me shocked was the way you were seated. Your knees were pulled to your chest in a very childlike manner and your eyes were miserably staring at the grass in front of you.
I had rushed to your side immediately to see what was wrong and what happened next had shocked me to no end. You had lifted your head and gazed at me openly, not hiding anything you were feeling inside. The words you had whispered then had next made tears rush to my eyes.
"Why don't you guys talk to me anymore?"
It was said in such a sad and desperate manner that I had almost cried right there and then.. Gazing into your crimson orbs, I had suddenly realized that indeed, neither the team nor I had spoken to you since the other teams had arrived. We had been so busy with our own affairs that we had completely forgotten about you.
The guilt I had felt then was unbelievable. I had left the one person I had sworn to help all by himself with no excuse what-so-ever.
I wasn't sure what had happened next, but I had pulled you into a tight hug and immediately began apologizing for ignoring you for so long. What really had me surprised was that you didn't push me away, nor had you struggled against me. All you did was give a sigh and snuggled into the embrace. It seemed like you needed the comfort and I was more than happy to give it to you.
After another two days, the other teams left for their homes. I didn't tell the rest of the Bladebreakers about what happened that night (somehow, I thought that you wouldn't appreciated it) but I did tell them that we ought to pay a little more attention to you.
Time went by and it and it didn't go unspent.
Like the spring after the winter, the ice has melted.
Bit by bit.
Drop by drop.
The ice is has disappeared.
It wasn't easy, and it wasn't short, but we had succeeded in doing the impossible. And along the way, I had gotten more than I could hope for.
"Ray! Come on!"
A pale hand grabbed onto my own and I looked up to be met with twin scarlet orbs. I smiled gently and replied, "Ok, just give me a sec." I finished off the last sentence in my Journal and closed my book before standing up.
"Come on! The movie is gonna start!" My Beautiful Russian whined with a cute pout on his pale face, free of the previous triangles.
I laugh lightly, before giving him a peck on the cheek and wrapping my arm around his waist. After the guys and I first took Kai to the Movies to watch a Film, the boy had fallen heads over heels in love with the big-screen and the pop-corns.
Kai tugged me forward impatiently and I chuckled while following him to the cab. We both got in and settled for the ride to the theater.
Once we got there, I got us each a large box of pop-corn (since Kai absolutely refuses to share his 'precious piece of salty heaven'. Even if it's with me) and a large coke to share. We then went into the theater, found our seats, and settled down for the film to start.
I had chosen a horror film, and to tell the truth, I had no idea what it was about, even until the end. No, I was more preoccupied with a certain 'brave and fearless leader of the Bladebreakers' clinging onto my arm during the film. It never ceases to amaze me how much my phoenix has changed from when we first set out to melt the ice.
I congratulated myself a job well done, andsettled to planning the event for tonight, for when my poor phoenix will most likely be too scared to go to sleep.
The winter has passed, and I have found my spring….
Owari ! !
So how was it? I hope it wasn't too shabby…..sorry if there are any grammars or spelling errors….
Just in case you're wondering, I downright love Kai as uke! I think it's just sooooo damn cute!!
so please review and tell me what you think la!
Ja ne !
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