It starts out like every other day. Wake up, dress, go to school, etc. I forgot when I noticed…but I did. As soon as I did it started getting duller. I started thinking of things I…people wouldn't normally think.
Fools.
Fools.
Fools.
Fools.
Fools.
Gradually it seem to be more distant. The friends that I hang around with seems fake. Everything was the same with them. Same affection, same play, same talks, same laughs. Everything was the same as it was. What change was that I realized something a human wouldn't. I started feeling really empty. I had friends, a family, and a roof but there's no blocking out this feeling. That was when I was In elementary school. And then…it suddenly disappeared during the summer.
It came back again…Now I'm in middle school, 7th grade. Was it worse this time? I forgot. My mind started going berserk. But no one noticed, not even my own family. Aren't I a great actress? One day at lunch, I sat with of my friend that seems unrelated to feeling I had in E.S. It was fun and satisfying, knowing that she was true. But then a dreaded thought came.
You're so annoying…Get away from me trash.
I had no idea where it came from, but I was disgusted. Disgusted at myself. For me to think of something like this, I was shocked…and somewhat afraid. Days and days I would have that same disgusting feeling.
Now I'm in 8th grade. All feelings of dread, disgust, and emptiness are gone. Once again that…thing…that I realized had disappear once again. Will it reappeared in front of me again? When is it going to appear? What abnormal feelings will it give me next time? Emotionless I wrap myself in these thoughts. Not feeling any form of joy or sadness. Why? Because right now I'm the same as them. One of them. You probably felt nothing as well because right now we're all the same.
Have you noticed it yet?
