Thoughts

Every night I lie awake

Thoughts running through my head

Thoughts I can't stop or control

Out of control thoughts

Strange thoughts

Hurtful thoughts

Deceitful thoughts

You thoughts

My head can't control the thoughts

My heart can't control the emotions

I lie awake knowing you're in the next room

I lie awake knowing I could be holding you in my arms

But you can't tell

You don't notice my crazy thoughts

You can't see the swirl in my head

Confusing and amazing and scary and weird and wonderful and

I can't go on

My thoughts won't let me

They keep me awake

And when I drift off they still plague me

Images of you

Your laugh

Your smile

Your face

Always there to great me in my dreams

Such wonderful dreams

Such wonderful thoughts

Then what's wrong with me

Your there

I'm here

That's wrong

You should be here with me

I should be able to see your face and touch your lips

Not just in my thoughts

Why won't I let you in?

Why can't I tell you?

Why are my thoughts keeping me from you?

Thoughts of fear

Thoughts of pain

Thoughts of hope

I fear you won't accept me

Past pains have scarred me

I hope you will love me

Thoughts of hurtfulness

Thoughts of acceptance

Thoughts of love

I'm always so cruel

How can you ever accept me?

You say you love me

Can it be true?

Thoughts of hope

What if you do

Thoughts of doubt

Why are you still here?

What thoughts have been going through your head?

What have you been thinking of at night as you drift off to sleep?

Do you dream of me?

Thoughts of hope

We can make it work

In the end its only thoughts that keep us apart

But a single thought can change that

Thoughts of love

I love you

Thoughts of joy

You love me

Thoughts of peace

That's all we need

In the end thoughts don't matter

In the end

It comes down to you

And to me

In the end WE are all that matter

In the end

Love

Is all that matters

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