Hinata Shoyo is an optimistic child. That doesn't change until now. He tries to stay positive in whatever situation he's in. That's why everybody likes him. Hinata Shoyo always motivates the team when in a crisis.

Kageyama Tobio, however seems to be the opposite. He doesn't stay positive nor is he grieving every time. But he does have anger issues. Otherwise, he stays neutral all the time.

These two is a dynamic. The craze-duo. A cat and a dog, always fighting. They stick to each other like glue. The spiker - setter. Partners. Teammates. Friends.

Lovers.

On their third year, Hinata confesses, Kageyama accepts and they live happily ever after.

Not.

Once graduating, they buy an apartment. They live together and do everything together. Nothing's change, it seems.

Kageyama continues his volleyball career. Hinata works in a local office. Their days just repeating over and over. Wake up. Work. Go home. Sleep.

For Hinata that is. Hinata stayed positive even though his days are becoming boring. He should've improved his skills more. He should've trained more and slept less. So that he could also get that scholarship for an athletic school like Kageyama did.

But now here he is, sitting in an uncomfortable chair and arguing with a customer over the phone. Each day, Hinata gets frustrated. He's getting farther and farther away from the sun. Hinata's days has become gloomy.

Meanwhile Kageyama is having the best of his life! Forgetting about Hinata. Forgetting about his boyfriend just because he won a competition. Just because he won with his new teammates. With his new partner.

Hinata thinks this all day. He has no one to talk to. No one to pour his container of anger. Kageyama's too busy and his schedule is just messed up.

Until one day that Kageyama has a day off. Kageyama notices the bags under Hinata's eyes. How he's become thinner and gloomier. Hinata refuses to explain. Kageyama tries his best not to yell at his weak boyfriend.

But Kageyama tries to get answers. Kageyama feeds Hinata every morning and leaves him homemade lunch before going to school. Soon Hinata gets healthier. But he's still sad.

As Hinata recovers, he did things well. Too well that he got promoted at work. He accepted it with a fake smile. After all, what's the point? It'll only increase his salary. Kageyama won't care. He has things to do. He's too busy to be happy for me. To praise me. I'm pretty sure he even got mad at me when I refused to eat.

But it's all his fault. It's Kageyama's fault. He's making me think things. I didn't use to be like this. Am I depressed? Yeah right. Just because Kageyama is having a better life than me? Just because he only cares if I got sick? He's only concerned if I do something bad. Because he's used to me being an idiot, is that it?

Up to this day he still thinks I'm useless. Ha ha...what's our relationship again? Anyhow I'm going to improve.

Hinata does better. He recovered and now he has his own office on this tall building that he works at. He profits more than Kageyama and he does things more for the country. But Kageyama still doesn't care.

Kageyama goes home to find a drunk Hinata. A bottle of beer on one hand and the Tv remote on the other. Hinata looks up with saddened eyes. Even worse than before. Kageyama demands why. Hinata doesn't answer. Kageyama yells for answers and Hinata covers his ears.

I'm concerned he said. Why won't you talk to me he asks.

Hinata finally stood up. Glaring at Kageyama with all his might. Pointing his finger at Kageyama's chest.

It's all your fault.

Saying, yelling the cause of his frustration, Hinata blames Kageyama. They shouldn't have lived together. He should have not confessed.

I shouldn't have forgotten that you're just a heartless bastard.

Kageyama gaped. While his brows furrowed. How is it my fault? You're the one who refused to continue. You're the one who started all this. Why did I even fall in love with you?

That's it. Hinata stared wide-eyed. Tears ready to fall as Kageyama yells some more. What happened to the promise he made to himself? What happened to improving. Kageyama's telling how he's worse than him. Isn't that enough? Enough proof that I'll forever be useless?

Hinata's head is down. Kageyama stops. His becoming concerned. As he reached for Hinata, afraid to break his boyfriend. He realizes the things he said. The things he yelled to Hinata's face like it was the truth. But it wasn't. Maybe it was his fault. Hinata became depressed because of him. And he didn't even noticed. Because he wasn't paying attention to Hinata.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, as Kageyama reaches Hinata's hunching shoulders. The force that came felt numb. The smack to his face was not startling, as Kageyama's face turned.

It wasn't startling but the next words felt painful.

I fucking hate you.

Kageyana stared at Hinata's face. Tears fell down both their faces as Kageyama asks if he really meant that. He did, of course he meant that. You've been causing him pain for two years. You're the cause of his depression. You're an asshole because you didn't care. He hates you and it's too late, it's too late to apologize.

Kageyama ran. Hinata didn't chase him. And that's the biggest mistake he has ever made.

Kageyama ran with tears covering his vision. Thinking to himself how of an asshole he have been. How he's the worst person to ever live. Just because his boyfriend told him he hates him. But he really is.

No no no, he should've just apologized. He could still change things. He would ask for Hinata's forgiveness. He should have been rational and think things through. He shouldn't have yelled. Kageyama erased his earlier memories. He should apologize. Right now.

Kageyama stopped. Looking around to where he is now. He just ran aimlessly earlier but now he's going back. He's going back to Hinata to make things right. He's going to apologize–

Kageyama doesn't hear the horn of the oncoming truck.


Hey, hey hey! this is my first time writing angst and I hope you liked it because I am not really confident. Feel free to tell me of there are any mistakes and thank you for reading!

Also the ending is not the end, I'm just not really sure if I would continue this. I will continue this if you did like story so please comment if I should. And again, THANK YOU FOR READING!

-tsoco