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Awakening

Torn

Edward

No, no, no I thought as I gazed at my beautiful Bella writhing on the ground. How could I have let this happen? I'm supposed to be her protector, her savior! I laid my head in my hands and cursed myself. Carlisle put his hand on my shoulder and watched me. "You have to change her, and quickly," he thought. I shook my head. No. I couldn't do that. I would not rob her of her soul.

"Hurry!" he insisted. I quickly let my thoughts flick over to life without Bella. Empty, pointless existence with no joy or light, no reason for me to live, no Bella… I grimaced in horror and glanced back over at Carlisle. He was staring at Bella with sadness in his eyes.

"Edward," Alice thought, glancing up to meet my eyes before turning her attention back to Bella, who was gasping for breath and clawing at my shirt, "Edward, just change her. She wants it. I don't want her to die. She would be one of us, you could spend eternity with her."

I couldn't take it anymore. Bella was beginning to bleed through every orifice in her body. Her fingernails, her eyes, her nose, her ears. I felt the venom rise at the back of my throat at the sweet smell of her blood. I noticed Alice was holding her breath and Carlisle was doing the same. I could feel the panic rising up in my mind and almost instantaneously felt Jasper's calming effect. Bella's grip on my shirt was iron-like for her mere human strength.

I lowered my face to her neck and hovered above it for a moment. Would I be able to do this without killing her? The thought horrified me and I doubted myself for a moment. Me, killing Bella. I felt myself become more and more sickened with myself and what I was, and what I was about to turn Bella into. Would she ever forgive me?

I sank my teeth into her neck and felt the venom leak into her veins. I felt a rush of blood flow into my mouth and the deliciousness of her blood rolled over my tongue. I swallowed it, feeling the monster grow within me. I felt Carlisle and Alice's hands on me, pulling me away and thrusting me outside.

Bella

All I felt was pain, and it was everywhere. I couldn't make sense of direction or time. All I knew was that Edward was in my grasp, and then he wasn't. He was gone. Was this hell? No, this couldn't be hell. He was supposed to be with me. What had I done to deserve hell? Loved a vampire with all my soul, my heart, my entire being? Surely God was more merciful than that.

And as soon as I felt myself begin to despair, I felt his cool touch against my neck. I felt sharp teeth dig into my neck and I felt acidic venom leak into the wound. I gasped and writhed violently, feeling the fire spread throughout my body. I was faintly aware of a soft voice talking to me, and cool hands pushing my hair off my face.

Edward

The whole three days Bella screamed in agony I was with her. I watched her hands clutch at nothing and watched the sweat roll down her face. I watched her face and how it expressed pure torture. I hated myself. It would have been easier to just let her die. I could have gone and gotten myself killed and surely we would meet again in the afterlife. A love as strong as ours didn't diminish with death.

After three days her breathing became regular and deep and she didn't thrash uncontrollably on my couch. When I saw her eyes fluttering beneath her eyelids I tentatively touched her face. It was cool and porcelain, just like mine. I let my face hover an inch above hers and studied her features.

Her lips had turned a lovely shade of crimson and her hair fell in perfect waves around her heart shaped face. Her eyes were the same shape that they were in her human life and her nose was the same small pixie-ish nose.

I was uncertain about what to do. I debated about calling for Carlisle or Esme, but I wanted it to be me she saw when she awoke. As I gazed at her face, her eyes opened. She stared right back at me with vivid, intense red eyes for what seemed like an eternity, and then blinked.

I couldn't resist anymore. I pressed my lips against hers and felt her wind her hands through my hair. It was such a relief to not have to worry about hurting her anymore. I didn't have to worry about crushing her, killing her, or eating her.

Bella

I was brand new. I was re-born. As soon as my eyes fluttered open Edward was there, kissing me. He ran his hands all along my body and through my hair. I could almost taste the love, joy, relief, and eternity in the kiss. He kissed my eyes, my ears, my neck, my collarbone, and then I heard a quiet giggle.

I heard a growl deep in Edward's throat and watched him as he glared towards the door. I saw irritation in his black, ebony eyes. He was hungry. Dangerously hungry. I traced a line from his cheekbone down to his neck with my elongated finger. I didn't care if Alice was at the door, all I wanted was Edward and his lips on mine.

Edward

I watched Alice snicker and close the door gently behind her. I looked back down at my love and saw desire in her eyes. I knew what she wanted, and the warmth in my loins showed that I wanted it too. Her hands were trailing up and down my spine and tickling underneath my shirt. I did not want to do this in the house. I wanted it to be somewhere special, and I wasn't quite sure what to do.

I lowered my lips to her ear and whispered, "Where?"

She raised her black eyes up to mine and smiled. The expression was beautiful. It leaked through her eyes and emanated from her very being. She had always been exceptionally beautiful to me, but her vampire appearance was breath taking. Her body had been transformed in a way that made my head spin. I had always found myself gazing longingly at her gentle curves, but her body now was incomparably perfect.

"Anywhere," she growled, licking my ear.

Bella

I wanted him more than I ever had before. I wanted his body against mine, his hands all over me, and his lips on every part of my body. He lowered his face to my neck and kissed it gently, letting his tongue slip out in-between kisses. I could hear his ragged breathing and I smiled to myself, knowing that I did that to him.

He slid me off the couch onto the floor and crouched above me on all fours with an animal desire in his eyes.

"I love you Isabella Swan," he murmured. I smiled seductively at him.

"I love you more Edward Cullen."

"Oh really?" he growled.

I nodded and slowly raised my hands up to the buttons on his shirt. I undid them one-by-one and heard the sharp intake of breath every time my fingers grazed his icy skin. I gently slid the shirt off and felt my breath catch in my throat when I looked at his body. I touched his stomach lightly and traced the muscles down to the button on his jeans.

He grinned and pulled off the light sweat soaked T-Shirt I was wearing. I glanced down at my own body and felt pleased seeing it was as pale as his. He growled and lowered his lips to my stomach. He left a trail of kisses from my belly-button to the middle of my breasts and then back down again. I moaned with pleasure, ecstatic about having his lips on me.

When his lips met mine again, I wrapped one leg around his and flipped him over. I giggled as his eyes widened in surprise. I lowered my lips to his neck and kissed slowly and seductively down to his lower abdomen. His hands were in my hair and his thumbs would occasionally trace slow circles on my shoulders. I closed my eyes and relished hearing his sultry voice whisper my name over and over again.