Songfic inspired by the song "She Cries" by East West
He was there, waiting for me.
I had fled my room; fled Him—or tried to. I could never be good enough. I had failed Him. Again. Always again. He would never want me now. Before—maybe, and even then, I wasn't so sure. But not now. He would wash His hands of me and walk away, and I had fled before He could say so, not able to bear hearing it, but knowing I deserved it all the same.
Oblivious to all around me, I ran to my garden, only to find Him waiting for me. He was seated on a low stone bench, and had a sorrow in His eyes that shattered even the fragments of my broken heart. I wanted to run, but I knew I could never escape Him. The evening had fallen, and He moved to make a place for me on the bench beside Him. Trembling, I sat down and waited.
"Won't you come away with Me tonight?" He asked in a low voice.
I glanced up into His eyes in amazement. Didn't He know? Hadn't He seen? I had failed Him. So many times, I had failed Him.
"It doesn't matter where you've been before." He looked up at the moon, the sky and its vast expanse of stars all around, and then back at me. "I made this night for you."
If He had only known where I had been, He wouldn't be saying such things. He wouldn't be speaking to me with such love in His voice.
"You don't understand," I said softly. "I can't–"
He shook His head. "I know where you've been, My child, and it doesn't matter."
"How can you say that?" I blinked back tears.
"Because, I love you. I love you like this." And He held out His hands. The light of the moon illuminated the nail scars.
I burst into tears.
Those same hands effortlessly gathered me into His arms.
"Can't you see?" He murmured. "I won't leave you. Ever."
I wept all the more.
"Open your eyes and see the truth," He continued. "I am here. Do not look elsewhere. You will only find what you seek in Me." He kissed my hair. "We've been here before, sweetheart. Don't you remember? All the times I've held you?"
I nodded against His shoulder.
"Then take My hand and let go of the fear that you hold."
"I'm so afraid," I whispered.
"I know," He whispered. "Let go, My child. Let go. I won't let you fall anywhere but into My arms."
And I wrapped my arms around His neck and cried.
