"I hate you James Potter!"
The next day he stopped talking to me. The look in his eyes was different when he saw me—it was mean, hurt maybe, and sorrowful. I think that by not talking to me, he thought he might be able to retain some level of civility between us, but it didn't work out. I melted down and cried the night that I realized what I'd done by shunning him. I'd realized that I'd lost the love of my life, and there was nothing I could do. My pride kept me from going to him, I always figured that in time he'd come back to me. I waited for him all year, but as the train pulled into Kings Cross, I gave up hope.
I was pulling my trunk down from the overhead -- Sarah and Em had already left, but I'd been slow changing back into my muggle clothes, so I was left alone in the compartment. The door slid open, and there stood James Potter, laughing slightly at how disheveled I was. But then he came over and got my trunk down for me. He stood back, and a serious look came over his face.
"Lils, don't kill me or anything, but, seeing as it's our last few moments at Hogwarts, I thought it was worth a shot. I already know your answer, but I can't leave without checking…Will you go out with me?"
I sighed, knowing, as well as he did, what I was going to say. It was so hard, turning him down, but who would I be to give in? I'd already given him up long ago as being too good for me. I certainly wouldn't have chased after a boy for seven consecutive years, being rejected every single bloody day! "James…" I said, "you know I…can't."
"Why Lily? Why can't you?"
"Because…oh, I don't really know, I just know I can't, no matter how much I might want to I can't! Alright?"
"What do you mean 'no matter how much you want to'? Does that mean that you really do want to say yes? Why can't you?"
"Because I'm a stubborn ass James Potter, and my stupid bloody pride won't let me!"
"Lily, I must admit that you are a stubborn ass, but I don't care…Just remember that. Well, see you around." And with that he turned and walked out of the compartment, shutting the door behind him.
I started crying. This was ridiculous. Why on earth was I crying over Potter? Fine, fine, fine, I do love him. "James" I called out "wait!" He turned, and walked slowly back towards me. "I…I…don't know what's wrong with me. Stupid…Stupid…Lily, what're you doing?"
"Uhh…Lils, did you mean to say all that out loud????"
"What?? Oh shit! Damnit! URGH!!!! James…"I said, "yes." With that I turned and walked back into the compartment to get my trunk. However, I was interrupted by James grabbing me by the arm and pulling me into a kiss…Well, I guess things actually do work out in the end.
