I know its been quite a while since I've even touched this so I am going to rewrite it because it could do with some improvement. Well here you go.

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Chapter One

Why couldn't they see how stupid this whole situation was? Well he couldn't really say anything now could he, not that they'd listen. It was painful watching those two sing themselves hoarse, that they absolutely sucked at it just made the whole thing annoying. Goku wished he could say something but then again he has a mask to hold up. It was a wonder that no-body noticed it was all a facade to keep everything hidden. But how did Sanzo stand it, it was awful. He noticed Sanzo's hand clench around the glass he was holding, almost enough to break it. This was going to end either really badly or extremely funny. It didn't take long for the paper fan to come out, making a sharp sound when it connected to the back of their heads. Goku could hold it anymore and collapsed laughing trying to hold himself up against the table.

They had just arrived in the town when it started raining, by the time their rooms had been sorted Gojyo was once again trying to get Hakkai to drink, it had only taken a few more minutes before the first cup had come out and then it went downhill. They were witness to the first time Hakkai got drunk, which was supposed to be impossible but oh well I guess that wasn't true anymore. Sanzo and Goku would never had let them near a single cup of alcohol had they know that is was going to be the effect it had.

After Goku had gotten sick of listening to the two tone deaf idiots in the main room of the hotel they were at, he went to his room that he was going to share with Gojyo. Even this far from them the noise still travelled throughout the complex. He had thought that the Water Sprit had been a bad singer but Hakkai was one in a million, he reminded himself to never let him get drunk or sing again. He had thought that Hakkai was more intelligent than that, wasn't he supposed to be the one causing trouble, not the other way round?

After a while Sanzo started up the stairs and he realized how bad they really were if they had made Sanzo move out of his sanctuary in front of the fire. Normally nothing would move the monk until he was ready for sleep which was for a while yet he thought as he made a disturbed face at the horrific sounds coming from below.

Sometime later there was a loud commotion down stairs so Goku realised that rest of the inn had gotten fed up with all the noise as well. He realised that while he could sleep as it was quite, as people couldn't really sleep with all that going on, he should probably bring the other two up; they really didn't need then passed out in the Inns common room.

By the time he had made it to the room it seemed like everyone had once again retreated into their rooms, leaving the two comatose like people asleep in the middle of the floor. The first one he returned to his room was Hakkai, who seemed like the lighter of the two but still was quite heavy. It took all of five minutes to reach the second floor and knock on Sanzo's door.

Just after he had touched it, it swung open softly; obviously Sanzo knew him quite well if he was able to predict this reaction. Goku dragged Hakkai into the room, not even looking over at the taken bed on the other side. The whole time it took to pace Hakkai onto the bed he could feel Sanzo's stare bearing into his back, as unrelenting as always. Just as he was about to return to grab Gojyo, he heard and muttered question.

"Why?"

Goku turned slightly to the side, just enough to stare right into the questioning eyes looking at him.

"Because it was needed."

By the time he had arrived back at his room with Gojyo in tow, it was after midnight. Laying him onto the vacant bed Goku couldn't help but wonder if they were always going to be like this, whenever it rained, Gojyo would either go very quiet or get really drunk; Sanzo wasn't that bad but it didn't change the fact that sometimes he just felt like whacking him over the head with the paper fan he had taken habit to carry. Hakkai was probably the easiest one to deal with on such occasions as he didn't really take it out onto others.

He watched as Gojyo curled into himself as if seeking warmth even though it was in the middle of summer and they should be taking blankets off instead of putting them on. Gojyo, at that moment reminded him of someone so much younger. It was moments like these that reminded him that no matter how old his body seemed or how much younger than the others he looked; he was actually the oldest out of all them, and that thought left an odd feeling with him, one that he really couldn't name.

Goku shot one last look at the person on the bed and felt a shot of irritation and anger vibrate through him. They spent their lives wallowing in self pity, sure they had difficulties and loss early in their lives but at least they knew what they have lived through, memories of the people that may be gone now but still were parts of their lives. Goku had nothing like that, the earliest memories that he had were of looking at the blue sky through cage bars and using his own hair to keep him warm; but you didn't see him wallowing in self pity, he didn't have any knowledge of who he was before his life in the cage.

He curled upon himself, trying to stave off the shivers that were taking hold of his body. He locked all the anger and unwanted feelings deep in the back of his mind, almost erasing them from his conscious. He closed his eyes tight and willed himself to sleep, letting the blackness of unconsciousness take over.

When Goku finally arrived downstairs for food, it was past mid-day. Sanzo was reading once again but looked like he had been up for quite awhile, while on the other hand Gojyo and Hakkai looked like they had just managed to drag themselves out of their respective beds. As he sat down all he got was a murmured 'good morning' out of Hakkai, the others completely ignoring his presence all together.

It looks like he had been spot on last night when he thought that they were going to have major hangovers, Gojyo was rubbing his temples trying to lessen the throbbing pain Goku knew he was feeling; While Hakkai had a bottle of pain relievers in front of him, which on its own was weird unless they belonged to Sanzo. He had to stifle his laughter; it wasn't often that Hakkai was taken off guard. Goku was happily surprised when his breakfast was untouched.

"Ne Sanzo, what-"

"Shut up you annoying brat!" They all turned to stare at Hakkai, surprised. Goku felt hurt flush through him but it was quickly covered in anger. He put his knife down, trying to stay calm and slowly walked out of the room leaving the others to stare after him.

It was half an hour later when Goku heard a knock on his room door dragging him out of his thoughts. He knew instantly when he heard the hesitation in the action. The silence dragged on for a while neither wanted to talk first.

"Look I'm sorry."Goku heard him mumble and he really couldn't tell if he was being sincere or not but at the moment he really didn't care. This whole business of feeling sorry for yourself was wearing him thin.

"Just leave Hakkai, just go away." His voice was tired, projecting his thoughts out loud. It was another minute before he heard him shuffle away. Goku just wondered how this was all going to work out.

There chap one is redone.

It there is anything I messed up with please tell, and I would like you thoughts on this chap please.\

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