Parings: 2+1/1+2
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DANA GLOVER: It is you (I Have Loved) Written by Dana Glover From the Shriek Soundtrack .
There is something that I see In the way you look at me There's a smile There's a truth in your eyes
The soft ringing in his ears had gradually died away but the pain in his head hadn't lessened at all. Not that that surprised him.
"Duo, stay awake." I knew that voice. It was very familiar but it sounded scared. That was not something I'd ever associate the owner of the voice with. It must be a dream. A painful jolt quickly made me realise that it wasn't a dream. I wrote off the strange tone in Heero's voice as a result of my pain. Must be going crazy.
"Hey... Heero. Not calling me baka?" I asked softly as I struggled to stay conscious. I guess the blood loss and the beatings I received from the OZ soldiers finally taking their toll.
"Hn. Baka." I could imagine the glare he friend was sending me and would have smiled at the familiarity but couldn't muster up enough energy. I cracked my eyes open a little and blinked at the expression on Heero's face. There was worry in those blue depths but also relief. There was a relieved smile on his face, a certain softness that took my breath away.
But an unexpected way On this unexpected day Could it mean this is Where I belong It is you I have loved all along
"Heero... you're smiling." I said softly as I stared up at him in amazement. Heero looked away quickly, and he fumbled for something under the bed. He ducked his head, but not before I saw what could have been a faint blush come over the stoic boy's face in the pale moonlight that crept into the room from the window. I blinked at the mop of messy brown hair that was visible over the top of the bed incredulously. I winced and shut my eyes as I moved slightly, the injured muscles of my back protesting violently.
"Baka. Stop moving." I heard Heero say but the sting was gone from his voice. Something... concern, perhaps, was edging the cold voice. I felt a gentle hand start to mop at my brow, gently cleaning the blood from my face. I bet I looked like Hell warmed over. Reluctantly, I slowly opened his eyes to stare at Heero who was concentrating on the cut that sliced across my forehead, just under my hairline. Heero's gaze flickered down to mine and I felt my heart start to beat faster. Something... something in Heero's gaze had changed. It was softer, almost caring and he swallowed.
It's no more mystery It is finally clear to me You're the home my heart Searched for so long And it is you I have loved all along
There had been times when I had wondered about my feelings towards my cold teammate but as I stared up into the bottomless blue of his eyes, I suddenly realised what it was.
I had had many relationships before. With both girls and boys. But in all my relationships, I had never been able to stay with one person for longer than a month. There had always been something missing, something I wanted, needed even, but couldn't touch. But as I stared up at Heero, those Prussian blue eyes watching me with concern and warmth, I realised what it was.
I, Duo Maxwell, self-proclaimed Shinigami, loved Heero Yuy. With all my heart and all my soul. And if I wasn't mistaken, Heero Yuy cared for me too, even if it was just a little. There was softness, a tenderness reflecting from the Prussian blue into his own vivid violet that left me breathless and hopeful. I hesitantly reached out towards Heero, ignoring the sharp twang of pain that the movement created. Heero didn't make a move to stop me. Instead, he leant closer, as though he himself was longing for the touch.
There were times I ran to hide Afraid to show the other side Alone in the night without you But now I know just who you are And I know you hold my heart Finally this is where I belong It is you I have loved all along
I paused, feeling afraid, nervous. The intensity of my feelings almost frightened me. Despite being a clown and a goof, I had always tried to hide from them, my feelings, to hide from anything that could hurt me, love being one of the top things on my list. I've always laughed and smiled over my deeper fear of being hurt. I'd always run and ignored my true feelings for Heero. I'd always tried to convince myself that they weren't real, just something that had happened because of the closeness due to the war.
But night after night after night, I'd lie awake in the room I shared with Heero and just watch the boy sleep. Despite the cold and uncaring front he put on when he was awake, Heero's face was like an open book when asleep. His face would betray the vulnerability and tiredness that Heero refused to express in any other situation and I'd always longed to just wrap the boy in his arms, to rescue him from his nightmares and soothe his pain.
I'd always known who Heero was to him, I'd always known that Heero would one day worm his way into my heart, ever since that first time we had met when I'd shot him. Twice. There was something special about him, the way he fought so hard for something that could mean the end of everything he knew.
But now that I had finally realised it, I was scared. Scared that it was all an illusion.
I drew his hand back but Heero caught it and held it in his warm grasp.
"Duo no baka[1]." Heero breathed softly as he gently tightened his hold on my hand. I gasped and my eyes flew open to meet Heero's.
It's no more mystery It is finally clear to me You're the home my heart Searched for so long And it is you I have loved all along
"Heero?" I croaked fearfully, afraid that this was just a cosmic joke. Heero gently smiled again, hesitantly. My heart beat wildly in my chest and I desperately needed assurance that this wasn't a dream.
"Punch me to make sure I'm not dreaming." I murmured softly. A strange expression came over Heero's face, mischievousness maybe, and Heero poked my side. I let out a yelp as my abused rib made it known and shot a glare at the amused pilot.
"That hurt!"
"Hn. Baka. That was the point. Now you know it wasn't a dream, ne?" Heero said and his logic was comforting but not any less painful.
Over and over I'm filled with emotion Your love, it rushes Through my veins And I am filled With the sweetest devotion As I, I look into Your perfect face
I felt another surge of emotion as I stared up into Heero's face. The amusement twinkled in those Prussian depths but the warmth still lingered.
"Heero, you came back for me." I said softly. Heero looked away.
"You... Duo no baka." Heero grunted out as he started to stand. I reached out quickly, ignoring the pain that shot through me and grabbed onto Heero's wrist. The stoic pilot didn't make any move to try to get away but he didn't face me either. I gently tugged on his wrist until Heero sat on the edge of the bed. Still, the boy didn't face me. I couldn't help but smile at the back of his head. Heero was probably confused about what he was feeling. I knew I was. I sat up, despite my protesting muscles and gently, ever so gently touched Heero's chin. I gently turned his face to meet mine and graced the pilot with a smile. A gentle, loving and completely open smile. Heero's eyes reflected the surprise.
"Heero... why did you save me?" Heero tried to turn away again but I wouldn't let him. Heero dropped his eyes and, uncharacteristically, began to fiddle with the bed sheet in a nervous gesture. Heero didn't answer and the silence between them stretched. He gripped the bed sheet tightly but then let it go quickly and pulled his chin out of my hand.
"Heero..." Heero didn't turn back around. I sighed and moved closer, grimacing at the pain but more intent on getting Heero to talk to me. Heero turned around as he felt the movement, a frown on his face.
"Duo, I told you not to move!" He took hold of my shoulders and made as though to push me back onto the bed but I grabbed his hands.
"Heero, please." Heero turned away from my soft plea and tried to move his hands but I wouldn't let him.
It's no more mystery It is finally clear to me You're the home my heart Searched for so long And it is you I have loved It is you I have loved It is you I have loved all along
"Heero. Look at me." Heero turned his face to me but not without trepidation. I smiled a little, knowing how Heero felt. I raised Heero's face to look at me and gave him another gentle smile.
"Heero. I have something to tell you." Heero paused and nodded. I could feel my chest tightening at the intensity of my own feelings.
"What... what do you have to tell me?" Heero seemed uncharacteristically hesitant and a little fearful.
"I love you Heero. I have. For a long time." Heero stared at me in surprise for a long moment. Another moment ticked by... then another and another. My smile faltered a little as I stared into Heero's eyes. Was I wrong? Was Heero just being a concerned teammate?
Heero was gaping at me, a bit like a fish. My mouth twitched slightly at the sight and I finally couldn't keep it in any longer and I started laughing. Heero blinked and clapped his mouth shut.
"What?"
"Your face... it was priceless!" I said in between chuckles. Heero looked a little put out.
"You didn't mean it?" He asked softly, his head bowed. I stopped laughing immediately and grabbed Heero's shoulders as the boy started to rise.
"No! I meant it Heero! I do love you!" Heero looked a little doubtful so I did the first thing I could think of. I leant forward and captured those tempting lips before Heero could react. I felt the soft exhalation of Heero's breath against my lips as I claimed them. I pulled the boy closer to me, wrapping my arms around his waist lightly and deepened the kiss, moving my head to the side so our noses wouldn't bump. I felt Heero hesitantly wrap his arms around my neck and then far more firmly as he leaned into the kiss. I ignored the protesting of my rather battered form and gave myself up to the kiss. Eventually, my back and ribs throbbing painfully, I reluctantly pulled back and looked into Heero's eyes.
"Does that answer your question?" I asked quietly. Heero smiled, a beautiful expression and he lightly rubbed the nape of my neck.
"I love you too Duo." I felt as though someone from up above smiled down at me and for once in my life, I didn't feel haunted by the past. I smiled goofily.
"Forever Heero. Forever." A soft smile lit up his eyes.
"Forever." I leant against him and kissed him, our promise sealed with a kiss.
Owari~
---------------------------------------------- [1] Um, it's s'pposed to be "Duo wa baka" to be grammatically correct but... it sounds funny so I left it like most fanfic writers do, "Duo no baka."
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DANA GLOVER: It is you (I Have Loved) Written by Dana Glover From the Shriek Soundtrack .
There is something that I see In the way you look at me There's a smile There's a truth in your eyes
The soft ringing in his ears had gradually died away but the pain in his head hadn't lessened at all. Not that that surprised him.
"Duo, stay awake." I knew that voice. It was very familiar but it sounded scared. That was not something I'd ever associate the owner of the voice with. It must be a dream. A painful jolt quickly made me realise that it wasn't a dream. I wrote off the strange tone in Heero's voice as a result of my pain. Must be going crazy.
"Hey... Heero. Not calling me baka?" I asked softly as I struggled to stay conscious. I guess the blood loss and the beatings I received from the OZ soldiers finally taking their toll.
"Hn. Baka." I could imagine the glare he friend was sending me and would have smiled at the familiarity but couldn't muster up enough energy. I cracked my eyes open a little and blinked at the expression on Heero's face. There was worry in those blue depths but also relief. There was a relieved smile on his face, a certain softness that took my breath away.
But an unexpected way On this unexpected day Could it mean this is Where I belong It is you I have loved all along
"Heero... you're smiling." I said softly as I stared up at him in amazement. Heero looked away quickly, and he fumbled for something under the bed. He ducked his head, but not before I saw what could have been a faint blush come over the stoic boy's face in the pale moonlight that crept into the room from the window. I blinked at the mop of messy brown hair that was visible over the top of the bed incredulously. I winced and shut my eyes as I moved slightly, the injured muscles of my back protesting violently.
"Baka. Stop moving." I heard Heero say but the sting was gone from his voice. Something... concern, perhaps, was edging the cold voice. I felt a gentle hand start to mop at my brow, gently cleaning the blood from my face. I bet I looked like Hell warmed over. Reluctantly, I slowly opened his eyes to stare at Heero who was concentrating on the cut that sliced across my forehead, just under my hairline. Heero's gaze flickered down to mine and I felt my heart start to beat faster. Something... something in Heero's gaze had changed. It was softer, almost caring and he swallowed.
It's no more mystery It is finally clear to me You're the home my heart Searched for so long And it is you I have loved all along
There had been times when I had wondered about my feelings towards my cold teammate but as I stared up into the bottomless blue of his eyes, I suddenly realised what it was.
I had had many relationships before. With both girls and boys. But in all my relationships, I had never been able to stay with one person for longer than a month. There had always been something missing, something I wanted, needed even, but couldn't touch. But as I stared up at Heero, those Prussian blue eyes watching me with concern and warmth, I realised what it was.
I, Duo Maxwell, self-proclaimed Shinigami, loved Heero Yuy. With all my heart and all my soul. And if I wasn't mistaken, Heero Yuy cared for me too, even if it was just a little. There was softness, a tenderness reflecting from the Prussian blue into his own vivid violet that left me breathless and hopeful. I hesitantly reached out towards Heero, ignoring the sharp twang of pain that the movement created. Heero didn't make a move to stop me. Instead, he leant closer, as though he himself was longing for the touch.
There were times I ran to hide Afraid to show the other side Alone in the night without you But now I know just who you are And I know you hold my heart Finally this is where I belong It is you I have loved all along
I paused, feeling afraid, nervous. The intensity of my feelings almost frightened me. Despite being a clown and a goof, I had always tried to hide from them, my feelings, to hide from anything that could hurt me, love being one of the top things on my list. I've always laughed and smiled over my deeper fear of being hurt. I'd always run and ignored my true feelings for Heero. I'd always tried to convince myself that they weren't real, just something that had happened because of the closeness due to the war.
But night after night after night, I'd lie awake in the room I shared with Heero and just watch the boy sleep. Despite the cold and uncaring front he put on when he was awake, Heero's face was like an open book when asleep. His face would betray the vulnerability and tiredness that Heero refused to express in any other situation and I'd always longed to just wrap the boy in his arms, to rescue him from his nightmares and soothe his pain.
I'd always known who Heero was to him, I'd always known that Heero would one day worm his way into my heart, ever since that first time we had met when I'd shot him. Twice. There was something special about him, the way he fought so hard for something that could mean the end of everything he knew.
But now that I had finally realised it, I was scared. Scared that it was all an illusion.
I drew his hand back but Heero caught it and held it in his warm grasp.
"Duo no baka[1]." Heero breathed softly as he gently tightened his hold on my hand. I gasped and my eyes flew open to meet Heero's.
It's no more mystery It is finally clear to me You're the home my heart Searched for so long And it is you I have loved all along
"Heero?" I croaked fearfully, afraid that this was just a cosmic joke. Heero gently smiled again, hesitantly. My heart beat wildly in my chest and I desperately needed assurance that this wasn't a dream.
"Punch me to make sure I'm not dreaming." I murmured softly. A strange expression came over Heero's face, mischievousness maybe, and Heero poked my side. I let out a yelp as my abused rib made it known and shot a glare at the amused pilot.
"That hurt!"
"Hn. Baka. That was the point. Now you know it wasn't a dream, ne?" Heero said and his logic was comforting but not any less painful.
Over and over I'm filled with emotion Your love, it rushes Through my veins And I am filled With the sweetest devotion As I, I look into Your perfect face
I felt another surge of emotion as I stared up into Heero's face. The amusement twinkled in those Prussian depths but the warmth still lingered.
"Heero, you came back for me." I said softly. Heero looked away.
"You... Duo no baka." Heero grunted out as he started to stand. I reached out quickly, ignoring the pain that shot through me and grabbed onto Heero's wrist. The stoic pilot didn't make any move to try to get away but he didn't face me either. I gently tugged on his wrist until Heero sat on the edge of the bed. Still, the boy didn't face me. I couldn't help but smile at the back of his head. Heero was probably confused about what he was feeling. I knew I was. I sat up, despite my protesting muscles and gently, ever so gently touched Heero's chin. I gently turned his face to meet mine and graced the pilot with a smile. A gentle, loving and completely open smile. Heero's eyes reflected the surprise.
"Heero... why did you save me?" Heero tried to turn away again but I wouldn't let him. Heero dropped his eyes and, uncharacteristically, began to fiddle with the bed sheet in a nervous gesture. Heero didn't answer and the silence between them stretched. He gripped the bed sheet tightly but then let it go quickly and pulled his chin out of my hand.
"Heero..." Heero didn't turn back around. I sighed and moved closer, grimacing at the pain but more intent on getting Heero to talk to me. Heero turned around as he felt the movement, a frown on his face.
"Duo, I told you not to move!" He took hold of my shoulders and made as though to push me back onto the bed but I grabbed his hands.
"Heero, please." Heero turned away from my soft plea and tried to move his hands but I wouldn't let him.
It's no more mystery It is finally clear to me You're the home my heart Searched for so long And it is you I have loved It is you I have loved It is you I have loved all along
"Heero. Look at me." Heero turned his face to me but not without trepidation. I smiled a little, knowing how Heero felt. I raised Heero's face to look at me and gave him another gentle smile.
"Heero. I have something to tell you." Heero paused and nodded. I could feel my chest tightening at the intensity of my own feelings.
"What... what do you have to tell me?" Heero seemed uncharacteristically hesitant and a little fearful.
"I love you Heero. I have. For a long time." Heero stared at me in surprise for a long moment. Another moment ticked by... then another and another. My smile faltered a little as I stared into Heero's eyes. Was I wrong? Was Heero just being a concerned teammate?
Heero was gaping at me, a bit like a fish. My mouth twitched slightly at the sight and I finally couldn't keep it in any longer and I started laughing. Heero blinked and clapped his mouth shut.
"What?"
"Your face... it was priceless!" I said in between chuckles. Heero looked a little put out.
"You didn't mean it?" He asked softly, his head bowed. I stopped laughing immediately and grabbed Heero's shoulders as the boy started to rise.
"No! I meant it Heero! I do love you!" Heero looked a little doubtful so I did the first thing I could think of. I leant forward and captured those tempting lips before Heero could react. I felt the soft exhalation of Heero's breath against my lips as I claimed them. I pulled the boy closer to me, wrapping my arms around his waist lightly and deepened the kiss, moving my head to the side so our noses wouldn't bump. I felt Heero hesitantly wrap his arms around my neck and then far more firmly as he leaned into the kiss. I ignored the protesting of my rather battered form and gave myself up to the kiss. Eventually, my back and ribs throbbing painfully, I reluctantly pulled back and looked into Heero's eyes.
"Does that answer your question?" I asked quietly. Heero smiled, a beautiful expression and he lightly rubbed the nape of my neck.
"I love you too Duo." I felt as though someone from up above smiled down at me and for once in my life, I didn't feel haunted by the past. I smiled goofily.
"Forever Heero. Forever." A soft smile lit up his eyes.
"Forever." I leant against him and kissed him, our promise sealed with a kiss.
Owari~
---------------------------------------------- [1] Um, it's s'pposed to be "Duo wa baka" to be grammatically correct but... it sounds funny so I left it like most fanfic writers do, "Duo no baka."
