My life was never easy, not the way I see it. Sure, I got everything when and how I wanted it, and most people would think that one could not be more happy in a life like that.
I was the younger child, the slightly more pampered one, but I was also the one who had to live up to my father's expectations. I'm meant to become a better huntress than Winter, unless I want to continue my father's business, which is not something I ever plan on doing.
I don't want to be another typical Schnee. I want to be someone who actually matters, someone who does something important, not just someone who sells dust for their entire life. I do not wish to become my father, if you could even call him that.
My father was never there for me in my life, he always had something better to do, work most likely. Work always comes first in this family. The times when my father would listen to what I had to say, I got scolded for not thinking about the good of the company or how my ideas would affect my life. I always knew I wanted to be a huntress, it was just something I had to do.
I was never keen on spending time with my family, I grew out of that, like most kids. There would be times in my life when I simply stayed in my room for long periods of time and no one would even notice me gone.
School was never really a problem, as I grew older, I grew wiser at the same time. My father used to try to teach me things I didn't understand, but slowly he began to notice that his teaching technique was not a good as he thought. At least I hope he did. He was not at all kind or encouraging is something went wrong, his ways were completely subjective. Sometimes he even caused me physical pain, he acts as if it never happened, but our whole family knows it did. He's always had a bad temper and been known for his abusiveness.
When my father stopped teaching me himself, my grades got much higher and I started paying more attention to what I was doing. This was the time when I decided I wanted to become a huntress, for I did not want to continue living life like the way I was living it then.
I was never allowed to do the things I wanted, for example when I told my father I enjoyed singing, he threw me on stage and made me sing in front a huge crowd. I knew I was good, but I never wanted that. I never wanted anything he gave me. Winter was always the pet, everything she wanted, she got. I feel as if my father thought I was the same, but he wouldn't know. He doesn't know what I want, he never has. He knows nothing about me. Shows how much how he really cares.
Winter was extremely surprised and happy about me becoming a huntress, which was both weird and expected. Of course she needed to act as if she were happy for me, so she wouldn't feel like I was her competition in this game of life she's playing. She was surprised, even though I told her several times about how I dreamed of this, she didn't think I'd actually go through with it.
I did, however, go through with my training, then I applied to Beacon, and I got in. No one in my family really accepted my decision, they didn't even believe I could make it in. They did not believe in me, but that's nothing new.
This time I'm gonna show them, all of them, that I am capable of doing this. I'm capable of not becoming another snobby Schnee. I'll become something I've always wanted to be, free.
