Chapter 1: Last Time
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As I was driving I kept thinking ( I need to do this. This is for myself , to keep sane, to know if I should keep on going.) I was so deep in my thoughts I didn't realize I was already Infront of that familiar office in Shibuya. I got out of the car. dreaded going up this stairs.
When I entered the office I heard Lin-san's continuous typing. "Mai.Tea" sighing I put my bag down on my table. And go to the pantry to make the tea. After pouring hot water on the tea leaves in cup I took it and knocked on his door. "Come In". I opened the door and gave him the cup and left Immediately. And took the other cup to Lin-san.
Then I went back to my table to finish those paper work. "this would be the last".
Hours passed by of endless filing. Lin-san got out of his office. "Naru I've got to go, Good night Taniyama-san". "Good night Lin-san".
This is it. But how do I exactly do this or say this. I got up knocked on his door, opened it a little "Naru?". "Yes Mai?" I looked at him with wide eyes and him being Naru raised his eyebrows and said "If you've got nothing to say then get out." Ouch! Why does everything he says affect me
"N-naru I...I..". I stood there not knowing how to say it. "What Mai?" Then he went back to reading God knows what. "I love you" We were silent for a few seconds. He closed the book and sighed. "Mai we've been through this, It was never me. I'm not Gene, I'm never going to be him."
"No! Naru listen to me. It's you, it's always been you. It was never Gene. Pl..Please I beg you believe me" He stared hard at me with those cold eyes. My tears were beginning to fall. "Pl... Please N-naru." I moved closer to him. He turned his face away and what he said next broke my heart more. "No Mai." I sobbed hard "Wh.. Why? Naru? Why won't you believe me?" He just turned away, it made me cry more. (After all those years I still meant nothing to him. only an assistant and nothing more) I leaned down to whisper on his ear "I'm sorry" and kissed his cheek. As I ran outside I grabbed my bag and drove myself to the airport. I kept thinking (I made the right choice) parked the car and cried hard. I waited for my tears to subside. Got out and walk to the door. Slightly turned back (This is the last time) And I went inside.
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Naru:
I kept looking at the door where she run out, the only thing that kept running in my head
"I love you.." "I'm sorry" it's like a playlist on repeat. I didn't even realize I was holding my cheek where she kissed me. I got up took my keys and locked the office and drove home. I wasn't even sure how I got home safe with my mind floating in the air. I laid down on my bed closed my eyes and slowly fell asleep with those words on repeat.
