Dear Jade,
You recently asked me why I love you and although I answered you, in all honesty, I didn't feel like the true answer to that question was something that could be given properly in a couple of short sentences, so I decided to write you this letter. I'm hoping that whenever you get an attack of insecurity (incidentally that is in the list of the things I love about you) you can read this and feel better.
From the first moment I met you, you intrigued me! Everyone was so shocked by your sharp tongue and dark humour but I found you quick thinking and funny.
A few days later, we all saw you sing for the first time and you blew everyone in the room away! They all commented on your amazing voice and steely confidence but I saw that flicker of doubt in your eyes, that need for approval that you so desperately deny seeking. As the room exploded into applause that magical smile of yours lit up your face and my heart just melted! That was the day I knew I had to make you mine.
I tried for weeks to get you to notice me, trying to make eye contact with you whenever possible, laughing at your witty put downs, trying to find reasons to start conversations with you. Andre thought I was mad, said you were just mean through and through, but as I pointed out no-one who was truly mean would have taken someone like Cat under their wing and tried to protect them from their own stupidity.
Then fate stepped in to help me and Sikowitz grabbed us for a drive by acting exercise. As usual, you nailed it! You're more talented than I think you'll ever realise! Afterwards you smiled at me and I took the opportunity to ask you to go for a coffee with me. My heart literally flipped when you agreed. We chatted and laughed for the next hour and it took all my strength to tear myself away from you. One hour was all it took for me to fall hopelessly in love with you and although it was nearly a year before we said we were exclusive, I never saw anyone else during that time and I know you didn't either!
It's three years now and I still feel that same rush when you look at me, my heart still melts when you smile, I still go weak when you kiss me and I love that I see the you that no-one else does! I see the sweet, vulnerable and loving Jade. I love the way you always fall asleep before me, the way you pull my arms around you and rest your head on my chest. I look at you skin against mine, as pure and white as a snowflake but as soft and warm as a ray of sunlight. I stroke your hair, gently kiss your head and know that I am the luckiest guy in the world. Then in the morning you wake me up by kissing me softly and as I open my eyes and look up at you leaning on my chest smiling sweetly, I know you'll never understand just how beautiful you are to me and although we both know I get a buzz from how insanely jealous you get when I'm around other girls, there really is no need. There will never be anyone for me but you and one day I will get to see you in a wedding dress, black or white doesn't really matter to me as I know you'll look stunning either way!
I hope this letter has answered your question,
Forever yours
Beck xxx
