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It's hard for her to breathe.

The scarf that seem to comfort her in the past, that kept her life from going astray. That same scarf is the one that seems to choke her now. She can see nothing, she has to take the scarf away from her.

No she neeeds to take the scarf away from her neck.

She closes her eyes,her hands tremble... Still in what seems as the most painfully slowest way, she finally has the scarf in her hands and not her neck.

She is able to breathe.

She cries.

Mikasa is a strong girl ever since she witnessed her parents death she hasn't shed a tear, tears are for the weak and Mikasa is not weak, she tells herself that she is strong and the strong do not cry. As she wipes her tears, she looks at herself with disgust.

How far has she fallen. Here she is running away and crying like a child. Tears don't solve anything. They never did. Tears doesn't bring back your parents, they don't help when the coldness threatens to take over you. They don't help when you are push in a home and yet you find yourself lost. They don't help you out of the dark, or make everything alright and They don't make the men who did her wrong sorry... no...No.. They don't anything good. Tears doesn't stop the empty feeling.

No they don't

It was him who help her, that brought her from the grasps of death, from the coldness that grew through her soul. He who filled her, made her feel like she can live again. He gave her a reason to go on. So it was reasonable when she broke down, it was only right tears fell down her checks and it seems hard to breathe. When the world she had build seemed to fall right over her, she never thought he would be her doom, he was always a savoir to her so she didn't knew that he could make her fall until she did.

Eren Yeager couldn't love her back.

With that she fell.


To say that Mikasa cares for Eren Yeager is a misconception, she loves him more than her own life. Why shouldn't she? Her life isn't great one to start with it was only when him came into her life she started to live it. To understand that his view in life is way better than her own, she loves him for that and many other reasons,wonders what life would been like if she hadn't met Eren.

'Miserable, my life would have been miserable' She believes that. After all it was him who pick her up when she thought that she couldn't stand anymore 'Is it worth it? I just would have been in the state as I am now' She looks at her hands slightly trembling ,but, not as much as before the scarf still in hands. She looks down at it questioning it.

Was this the same scarf that her warm inside?

The very same scarf that once was her lifeline?

The one that chase the nightmares away from her.

So why, oh dear God why? Why did it feel as it could burn her very hands off?

It could make heart shattered more than it already was.

Despite feeling that she still couldn't let it go , it was her lifeline.
Mikasa take deep breathes, she closes her eyes and wills herself not to cry. Everything is the same, everything is the same, she repeats in her head. Yes is everything might seem the same but everything has changed ...

And that's not okay.

She breathes again, deep breathes. In and out. In and out.

'I should have known, I should have...' her head hurts and air seems hard to grasp 'CALM DOWN... calmdownclamdownclamdown' that doesn't work and once again tears stream down her face and the world is spinning, if she was in her right mind she would been mortified by how weak she looked. But at last she was not in her right mind, no -she was lost scared and she needed it to stop.

After fifteen minutes of crying and finding it hard to see and breathe, she came out of her panic attack, it was okay-well if you call weeping silently alright. She knows what she has to do, she doesn't want to do it, she wants to pretend to that everything was the same. That Eren loved her back and that he never stopped loving her. She knew if that happen everything will be alright again,everything would be good. Once again looks at the scarf in her hands closes her eyes and makes her decision.

It petite, wrong and -she admits- cowardly but she cannot see another way out and she already decided and when she makes her mind it's quite hard to sway her decision, that's why her heart could be easily broken... Once she makes a choice she puts everything in it even her heart.

Mikasa Ackerman is running away.


Hi again! if you made this far then congrats that means I don't suck at writing fics and lost your interest well this not a oneshot! Yah! I wanted to make a small series of connected drabbles.. So mostly they are going to be at the least 500 and at most to whatever I feel writing at the time.. I will do my best to finish this series, I promise on Mikasa scarf hahah well I really hope you guys enjoy this. Leave a comment if you are up to it-BlueHeart

P.s: A special thanks to RachelGarfield12 and divenire for your reviews!