Brendan's POV on the first kiss in the club cellar...
FINELY… I've wanted to do this for a very long time, it's just I needed to see if he wanted the same thing and guess what HE DID. I don't know what it is about him, it's just he's so trusting and vulnerable which is exactly what I wanted cause I know that the secret is safe cause it's just a onetime thing init…this won't happen again cause I'm not gay I'm not into guys it's just to pass time. His lips feel so good and soft he's clearly quite scared, I can feel him shaking and I kinda feel sorry for him, he thought that he was going to get a beating for what happened last night but I had to scare him to be in control. This thing will only work if he accepts the fact that I'm in control that I call the shots not him. Do I want this though…DO I? After this kiss it is a definite YES! But it can't get to far I can't let him get into it too much and I can't get into it too much either…I need to remember that.
Ste's pov
Omg…OMG…OMG…I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO GET A BEATING OF A LIFETIME, I seriously thought he was going to kill me there and then and now he is kissing me and it feels…I don't know It feels gooooooood! But I mean I'm not gay am I? I don't like guys, do I? After that guy inside I thought that was just an over trusting friendship that I liked but I didn't know what those feelings actually meant. He feels so good he's a really good kisser but I don't know I'm just very confused and I don't know actually. I didn't even know that he was gay, he has a wife well practically ex-wife but he has kids and I have kids so we can't be gay, but for him I know I want to be I feel amazing so good. My boss bad man Brendan Brady who is like a proper cool guy and is super strong is kissing me, me of all people and yeah I want this but is it a good idea he is a bad guy, like when he was just using Carmel to smuggle drugs into clubs and other places, but he has been nice to me for a while and taking me to poker games and the pub. But yeah I'm sure… I DO WANT THIS.
