Solace

Summary- Without any warning Jack has disappeared. He's left Yusei all alone, heartbroken, and dead inside. Yusei begins trying to mask his pain but it's finally pushed him to brink. Will memories be enough to save him or will the solace of blood be to much of an addiction?

A/N- I'm basically a yaoi fangirl if you check my profile and go to my favorite stories you'll see that so I decided to try and write a yaoi fanfic or at least a tragedy mixed with some fluff. The 1st chapt is in 3rd person then the chapts after it will be from Yusei's POV if I wanna continue this. This is kinda like the prologue I guess

*Hospital 9:30 p.m.*

A figure is lying still and barely alive on a hospital bed. There are multiple IVs pumping medicine into him trying to revive the pale corpse. He's barely alive but he's holding on waiting for one person in particular to come. His name is Yusei Fudo but he wasn't always like this. He would've been fine if he hadn't found solace in his own blood.

*2 weeks earlier*

"Yusei...I knew this would probably happen sooner or later." Jack said looking at Yusei's angelic body as the moonlight began to shine into their room in streaks.

Jack stood there frozen in time looking at Yusei and began to remember the 1st time they met. After a few seconds went by Jack shook his head and began to walk over to a desk.

"I can't let memories persuade me. I must forget this place...everything if I want to truly be alive." Jack said as he began to write something on a piece of paper.

Jack walked over to the nightstand by Yusei's sleeping figure, laid a note down on it he then proceeds to kiss Yusei's forehead, and left the room.

"Goodbye Yusei. One day we may meet again." Jack whispered as he disappeared into the night without ever looking back.

*The Next Morning*

Yusei had woken up and noticed Jack wasn't there. Seeing as he and Jack had been dating for 3 years he was use to waking up alone but this morning just wasn't sitting right with him. He had gotten dressed and just as he was about to walk out of the room noticed the note.

"Huh? A note...Jack's never left a note before." Yusei said as he picked the note up and his ocean blue eyes became misty.

His hands began to shake as he continued to read the note and acid tears streamed down his cheeks. Jack...his lover...his life had left him...for good this time.

"Yusei...there's no easy way to say this but I believe it's best for us to go our separate ways. I love you...loved you don't think any other way about it but I guess our relationship was doomed from the start. It's time we move on and find new people...start our lives over. Thanks for making these last few years we shared...comforting. ~ Jack Atlas"

"Jack...how could you?" Yusei whispered as he fell to the ground holding himself trying to block out the pain that was ripping through his body.

Yusei laid there as he began to drown in tears and pain. Jack had lied to him...had told him that they'd be together forever...that he loved him with all his heart.

"Well where are you now Jack if you aren't here with me?" Yusei thought as he forced his body to get up off the cold hardwood floor.

After a few minutes of fighting his body's protests to just lie there Yusei was walking down the stairs of his home. The thought of it just being him living in the apartment he and Jack had shared for years pulled at his heartstrings. This was the place that they had built their relationship...the place they had made love...the place that Jack had made so many promises to Yusei...and had broken every single one in a matter of seconds.

The thoughts that were rushing through Yusei's head were unmistakable but not so easy to ignore as he had anticipated.

"What if he's out there with someone else right now? What if he's been lying to me for the last 3 years? I bet he's always been lying to me and cheating on me behind my back. He never loved me." Yusei thought as he clutched his head in pain.

He never loved me kept replaying in Yusei's head. It couldn't possibly be true Jack always told Yusei he loved him he even showed him that on many occasions and in many different ways. The pain kept building up as Yusei looked at pictures that were on a brown coffee table in front of him. Just when he couldn't take it anymore he swung his arms knocking them all off.

Yusei fell to his knees as the pictures hit the ground and the glass shattered which an almost sickening crunch but Yusei ignored that as tears began to hit the ground and he punched the floor to release some of his pain. Yusei then looked over to the picture that was the closest to him which happened to be the picture that was taken the 1st time they met.

*Flashback*

They were at a party and Yusei had just happened to bump into Jack. They stood there a few minutes chatting then they both just felt a connection. Jack had somehow gotten close enough to Yusei to kiss him and at that moment their friend Crow had snapped the picture. Crow had set the whole thing up because he figured they'd make a good couple or at least good friends. Jack was furious that Crow had taken the picture but Yusei was somewhat thrilled and had asked for a copy.

Not more than a few months later Yusei and Jack had bought an apartment and moved in together. Yusei in particular instead of helping move things in had became so wrapped up in the picture that he failed to notice Jack sitting on the coffee table in front of him with his amethyst eyes showing amusement.

Jack had then gotten tired of being ignored and grabbed Yusei's arm and jerked him in his direction so he could snap Yusei out of his daze but that didn't go so according to plan. They had both fallen (Jack fell because Yusei fell on him) and began to laugh. It was that night they learned more about each other than any other night they had spent together.

*End of Flashback*

Yusei began to reach towards the picture ignoring the shards of glass that were on it. Jus as he was about to pick it up a long jagged piece of broken glass cut his finger. Yusei winced in pain but then stopped as crimson red blood began to fall from the cut. Yusei sat there for a few minutes and watched the blood hit the floor listening to the sound it made it was hypnotizing to him. He felt all his pain disappear...at least until the blood stopped falling.

"What was that feeling I felt as I watched my blood fall? It felt wonderful...there was no pain." Yusei thought as he picked up a piece of glass and began to cut a line down another one of fingers and watched the blood fall again.

Yusei didn't know what this feeling was but he knew he liked it. He'd never felt this calm in his whole life and continued to cut his fingers until they were all red and covered with blood.

A/N- This is my attempt at a yaoi story. The next few chapts will be in Yusei's POV and reveal the present and the past as days go by. Anyway R&R please. Tell me what you think of this story and if you want me continue. Flames are welcome but only if it's criticism. Thanks Maria Starlight out!