A BB/Terra OneShot
I do not own the Teen Titans or anything in or about the D.C. Universe.
Rated T for some mild langauge and dark suggestive themes.
Thump…Thump..Thump.Thump. My heartbeats quicken. I know if I let it continue I will cross over. Cross over into a life that I know I can handle once there, but am deathly afraid of the journey. A life where I can see her. My brain races to catch up with the one man marathon my heart is running. I can smell her sweet essence through my darkness. I am scared and alone but I cannot tell the others. They wouldn't understand. Breathe, just breathe. A gasp, my feet they twitch, I believe I am crossing over. Am I even awake? My arms flail and I beg for a cure. Nothing. My brain is screaming for my heart to stop. Stop! But my heart is determined, it's pace now quicker. Please if there is a God make this stop. A battle ensues and I watch as my brain overtakes my heart. Thump.Thump..Thump…Thump. My brain is winning.
Relief, anxiety and conflict. They all exist because of her, because of both of them. I force myself to open my eyes. My room it is dark, but still I see her. Her blue eyes, her blond hair. I am haunted by her laugh everyday. A laugh that wiped away my fears, a laugh that was my salvation. She was my everything and now she is gone. And I am left living a lie. A lie that kills my insides everyday.
I hate her. No wait I loath her. If only she treated her better. Then my love would not have been pushed away. My one and only true love would not have been forced into Slades arms. Damn her! Damn that demon bitch! I have to maintain our friendship, but only for the sanctity of the team. While others think I love that demon, she knows my true feelings. That is why she keeps me at arms length. She knows what horror would become her if she let me get closer. They worry about the demon in her, but they do not know the beast that sleeps within me. One day I will be reunited with my love, but that day will only come when the one I hate ceases to exist.
I lay back down. It is dark. I shut my eyes. Thump…Thump..Thump.Thump.
