Okay, here's the deal.

I've seen a lot of drabble collections that I thought were really good, so I decided to make one of my own. This is it, Aitou no Shinigami, (Literally translated, it means "Lament of Death Gods,") a collection of different Shinigami's expressions of their regret and sorrow over certain aspects of their past, or things they've done. The overall collection has no specific dedication, but certain chapters may be dedicated to certain people.

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Aitou no Shinigami

(Death God's Lament)

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Koyanagi Akane

Death is more universal than life; Everyone dies, but not everyone lives.

When we lose someone dear to us, the person who meant more to us than any other, we feel as though our entire world has collapsed. It seems as though we will never smile again, that we can do nothing else but cry, and that our lives will be filled with everlasting sorrow. When we have been deserted by family and those we called friends, there is no-one to catch us as we fall and save us from our despair.

He was all I had. My father had never been someone I trusted, and my friends had stopped speaking to me long ago. My mother died when I was a child, and I had no siblings.

His execution never should have happened. He was innocent of the accused crime; they learned this after he died. I knew that he would never purposely take the life of any other Shinigami, let alone another captain's lieutenant, as was the accusation. Aizawa Hakudoushi was a lot of things, but he was not a traitor. I had known him for fifty years, since our academy days; I knew that he wasn't capable of doing something like that.

That is not to say that he was weak. Physically, he could do it. But he wouldn't. Hakudoushi may have been a little rough around the edges, but he had strong morals. Ever since our days at school, he would always look out for others, and stand up for those who couldn't do it themselves. Everyone had good things to say about him. Whether the topic was his strength, his technique, or the quality of his leadership, everything said was positive. He was well-known and well-liked; he had few enemies, and even fewer wanted him dead.

I couldn't understand, with all that, how they could execute him with no evidence.

In the years after his death, I have lost all hope. He was everything to me.

When we are bound to this world by our immortality, even when we so desperately long for death, all we are is an empty shell. And when shattered memories and broken dreams are all that remain of a once happy life, what is left for us, then?

Pain. Sorrow. Seclusion. A love that can never be.

I think I'd rather be dead.

-Owari-

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Author's Note: Akane is one of my Bleach OCs, part of Sixth Division. Hakudoushi's one of my other ones, a former Captain of Seventh Division who was executed for a crime he didn't commit, in other words, the murder of a vice-captain. These two were together (As a couple) until he died, and Akane can't get over his death.

This is just the first part of the Aitou no Shinigami drabble collection that I'm writing, I'm going to be putting up a lot more, so watch this space.