Hello everyone!
To flamablechoklit: this is for you as well. Who says we need a Matt in our lives? Who needs Matt when we have another Mello? Yeah just keep telling myself that eh? Anyway…
To my loyal fans: Yes I know I haven't updated in a while. I've been very busy with school and well, life in general… things just haven't been going my way. But while you wait for me to get up off my lazy behind and update I have a nice short little rant for you all to read.
To everyone in general: Hi. My name is Mello. I've been really pissy and started ranting like crazy. This is 1/8 false/exaggeration, 3/8 the song Poison By Alice Cooper, and ½ my experience/feelings… yeah.. Um, this is MattxNear, MelloxMatt unrequited, just Mello ranting about his feelings towards Matt…
READ, REVIEW, AND ENJOY!
Just seeing him with that grey-eyed freak makes my blood boil. It makes me furious, I swear I hate him; and yet, what is it about him that makes me long to be by his side? It's just another thing to add to the list of things to add to the list of things that Near has beaten me in. He has the grades and now he has the guy too.
You damn gamer.
You push my buttons just like one of your damn games, but then all you have to do is look at me and I feel as though I have been shot in the heart. I can't help but think you enjoy this pain you are causing me.
I want to love you but you love him not me. You are untouchable.
I want to hold you but it's him that gets in the way. My senses keep telling me that it's wrong.
I want to kiss you but my desire for more is just too strong.
But the first time our lips met, you poisoned me. You're lips are venomous poison. A poison whose pain can only be eased by being in the presence of he who poisoned me.
You're lips are like venomous poison.
You're poison running through my veins.
You consume my body with deadly speed and the more I resist the quicker I fall. I am bound to you as if by chains but part of me just doesn't want to be free.
I am captivated by your mouth, every word that passes through your lips brings me closer and closer till I'm caught in your web exposed and vulnerable. I long for you in every way.
Your damn red hair.
Every damn stripe on every damn shirt.
And those damn blue eyes masked by orange tinted plastic that no one should ever see but me.
Just the thought of that other boy removing those precious goggles or turning off your game, looking for attention… it's too much for me to even think about.
I hear you calling and your words sting like knifes penetrating my skin.
Yet,
I would do anything just to hear you say my name again.
I would hurt you,
Just to hear you screaming my name.
Don't want to touch you but it's far too late to turn back now.
I want to kiss you but your lips are venomous poison.
You're poison running through my veins.
You consume my body with deadly speed and the more I resist the quicker I fall. I am bound to you as if by chains but part of me just doesn't want to be free.
That gaze of yours, it kills me. It fills me with so many emotions, ones I just don't want to feel.
One look, could kill.
My pain, your thrill.
I want to love you but I better not touch.
I want to hold you but my senses tell me to stop.
I want to kiss you but I want it too much.
I want to taste you but your lips are venomous poison.
You're poison running through my veins.
You're poison.
I don't want to break these chains.
Poison.
You walk by. You smile at me then turn back to Near at your side making my very bones burn and ache with inexplicable pain. Can't you see how he smiles triumphantly. No. You will never see my pain.
Damn you.
Matt.
Mail Jeevas.
Poison.
