Because of You


Summary: Really short stories (for me) of all Team One (Sam, Jules, Spike, Wordy, Ed, Greg, Lou) and some of my OCs (Matt, Blaze, etc.) that are inspired by the song Because of You by Kelly Clarkson. Each chapter will be a stand-alone story that will focus on a few lines from that song and a how they related to an event in each character's life. The lyrics inspiring their thoughts will be bold italics. Each chapter will be titled with the listener and the because of you person.

Setting: These will be tiny snippets throughout the timeline, no order and will depend on the person hearing the song. Like Alphabet Injuries and Unacceptable Nap Locations each chapter will be a stand-alone snippet.

AN: My muse is killing me here. I keep trying to finish at least one of my stories and she say nope you are gonna write this. I've tried to ignore her but she blocks my other stories until I type out what she want me to type.

So based on the premise of these stories in my defense for starting yet another set of stories … Because of you Muse, I've learned the hard way … not to ignore you and to write what you want me to write. Now please let me finish at least YHABL or RoMCSB. Sadly I don't think she is listening to me….

I do not own Flashpoint or any of the characters from that series. I do own my original characters (OC).
KELLY CLARKSON lyrics are property and copyright of their owners.


Sam – Because of you Jules


Sam's Apartment – 2:00 am

Sam paid the cabbie and rolled out of the taxi. He looked up at his apartment building and seriously considered curling up in the stairwell. No, Ed would find out somehow and read him the riot act.

He staggered forward and somehow made it up ten flights of stairs and into his apartment. He had been out drinking with Spike and Lou again. They had learned their lesson not to drink on a work night. Ed had made sure of that. Ed ran their asses off that day. It was not something Sam ever wanted to repeat.

But they were off for the next three days so getting ploughed on beers tonight was okay. Sam closed his door and threw his keys on the counter. Sam laughed as he watched them slide all the way across and land on the floor on the other side. It was amazing to him that the keys didn't hit any of the old half eaten containers of food or empty beer bottles that cluttered his counter.

Sam weaved his way to the couch and flipped on his stereo as he made his way there. The music filled his room. He needed some music to distract his thoughts.

He nearly tripped on the shoes, clothes and pizza boxes strewn about his floor. Sam allowed himself to fall onto the couch. For one brief moment he thought the General would surely dress him down for the pig sty state of his apartment. But it was quickly replaced with who cares?

Certainly not Jules.

Sam laid back and tried in vain to quash the pain that came with thinking of Jules.

He focused on the song that was playing. He had no clue who sang it or what it was called but he listened to the lyrics to distract himself.

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Sam thought yeah, because of you Jules, I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty. It will always be empty without you in it. You chose the team over me.

Now I get to watch you date. You went out with that smug paramedic Steve. Yeah jewel of the prairie is out with someone that can never love you as much as I do.

You love me ... but you didn't want me. I wasn't worth the risk.

Because of you Jules, I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh everyday of my life. I have to go to work every day just to be close to you. If I don't smile and laugh the guys will think something is up.

Now if that isn't fucked up I don't know what is. But I'll do it because I don't get to chose who I love and I love you Jules.

Because of you Jules, I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me. I gave you my heart and you ripped it out and shredded it. Trust has never been easy for me. I trusted you and you betrayed me. How can I trust again? It hurts too much.

You knew about Sara. I trusted you with my vulnerability. I trusted you with my heart.

Because of you Jules, my heart can't possibly break … you knew, you knew … it wasn't even whole to start with.

Because of you Jules, I try my hardest just to forget everything I wish I had learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt but I didn't.

Because of you Jules … … … *snore*