Cloudoholic

My name's Tifa Lockhart and I have a confession to make I'm a Cloudoholic. I'm addicted to the hot blonde warrior saviour of Gaia and lately it's been affecting my work. He is constantly on my mind and what is worse he doesn't know the affect he has on me.

The main thing though is that he is home now at least that has settled my nerves a little about losing him but it has not settled my want for him, my mind is cruel and it taunts me with dreams and visions of him mostly of the improper kind and when asleep I find myself waking in the early hours covered in sweat and another kind of wetness it's embarrassing and I've come close to being caught many times trying to wash the sheets.

Each day it gets harder to keep from just dragging Cloud by his shirt into my room and having my way with him right there however though I can't as well he doesn't know that I love him and it's breaking my heart that I can't tell and why can't I tell him? Well it's because I'm a coward a bloody coward, I'm scared that he will leave like he did the time when he was sick with Geostigma and that I couldn't bare so I spend my time with my mind teasing me and having to listen to the numerous women that come in here just to try and get a glance at my hero and they talk about him which makes me so jealous, he's mine I think over and over yet I have no claim I can't help but think he is mine and no one else's.

We've been on one date together and that was almost three years ago at the Gold Saucer and I don't know where I got the courage to even ask him but even then I could tell him how I felt, even the night under the Highwind where we did slightly more than kiss I couldn't tell him and I didn't believe he meant those kisses but I couldn't read his mind and well I couldn't ask him about it after all we still had Sephiroth and Meteor to put an end to them and after that I found what I wanted to say was pushed to the back of my mind and when Geostigma reared it's ugly head as did Sephiroth I again pushed the feelings aside but now there was nothing holding me back expect my fear.

I went out shopping I wanted to make a nice meal for the family and the house guest Yuffie was staying with us at the minute which did and didn't help my situation, she understood what I was going through as she admitted to me just the other day when I caught her trying to steal Cloud's Materia that she had a thing for Vincent but there was more against them having something than myself and my hero but she would then turn the tables and ransack me with embarrassing questions and she would always ask when Cloud was around which usually meant he raised a questioning eyebrow and glance in my direction but he would soon drop it.

As I returned home, the house was quite which didn't really surprise me expect that Yuffie was staying she must be out after all the kids where in school and Cloud was on the road with his deliveries although he did assure me that he would be back for dinner. So with the house being quite I turned the radio just to try and get my thoughts off my sexy blonde who wasn't actually mine. I sighed when the radio crackled to life and a love song was playing I grunted at the radio but didn't change the station instead I got to work on preparing the dinner trying to keep my mind on the dinner and not wondering off to daydream about Cloud but within minutes my mind had wonder off to think of Cloud pleasuring me I really hated my dirty mind at times and the man of my desires when I would think of these things.

The sound of the door opening and practically slamming shut wasn't enough to make me wake up from my daydream, not even when the knife sliced her hand a blood began seeping out was it enough to wake me. It wasn't until Cloud's voice rang out in my mind and it sounded completely different to his moans that I returned to reality.

"Huh?" I asked feeling the evident pink blush start to raise

"Your hand didn't you feel the knife cut you?" Cloud asked raising an eyebrow

"No" I shrug like it's no big deal as I turn to fetch the first aid kit but it's then that Cloud stops me, he pulls me to him and lifts me onto the bar and then he goes to fetch the first aid kit and a clothe that he runs under the cold tap before he returns to me, my eyes never left him and now he's face to face with me and I really just want to kiss him. He snapps his fingers to get my attention again.

"Teef your hand you need to give me it so I can get a good look at it" he sighs as I allow him to examine my hand, he places the cold clothe on my hand and I wince at the sting that comes from the contact.

"Tifa what's wrong with you these pass couple of days or rather weeks now that I've thought about you've been acting odd, drifting off into space and the questions Yuffie has been asking well it's starting to get rather worrying" Cloud said

"I'm sorry I've had a lot on my mind" I sighed like that was all there was too it but Cloud didn't buy it.

"Well what's with Yuffie's questions that she been bringing up and make you blush and go all quite and look away from me when there asked?" Cloud pressed

"Well it's..it's because I-I-I" I stopped unable to say what I wanted to but I shocked myself with my next action reaching up with my uninjured hand I laced my fingers in his hair and pulled his lips towards mine and when I pulled away I was met with azure eyes filled with shock and question.

"Teef?" he asked a blush rising in his cheeks

"I'm sorry it's just" I still couldn't say it and did the only thing I could do and run from the room as tears began to fill my eyes, I had made it to my room and collapsed face first into my pillow knowing I had just made the biggest mistake of my life.

Only seconds but it had felt like hours had passed when I heard the unmistakeable squeak of my door opening then closing again, I knew it was him of course it would be who else who it be after all I had just kissed him which was of course was a huge mistake but if I had to do it all over again I would no doubt.

"Teef why um did you um kiss me?" Cloud asked having to sallow several times to clear his throat to force the words out as his cheeks flamed red

"It's because I love you" I said feeling the blush rise in my cheeks but surprisingly I didn't have trouble with saying those words and although I was blushing redder than a tomato I felt a weight being lifted as the words finally being out there gave me some sense of relief but I had still held my breath waiting on his answer.

I was finally able to let out the breath I had been holding when I felt his soft lips crush against mine again, I had though gone wide eyed when he had kissed me but soon my heart kicked in and I was kissing him back. He pulled away and for the first time ever I could see love shinning in his deep blue pools.

"Teef I love you too" he whispered melting my heart and making my dirty mind kick in and instantly as I thought that I would see him naked finally at some point even though it may of not been right away she would and that caused her to blush further.

"Tifa what are you thinking?" Cloud asked obviously seeing the look on my face

"Um nothing?" I lied hoping he would buy it but of course he didn't

"Teef tell me I know your lying" Cloud asked raising his brow

"Fine about you and me with no clothes" I blushed deeply averting my gaze to the floor.

"Oh really" he smirks and the next thing I know is I'm pushed back down on my bed and his hands are snaking under my blouse and he's lifting it above my head and just as his lips encase mine the front door slammed shut and Yuffie's voice called out. Cloud and I both let out audible sigh and then we both giggled and my heart fluttered hearing his laugh again I hadn't heard it in years but quickly we pulled apart and Cloud handed me my shirt and I quickly pulled it back over my head. We shared a quick kiss and made our way down stairs.

Cloud grabbed my arm pulling me to a stop on the stairs, I gave him an odd look.

"What?" I asked raising my brow
"We'll continue what went on up stairs later, I'll use the sleep Materia on Yuffie and the kids so we won't wake then" he teases increasing my addiction of him further one that he is yet to find out how bad it really is.


There will be a follow up chapter this is a two shot maybe three I'll see how it goes but I hope you like it pls let me know what you think and I too am a Cloudoholic but who isn't really :D