Dear Ryan,
I wish that I could have told you how I felt before you left, because I don't have the chance now. You've moved and I doubt that I will ever see you again. The truth is, I had fallen for you. And I had fallen hard. I found myself looking forward to seeing you, looked forward to going to school because I knew that you would be there, got upset when I didn't see you but then broke into a smile as I saw you walking down the halls, which a large smile plastered on your face. That's how you always were, you always had a smile on your face and it always lit up the room. You always gave me that smile whenever I saw you and I could feel my heart skip a beat when you did. When you stood next to me, my heart would race and my knees would go weak and I couldn't help but give you one of my smiles.
Sometimes I thought that there could be something between us, but I knew that it couldn't happen. But there were hints: the smiles, the looks, the way you acted around me. But you were nice to everyone, why should it be any different because it was me?
I know that I should have told you the truth but I was scared. I'm not the kind of "open" person and I was afraid of what you would say if I did tell you my true feelings. What if you ignored me? What if you laughed at me? What if maybe, just maybe, you felt the same way towards me. But now the 'What Ifs' will never be answered because you're not here.
If you're ever in town, look me up and maybe we could meet up for coffee. Maybe I will tell you how I feel one day but we will have to see what happens if that time ever comes. I don't want to get hurt.
For now I will just wish you good luck for the future and I hope that you will find someone who makes you happy. Just like you made me happy. Best of luck Ryan, you deserve it.
Love Troy xx
Troy sighed as he placed the letter into an envelope. He wouldn't send it. He never would, he didn't know where Ryan was and even if he did, he would be too scared to send him the letters. He picked up the envelope and carefully wrote Ryan's name in italics and placed it in the box with all the other letters. The letters that stated how much Troy felt for the male blonde haired Evans twin. Maybe he would get the chance to tell Ryan how he felt but he would just have to see what the future held for him. For now, he would just stick to his vivid dreams and the confession letters.
