I shed my tears for you

His words rang in my ears as he left me.'Rin, I am glad it is me and not you...'

His dieing breath was as if a sigh of love and happiness. Why him, why? It is my fault, all mine, i am weak. I couldn't defend myself so he sacrificed

himself for me. Did he not know i loved him?

Sensei's words pulled me from my thoughts, "Rin, its alright to be sad. I am too."

I realized he was crying, as was I. His lifeless body lay in front of us, the blood washed clean off of him by the rain. All I could say before I fell asleep was,

"Its my fault you died, Kakashi."

I woke expecting to find him by my side sleeping. But as I remembered the events of yesterday sadness and guilt washed over me. Sensei was already

up, "Morning Rin, we have to get him to the village before night fall."

"Yes, sir."

The whole day I thought of nothing, my mind blank and my body like a hollow shell. But we got to the village by dusk and the third hokage was alerted of

the young Hatake's death. The burial was to be the next morning. I got home and turned my music player on to the most saddest song i could find the

CD fell on 'What hurts the most'- By Rascal Flatts

I sung along with the lyrics.

'I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

that don't bother me

i can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out

i'm not afraid to cry every once in a while

even though goin' on with you gone still upsets me

there are days every now and again i pretend i'm okay

but thats not what gets me

what hurts the most was being so close

and havin' so much to say

and watchin' you walk away

and never knowin' what could have been

and not seein' that lovin' you

is what i was trying to do'

I couldn't sing any more i turned the player off and cryed myself to sleep.

I woke early for the burial. I dressed in even more black than usual and went to the site. Everyone was already there, the casket was next to a 7 foot hole

in the ground. Kakashi's mother walked up to me and said menacingly,"It should have been you!"

I agreed with her...I should have been me. The funeral bell rang and the grave digger's lowered Kakashi to his eternal resting place.

My decision was final, with the knife in hand i cut both wrists and let the blood flow. And send me into my dark slumber of death. I was on my way to

being with my true love once again, this time we won't be separated by death because we were soon to both be. I shed one last tear for him as the

darkness engulfed me. But this tear wasn't a sad one...It was of joy. His face got clearer and clearer as the seconds ticked by, until i heard his sad voice

say, "Rin, why?"