"Emma, lets go"

Sean tried pulling Emma away from Rick who held a gun, Toby was off to the side; staring in fear...

"Don't turn away from me!"

Rich shouted and all Sean could do was hold Emma. Toby was even beginning to cry...

"Too late.."

BANG!

Jay gave a big gasp shooting his eyes open and looking around in panic.

Just a dream.

Just a nightmare.

Jay signed and ran his hand through his hair groaning.

He had these nightmares all the time.

He always wondered if Toby, Jimmy or even Sean had these nightmares.

He wondered if Emma did too..

As Jay stood up slowly and catching his breath, he walked out of his room.

A lot has changed since the shooting.

It's been a year.

Well... it's been a year 2 months and 3 days since Emma Nelson left Degrassi.

It's been a year and 3 months since the shooting happened.

Everything was different.

Alex left town; she told Jay his eyes were so cold now and didn't like the fact he wouldn't admit he was sorry.

She didn't understand.

And those words just made him bitter and cold.

They didn't know what it was like to set Rick off and not know what he was going to do.

Jay sat in the kitchen and sat on his stool.

He put head in hands and just breathed.

He's almost driven himself mad since the shooting.

Greenpeace did the right thing in leaving. He wished he would of done that. For once the girl made sence to him

He heard from Mr Simpson.. well Mr Simpson told Sean who told Jay that Emma was dreading girls school.

Jay would chuckle at that. Nelson wasn't use to the new crowd she had to protest with or against probably.

Santos was a wreck when Greenpeace left too until she fell into their group when she started dating Sean.

They've been dating for 3 months now.

He guessed Manny could only understand Sean during the whole shoot out. Then when some Pete Stone kid video taped her naked, Sean beat the shit outta him and then they start to date.

Cliche.

So it was him, Sean, Spinner and Manny. The girl was wierd to him though.

He wondered who Emma depended on these days...

Jay stood in the ravine the next night with Sean and Manny.

Manny seemed anxious when he got there and he gave her an odd look.

He glanced at Sean "Why's your girl friend giving me a stare down?" he questions.

Before Sean could answer Manny blurted out happily cutting him off.

"Emma's home" she declared.

Jay swallowed his beer harder than he thought and raised an eyebrow.

Did he just hear right?

"Emma MAY be home. We don't know" Sean told him eyeing Manny "Don't get your hopes up Manny"

Manny grumbled something and Jay gave them looks.

"Is she home or not?" he asks

Sean and Manny shared a look.

Did a certain guy miss a certian blonde girl?

Manny huffs "Snake got a call from her school that Emma got a letter that said she was free to leave the school for a few weeks" she explains.

"Nelson was always good at making things look good" joked Spinner coming over to the group.

Jay chuckles and looks to them "So you thinks she's here?"

"Well where eles would she be right?" Manny bit her lip "I hope she's here"

"We talking about Nelson again?" Spinner wrapped an arm around Manny.

Manny rolled her eyes yanking it off and Spinner smiled doopily as Manny gave Sean an annoyed look

"Man, why you gotta hit on my girl friend?" snapped Sean

For some reason Jay didn't feel in the mood to party and set his beer down.

"I'm gonna go home" Jay confirms and Sean looked to him.

"Man; You just got here. Stay awhile" he said.

Manny nods "You never know who might show up" she says.

"Tired" muttered Jay "Later"

The 3 watched him go and turned back to another.