Apologies if timelines are inconsistent.
I am starting this fic as of today.


Before Infinity

The only reason you're still alive…
Is because you are of use to me…
And also…
…I find your stupidity mildly amusing.


16th May 2012
Akemi Residence
Homura's Room

It's always the same.

When will they give up?

The way that they're always supervising me…

It's…sickening.

"Homura-san. It's time for your medication. Please take it."

"…I'll take it if you just leave the room and allow me some space." I hissed back.

They hesitated and then finally gave in.

Placing my night time tablets into an enclosed and sealed bag, they walked out silently.

I glanced over at the bedside table and sighed softly.

I don't like my medication.

I know that I am frail.

And that it's necessary to take them.

But still…

That doesn't stop me from despising them.

Why was I born like this?

With so many illnesses and conditions?

I don't like being different.

My heart ached slightly at that thought and I curled up into a ball.

Angry tears fell from my burning eyes.

It's not…fair.

A soft rustle was heard from the other side of my bed.

And I leaned over the quilt to gaze at the only person who understood me.

"…Are you hungry?" I ask gently and managed a small smile.

She blinked at me with her round eyes and clawed slightly at her cage.

"Alright, I'll let you out for a bit. You must be sick and tired of staying in there."

I wiped away my tears.

And abandoning my medication, I knelt down to her level after getting off the bed and opened the latch.

She was so warm in my stiffly cold arms, so I buried my face in her fur.

Just like usual, whenever I felt lonely and insignificant in this world.

"At least I still have you," I murmured, and she glanced up, sniffing my cheek and nudging it slightly.

"…Q-chan."