This is a poem from Duo's POV.
Disclaimers: I don't own Gundam Wing! I never will so leave me alone!!
My Curse
They think,
They think I am a person
Filled with happiness
The truth is I am alone in this world
I stay happy to keep my self-esteem and their self-esteem high
But through all I've been through and all
I've seen I'm filled with memories
Of death, sorrow, hunger, poverty, abuse
My happiness is nothing more than a mere mask
I've lost everyone I held dear
And now that I've made another space in my heart
For just one more person
That person risked her life for me
Maybe this is the way my life will always be
With ups and downs
But if I had the chance to change it
I'd change it now
And if I had the chance to go back in time
I'd save them all
But this is just a dream
No way of being accomplished
No way of existence
A dream belonging to a boy who just wants another chance to make things better
Yes the other pilots do have their own share of sorrow
But each share is a fragment of my own sorrow
Like a cell of an organism
Just a piece of a bigger being
I have the power of making people's lives better
Why can't I do the same to my own?
Why must I be cursed with the deaths?
Why must I interfere with my heart?
Why can't I leave it empty so that later I don't feel the pain?
It's almost as if I kill when I let them in my heart
As if my heart is some kind of poison like a plague
A plague of love and death
Maybe I should just erase the people
Out of my heart and mind
For as if instinct once in mind in heart as well.
