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My Fault

I could never take the truth. I never wanted to. Even after Splinter died I couldn't except it. I always had this sort of hope that my brother was going to come home.

After I lost my arm the family fell apart. Raph always left the lair without asking, even though he was half blind. Leo became bitter and never would come out of the dojo. No matter how hard I begged.

Without Donatello our family was no more. Our team was no more. We tried to battle the shredder many times. All ended in blood. All of it ours.

Before my big brothers left I still tried to be cheerful. Though it seemed to make matters worse. Raphael would swear more when I was. He would yell and scream as would Leo. 30 years of this.

Then they had a fight that made everything go wrong. Leo stayed up late on night. "staring" at the wall. I wanted to go and comfort my blind older brother but something told me to stay away.

Raph came breaking in cussing under his breath. At this Leo stood up. "Your late Raphael." Leo's words sounded like acid. His voice dripped of it.

I backed away. I knew what was going to happen. If Donnie was here he would stop it before it started. And it lasted alright. All night.

The way the two were yelling at each other made chills go up my spine. Their words sounded so hateful. And yet so meaningful. At One point I heard my hot headed brother yelling at Leo saying it was hisfault our father died.

At this I couldn't hold it in. I let all the emotions I had in me out. Tears ran down my face as I heard a door slam. I knew one of them had given up. But I didn't come out.

I stayed in my room all the next day. Leo tried to coax me out. When that didn't work Raph tried to force me to come out.

Finally I got feed up. My anger got the better of me. " WHY SHOULD I CAME OUT!? WHAT'S SO GREAT ABOUT YOU TWO ALWAYS FIGHTING?! I CANT LIVE WITH IT ANYMORE!" I screamed at them when they tried to get me out for dinner.

That was what made them leave. Those simple words of anger. They left and never came back that night. I was alone. Something I have hated seance childhood. And it was all my fault.