Disclaimer: I do not own the PoT…Konomi Takeshi does…I do not own the song "Only Reminds me of You"...somebody else does...
A/N: so here's the sequel to the fic Wedding Bells…hope you enjoy it too…though…I wouldn't be sure of that…let me rephrase it them…hope you like it…somehow…
I see you, beside me
It's only a dream
A vision of what used to be
Fuji Syusuke sat down on his bed. It was 2am in the morning, yet it seems that old Mr. Sandman doesn't want him to sleep. He kept dreaming of his past – a past that he tried to escape from.
The laughter, the sorrow
Pictures in time
Fading to memory
He dreamt of Tezuka Kunimitsu – his stoic captain back from his Seigaku days, his past boyfriend, his all-time love. He dreamt of how they used to spend their monthsaries. He dreamt of how Tezuka used to walk him home. He dreamt of how Tezuka used to hold him close, tell him he loved him. He dreamt of those things and he wished that he wouldn't stop dreaming.
How could I ever let you go
Is it too late to let you know?
He dreamt of that unfateful day when he drew the curtains between him and Tezuka. He dreamt of how he left Tezuka without looking back. He dreamt of how he cried every night, wishing that Tezuka was still there by his side.
I try to run from your side
But each place I hide
It only reminds me of you
He dreamt of when he went back to Chiba, a few days after their break-up. He dreamt of the words that Saeki told him. "You should learn to be more selfish next time, Syuusuke," he said. Fuji could never be selfish. He knew that when a person truly loves someone like Tezuka, that person should be ready to share and sacrifice.
When I turn out all the lights
Even the night
It only reminds me of you
He dreamt of the times when he would walk on the parks alone. He dreamt of the times he felt jealous when saw couples walking hand in hand. He dreamt of the hurt he felt when Tezuka's father told him to leave Tezuka.
I needed my freedom
This is what I've thought
But I was a fool to believe
He dreamt of how his sister and younger brother persuaded him to return to Tokyo and talk tothem, to Tezuka or to any of his friends. He remembered saying that he needed to be alone and move on.
My heart lie while you cry
Rivers of tears
But I was too blind to see
He dreamt of the grief he felt when he learned that Tezuka was going to get married. He dreamt of the hurt he felt when he saw how Tezuka would smile for the lucky girl.
Everything that we've been through before
Now it means so much more to you
He dreamt of the tears he shed when Tezuka kissed him again. He dreamt of how it felt to be selfish, even for a few seconds. He dreamt of how good fantasy felt before reality dragged them back to earth
I tried to run from your side
But each place I hide
It only reminds me of you
When I turn out all the lights
Even the night
It only reminds me of you
Only you
Fuji hugged his pillow, tears flowing from his cheeks. It's been a long time since he last cried. He was too afraid to cry. He used to think that there was no need for him to cry, especially now that Tezuka is married.
So come back to me
I'm down on my knees
Boy can't you see me?
Tezuka, Fuji thought. Am I really too late? Have you really gone away from me? Fuji cried some more when the answer to his questions struck him. There was no way Tezuka could be with him. First of all, he was already married. And also, they were both men. There was no way the society would accept two men in love.
How could I ever let you go?
Is it too late to let you know?
Tezuka, Fuji almost inaudibly said. It was as if there was something in his throat. If saying the name was a big burden for him, what more of seeing the person with another woman?
I try to run from you side
But each place I hide
It only reminds me of you
When I turn out all the lights
Even the night
It only reminds me of you
Fuji looked at the frame in his bedside table. It was their last picture as a couple, taken during their 11th monthsary, a week before they broke up. Fuji couldn't help but feel more broken than before. His smile had been so genuine in the picture, and so was Tezuka's.
I try to run from your side
But each place I hide
It only reminds me of you
When I turn out all the lights
Even the night
It only reminds me of you
Fuji stood up from his bed. He had an idea. He went toward his desk and wrote something. Afterwards, he went to the kitchen, got something, and drank some water. He then went back to his room and lied down.
It only reminds me of you
Yes Tezuka. Everything here on earth, it only reminds me of you. I love you and you alone. Fuji wept as he slept, hoping to find a new light when he wakes up.
The next day, everyone in Japan received a news that the famous photographer, Fuji Syuusuke was found dead in his bedroom, with a bottle of sleeping pills and a note saying "I love you…always remember that…" by his bedside. Fuji never woke up from his sleep for he knew that there would be no new light. There would only be Tezuka in his life.
Reference:
Mr. Sandman – believed to bring dreams to people around the world
A/N: there you have it…the sequel to Wedding Bells. Sorry if I have to kill Fuji. I just want to end his suffering…gomenasai!! Please do review…
