Disclaimer- I don't own them, it's cool.
A/N- okay, this is a songfic. I have never written one of these, but I was inspired to when I read a really awesome one of my friends. You may not like it, but I would love your reviews. Tell the truth, you don't have to like it, I just thought I'd try something new! The story takes place during Ahoy Mateys-ish. I just changed the plot ! Enjoy.
Song- A decade under the influence – Taking back Sunday
Sad, small, sweet, so delicate
we used to be this dying breed
I was a different person with Logan. With him I was myself, and I was witty and clever. We were good for each other, I straightened him out and he lightened me up. The things in his life changed him, but could anyone blame him? Everything happened to him too quickly. His girlfriend was murdered, his mom killed herself and his dad was the cause of both. I couldn't handle him all crazed; I couldn't handle who he was becoming. So I ended it, and now I am with Duncan. I'm trying to hard to be the sweet, loving, happy girl I used to be but by trying to be happy, I am only becoming depressed.
I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about this
He asked me for my help at school, to prove him innocent for killing Felix. I told him I'd help him, I don't know why. Situations like these never end well, yet I still agreed to do it.
You kept still until the long drive home
you slept safe and close to the window...
He picked me up in his canary yellow Xterra at 4 o'clock that day. The car ride seemed very slow, we didn't talk. It was awkward and I could feel the tension. Every couple of minutes he would turn and look at me. I didn't turn around and look back at him; I could just feel his eyes watching me.
I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about...
When we finally got there, he insisted on coming in with me. I told him that it wouldn't go over well, and for some reason this time he listened. I walked to the front door. He believed that I needed plastic surgery, but of course he thought I was talking about breast implants. He took me into a back shack, which turned out to be a bar. Of course the Fitzpatrick's hang out. "That's Veronica Mars", Busted. A girl who attends Neptune High happened to be in this place. Before I knew it I was on a pool table getting prepped for a tattoo. Lucky for me Logan got worried, and he came to my rescue. We're always rescuing each other.
Who's to say you'll have to go (I could go all night)
well say you'll have to go (I could go all...)
The car ride home was a bit less awkward. Well for me at least, I didn't really notice the harsh silence because I was bawling my eyes out. "It's okay Veronica, It'll be okay." His words were soothing, but I was too upset to thank him for them. I yelled at him for the fact that he had a gun, and I yelled at myself for getting into this mess. I tried to get out of the car but he grabbed my arm "let's go for a ride, calm you down a little."
To hell with you and all your friends
To hell with you and all your friends, it's on
I didn't really want to stay in the car with him, but he had already started driving and he wouldn't stop the car. "Is this necessary?" I questioned him. He stayed quiet, smiling. Fine, if he didn't want to talk, I wouldn't talk either. It was just supposed to be a ride for me to cool down. My ringing cell phone broke the silence it was Duncan.
Sad, small, sure in porcelain
You're skin and bones, I'm a nervous wreck
After that day Logan and I didn't talk. He told me he didn't want my help, that it was too risky for me. I was relieved and a bit saddened at the same time. He made me myself, even if the whole time we were quiet. It's that feeling I get when I'm around him, I'm better. For the next few days I couldn't help but stare at him, now the tables were turned and my eyes were on him. He didn't notice, or he didn't show that he noticed.
I got a bad feeling about this (when it comes to this)
I got a bad feeling about this
Duncan acted clueless to all of it. I guess he didn't want to lose me, and he knew I wouldn't leave him for Logan. We spent a long time pretending everything was okay and that we still had strong feelings for each other. I guess it was easier for us to pretend that things were okay, then make a bad situation out of everything. This all worked until I saw Logan with some girl. It really hit me bad, and Duncan saw it. There was no use pretending, I missed being with Logan and he knew it.
You kept still until the long drive home
You slept safe and close to the window
After Duncan and I broke up, I began to privately investigate Logan's case. He needed to be proved innocent, and I knew I had the power to do it. It came to the point where I had to follow him and make sure no one was doing the same. Unfortunately I didn't do a good job at hiding myself, and he noticed.
I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about...
"Don't think I don't know what your doing Veronica." His voice was drilling into my mind. I didn't know how to reply. "Sorry." He first joked about it, talking about how I should just ask him to hang out, I didn't have to follow him around. Then he got serious, telling me he didn't want me to get into this case, he didn't want to see me get hurt.
Who's to say you'll have to go (I could go all night)
well say you'll have to go (I could go all...)
To hell with you and all your friends
to hell with you and all your friends, it's on
We sat in silence for a few moments. It seemed that there was no point to me being there. I told him I had to go meet Mac and Wallace and that I would talk to him later. He didn't say anything, not even goodbye. I began to walk away when he yelled stop.
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
He walked up to me and put his hands on my hips, he wasn't being his usual self. His eyes locked with mine and we stood there for a few minutes. I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what I was hoping would happen. I decided I was just going to leave. As I was about to go he kissed me. At first the kiss was very awkward, not like it used to be when we were going out. Then I realized, that this is what I had wanted. The kiss became passionate as we stood there in the middle of the sidewalk.
I got it bad
I got it bad
I didn't know where this kiss would lead; I did however know that at the moment it was what I wanted. I was myself with Logan, and I knew for sure that I wanted to be myself.
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