Prologue
I woke up and I saw myself in the mirror, I leaned on the sink and started thinking, what is this? I felt strange but I remembered this feeling, it was a very familiar feeling that I haven´t experienced in a long time. I thought I´d never feel this way again. But I did. All I could think about is her and the way she smiled and how she cheered me up every day, I felt so happy every time I remembered she was here for me, and not like any girl I had met before, everything started with sex with other girls but this started as a friendship. Not even Izzie made me this happy, with Izzie I never knew if she was going to die on me or wake up one day and leave me, I was frightened and when she left, all I could feel was pain and then numbness and I didn´t want to live anymore but now I have a reason to live and enjoy life, I know she would never leave out of the blue or hurt me. Since that day in the supply room with the donuts, every time I looked at her I just felt stuff lingering through my body and it felt pretty damn awesome. I don´t want to ruin our friendship and I don´t want her to think I just want sex, that is why I have to wait, I´m going to wait and make her feel the way I feel for her. Starting tomorrow.
