Well not that I'm done with Always Here but I wanted to do something different slow everything. There are two sides to Chris the great soft caring guy who was Captain to Finn, Andy, Carl and Ben. Then there is the angry as long as Ada dies Chris. Lets keep him 80% sweet Kay?! (New narration)


Last Chance

Chapter 1 - Lost

God there is not much left here for me anymore is there? I can't believe I just said that, a man who was never prayed much less talked to god.

It's so dark Chris couldn't see his hands in front of his face either that or the haze was bigger than he thought; but that's how he needed it. Nice and dark so he can focus on just that and not let my mind wander.

That was total load of crap though.

Nothing could stop the memories from pouring into his mind and it was only worst when he dreamed no defense against them. Making him feel helpless and less than a soldier who has saved the world once.

"DAMMIT!" he couldn't hold on to his frustration.

He'd rather take it out this way then let the depression take me over. It was an inevitable part of this cycle he drove myself into for the past 8 months and it was only getting worst.

I'm not a damn hero I'm a useless good for nothing captain who can only save himself…I'm losing everything I ever cared about just by being with them. If there was a god he must be the cruelest being out there giving me someone I already couldn't' have and making sure it stayed that way.

All he has now is Claire and he haven't spoken to her in a while, she called just like Jill and Sherry but he didn't want to be bothered. Have to be told I'm sorry even if they had nothing to be sorry for.

What are they sorry for my loss? Yea…my loss and only mine.

He never thought he'd have to sit down with his family and have to tell them I lost him with no body to show for it and he knew that was a loss cause. That was his fault to think a man who was despite his size being smaller than him never falter or failed to get a job done but the price he paid was one he couldn't afford.

I lost a lot of people in the line of work I do and that's unavoidable, but my ace was always there at the end even when I lost all he still stood.

He had already been flustered by the young man (heaven forbid) who left him stunned a lot with his loyal façade and the professional wall he put up at all times, and those perfect full lips with gold and green hazel to match them.

He'd only saw him loss his cool twice in Eastern Europe after dragging his ass out of the bar to taking him back to Europe B.S.A.A. branch. He was given a room to myself but Piers wouldn't leave him alone for even a second afraid he'd take flight.

He hadn't stop throwing his food up from all the drinks at the bar each time would clean his face of vomit. Hazel eyes filled with nothing but patients and concern .


"Why did you try to find me?" my speak was still slurred

"Because the B.S.A.A. is where you are needed, the team needs you. No one can save this world like you can Captain." The ace always had conviction in every word he said.

"Who said I wanted to come back huh? I didn't ask for your help kid." I couldn't help growling.

He steeled me a stiff look. "So are you going to let all those men who died for this purpose go to waste? How could you be such a coward? Captain you haven't settled anything but you crept out of the hospital not letting anyone know where you'd gone because you were scared! How could you do something like that?! You didn't have to take on the full responsibility; you had family you had friends, you had… me sir."


Chris did it again but he couldn't help but remember all the things his ace did for me. He could only curse him and himself, him for being so blindly loyal and trusting and himself for falling (when it was so wrong and unethical) recklessly for him.

I was his captain his senior so I knew I could never let myself slip with him around. Not to mention the year gap between us I could be his father. So I always kept my façade up so I could stay with him.

He would have done it that way 'til the day he retired just as long as he was happy he would have been that friend he could always come to, or if he'd accept my offer then he would be the man who shield him or held him in his two huge arms.

He already knew he couldn't have him but he never really stop hoping deep down that his concerned eyes held more than just that.

He gets up hitting his toe in the process feeling the depression suck him in with only one escape he can think of. The haze kept him temporary free of thoughts long enough to go to sleep. He needed the hard stuff going for the vodka 80 proof. Standing in this empty house he rented out of nowhere hoping it could help me forget him. Here nothing physically reminds him but that didn't make it any less hard.

Chris hadn't ate all day but he didn't care it was 2 am and as terrifying as it may seem he needed to find just want to lay here and see, hear, think, and smell of nothing.

So he started to spill the bottle into my mouth waiting for the haze.

This happens to be far worst then the crush on Wesker his captain in S.T.A.R.S. or the love for Jill. He didn't know why he does it to himself. He just couldn't fall for people outside work like a normal person could.

Why couldn't it have been Jill or Claire who founded me!

He thought then maybe it wouldn't hurt so much, he can't eat it's not that he wasn't hungry but my heart was controlling my every sense. What it was hungry for couldn't be found in a grocery store. Every bite felt off like he was hungry but at the same time he wasn't. The doctors think it's PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) or some kind of shock but… it was his heart that felt so distant in him chest.

The haze is finally making its appearance making his eyes flutter, sleep closing in fast.

The dreams are still bad hazed or not they came with vengeance to trap and torture him 'til I wanted a fast way out.

Flashing his face in fast pictures all with the ones of him caught off guard and him calling me.

"Hey Captain, Morning Captain, Sorry Captain, Good one Captain, Roger that Captain, Chris"

Waking up when his head meets a hard surface disorienting him, he had hit the floor waking me out my cage. He stands knocking the only lamp in his no furniture home off the nightstand. Putting his back against the wall, it was still dark and it was only 3 am.

The haze wasn't working now he felt everything that he didn't want to…hr need to do something. Chris moves to the living room still fumbling in the dark till he gets light from the backyard. He opened the clear screen double doors that had a view of nothing but acres of field closing the door behind him.

He slid down the door cradling face trying not to think about him to any avail.

"God Piers look what you've done to me."


Shit… I fell asleep, it was cold as hell and his stomach was throwing fits but none of that was what startle him awake. It was the small hand of a blonde staring at him with big blue eyes.

"Are you ok?" an understanding look in her to blue eyes.

Chris just stare at her with a 'do I look ok' on his too old face.

"Sor-"

"Please don't say you are sorry or I'll have to kick you out."

She nodded helping him off the cold ground. She lead the way into the living room with only a plat screen and a 4-seat couch I flop down on the couch.

"You know I don't answer the phone because I don't want to talk… so mind telling me why you are invading my me time."

She blinked a little embarrass. "Well that's why I came you weren't answering your phone or your cell and Claire couldn't leave her work at TerraSave . She was scared you might have…"

"Kid the bucket?" I offered

She sat next to him then, cutting Chris's personal space bubble something he often had Claire do to him when he didn't want to talk.

"I know you're having a hard time Chris I've lost my parents and you lost men who were like family, but do you think retiring was a good move to honor them?"

He knew she was trying to make him feel better but that didn't make him want her to stay any more than 5 seconds ago.

"I'm not trying to honor anyone at this point. I'm just tired of it all. The fighting the winning at a price when I'm not willing to pay up. They're all dead while I get to keep coming out untouched!" my voice going up in volume.

She grabbed his rough hand with her tiny soft one again reminding him of my sister. "You lost all your men before; you took time but eventually came back to the fighting a good fight."

"This time is different Sherry so much different."

She sighed rubbing his hand. "They said when you were rescued from the pod you asked them to go down and save Pier."

He closed his eyes trying hard not to hear her words.

"It took them 8 hours of searching till they gave up on him but you were giving the pilot a hard time. Is it different because you truly lost all of your team this time?"

"No"

"Then explain to me Chris, what could make the man Claire said was the strongest person she knows give up?"

He just want to be alone why can't she understand that. Didn't want to talk or think about him, but if she was anything like Claire he knew she wasn't going to drop it. Before he could find some excuse to make her leave he opened his mouth.

"How would you feel if you lost Jake?" He only asked because it obvious after all they been through, how could they not have feelings like the scars Piers left on me.

"Well that's different isn't it?"

"Is it!?"

She stumbled at the rush of rage Chris had leaked out, he continued before she got a chance to recover.

"Or maybe not I mean you are female and he is male so I guess that is different."

She looked so touched now I was reeling at every word he just said.

"You l-?"

"Doesn't matter it's too late now… He didn't even know. Dammit I didn't even know till it was over. You see why I want to be alone can't I just get that!"

She hugged him putting my face in her small chest. Before he made a decision to either make her get off and get out he was hugging her back. It hurt a lot and he didn't know what to do.

I was lost…


Boo this was over do by a lot but I have school to go to so I don't have time like I did over the break. Anyway this one is going to be Chris POV only, so if you like review, give me some idea's. Like if Piers keeps his BOW powers or not.( PS WTH! is up with the eye color change I been a RE fan since I could hold a game controller HE HAS BLUE now is brown… )