Copyright: This fanfiction was written for pure fun and not to gain anything from the popularity of either the tv-show or the books. I honor the work of Kathy Reichs and everyone involved in producing the tv-show. I'm just a fan, I certainly don't mean to hurt anyone with this…
AN: This is an entry for the NJC Challenge (July) using the song Rain by Jon Heintz. I am no native speaker so I have no clue if I got the song right but I certainly got the tune which I think is rather sad I thought hard of sad things that could happen to one of the characters. One certainly could be death but then I thought of another relationship that has often been threatened to be destroyed by other forces
This is in Booth's POV, I am thinking of writing another chapter in Brennan's POV, if you ask me kind enough So well that's me again threatening for reviews :-P
--
As sure as these blue skies
--
The dark, handsome FBI Special Agent Seeley Booth was walking along the street in which Rebecca lived together with their son and her new boyfriend. Even though the weather was beautiful and the sun was warming the pavement, flowers flourished at the side of the walkway and you could hear kids playing in their gardens, his expression was not mirroring it. He looked like left out in the rain. His eyes were not the usual chocolate brown; they were rather dark, as a thundercloud. Anger was radiating from him as well as sadness. He couldn't believe what was happening, he didn't want to. He had spent the last few days shouting at Rebecca, calling her names like a nine year old, arguing like a 90 year old man, he had tried everything; he'd try anything if it meant he got to keep things like they were.
But as sure as these blue skies they're gonna turn gray. Never was he allowed to be happy for a long time. Whenever everything seemed to be okay, he had to prepare himself for the worst. Especially since Rebecca was part of his life. Bones, his Bones, Dr. Temperance Brennan, had recently lighted up his life. His lips twitched into a small smile. Bones: one of the good things in his life. They have circled around each other for three years until one fine day, after she had been abducted and almost killed and he had found her asleep in the hospital, he had admitted how he felt for her, not aware that she wasn't as much asleep as he thought she was. She had looked at him then, silent. She just looked at him, trying to figure out if he had said the truth. It had taken a while for them to get accustomed to the new situation, with Bones nothing was easy. It took weeks after she had returned home from the hospital until they finally went out on a date and even longer until they kissed for the first time. Yet their relationship developed into more each day, it took time but eventually they even moved in together. He had even thought of asking her to marry him, it meant a lot to him but he was afraid to do so, as it was one subject they still disagreed on; as well as on having kids.
His mood darkened again.
Parker!
She had also grown accustomed to Parker spending time with them. No matter that she didn't want to have kids, she was good with his son. Parker liked her and to his surprise he listened to her intently when she talked of her work. She had once made a joke on him going to be a squint. He had looked so shocked at that remark that she had laughed out loud. A thing she rarely did. That was the day when the idea had started to form in his head. They could be a real family. That would be what bliss felt like, having the two most important people around you all the time. He had sometimes lost himself in this kind of dreams and wished they would one day come true.
Instead he was now standing in front of a pile of shards that were once his life.
What a fool he was, believing that everything was going to be fine. He had thought his position in Parker's life was now secure because of Rebecca's boyfriend. Because Drew knew how it was to not be allowed to see your own kid whenever you wanted to. He had felt secure enough to let him into Parker's life and now he paid for it.
Hearing Parker call Drew Dad had not only shocked him but proved what he had feared all the time since his little boy had been born. She was going to take him away. She had used this threat a hundred times already, if he didn't do what she wanted him to, she won't let him see his son again. Every time she did so she unleashed a fear in him greater than any other feeling.
He reached the playground where he was supposed to meet up with Rebecca, Drew and Parker. He stood in the corner hidden from a few trees and watched the family interact. A real family he wasn't going to be part of. He saw his son going down the slide directly in the welcoming arms of Drew, the other father. Parker giggled happily and hugged Drew. The gesture was so intimate that he almost felt like an intruder. In Rebecca's eyes he probably was, maybe that was why she was so eager to move away. She had always been reluctant in letting him see his own son but he hadn't let her get in the way. He loved Parker and he had made sure his son knew that he did.
It didn't take long until Parker saw him, after he had stepped out of the shadow of the trees and walked over to them. He wiggled himself out of Drew's arms and ran towards him, a big smile plastered on his face, calling out to him. He crouched down, ready to pull the little boy into his arms. For Parker's sake he even managed to put on a smile. He hugged him closely as if life depended on it. "Hey Bud!" he said low into the blond locks of his boy, tears threatening to fall.
When the little boy took a step back Seeley looked up and saw Drew and Rebecca approaching. He shot them an angry glance and made a sign with his hand, telling them to not come near them. Rebecca was about to ignore it when Drew hold her back. He didn't pay much more attention to him but looked at his little boy: "Bud I need to talk to you!" he sat down on the grass and took him on his lap.
Parker looked up at him, still smiling, not imagining that these adult people, who all loved him so much, were about to change his life so drastically. As he was sure to have his son's attention he started to tell him a story, or rather, forming the changes into a story, easy for him to understand. Even though he was now almost six years old and a very intelligent little boy, he didn't want to confront him with the hard truth.
Parker listened intently, cuddling deeper into his Dad's embrace, his face changing from a big smile to a sad frown. He hated himself for causing this change, he hated himself for leaving him, but he didn't have a change. It was Rebecca's doings; she didn't want him to be a part of their life anymore. He was glad that he even got this chance of saying goodbye.
"You know I will always love you Bud?" he asked, when he ended the story, stroking his blond locks, hugging him tightly. The boy hugged him back: "I love you too Daddy and I won't forget you as that boy in the story did!" he said low, shaken by the story's end: "I will never forget who my real Daddy is!" Booth smiled and hugged him again, he really wanted to believe his son's words, he needed to. "I know Bud, thank you!" he said and got up.
Meanwhile the sky had darkened as if to fit father and son's mood. Seeley Booth looked up and his heart hurt, thunderclouds hung deep and he wondered where they came from. He looked down at his boy who was standing in front of him so brave, smiling up at him. He knew it was about time to say his last goodbye, he saw Rebecca starting to get nervous and he guessed she wouldn't leave him alone for much longer. Damn you Rebecca!
He ruffled his boy's hair and said: "You can't stay, rain is gonna come down!" he said and hugged him one last time. "Have fun in Charleston, I hope you'll find lots of new friends, learn as much as you want to, go be a squint like Bones, whatever, I'll always love you and I'll always be proud that you're my son!" The words just came; and he couldn't stop speaking, crying, he hugged his boy close and didn't even flinch when he felt Parker's fingers grip his shirt hardly, even harder when he felt him being pulled away. He heard his son crying, saw the tears flowing down his face and the desperate look in his eyes. Just before he was put on the backseat of the car by Rebecca, he heard his son scream: "I will never forget you, Daddy!"
That was the exact moment it started raining. The raindrops covered the tears that were silently falling down his cheeks. He sat on the playground for a lot longer, minutes, hours, he couldn't remember afterwards. Everyone had already left long ago but he had stayed there, thinking of how difficult life was going to be from now on. He'll never forget, he'll never stop missing him, his smile, his laughter, his blonde locks, … "I'll never forget you Bud!" he screamed into the night air before getting up and walking home through the rain.
A home where Bones wouldn't be waiting for him, not anymore, as he had pissed her off, as he had accused her for destroying him. All the anger he had felt these past weeks after Rebecca had told him that they move to Charleston he had taken out on her, unrightfully, mostly because she didn't want kids, didn't have any and couldn't possibly understand even though she did her best to do so. He had blamed her for everything. He knew he had no right to do so, he knew she had been there for him until it had just been too much for her. She had moved out then, moved in with Angela and Hodgins, she had not said much about it; she just left, wasn't there anymore. He had no right wishing she would be there and take him into a hug, soothing him like she had done with Parker on several occasions.
She wouldn't have a chance on doing so ever again, he thought sadly and opened the door to their apartment. He walked straight into the bedroom, ignoring the open door to Parker's room, which they had both insisted on having when they moved in together. She has never wanted things to turn out this way, he sadly realized, he really shouldn't have blamed her.
He settled down onto the bed, completely oblivious to her presence. He rolled into a fetal ball and sobbed hard, he let out all his frustration, anger and sadness until he felt someone behind him, arms encircling him, and then lips gently kissing his neck, words of comfort spoken softly into his ear. The sobbing ceased and soon the tears flowing down his cheeks were the only reminder of his break down.
