I thought I could handle it. I really did. After all, it's been two years since we last had any sort of sexual contact. For whatever reason, when I found out she was now more than just friends I lost it. I really lost it. I stormed Troian's trailer and basically trashed her room. Security had to escort me away. It did not help that Shay was the first person in the trailer to check on Troian after I left.

Things have been tense ever since. Troian ever the leader pretends as if my episode never happened. The rest of the cast seemed to follow her example except for Ashley and Shay. Shay still hasn't said a word to me that wasn't in the script. Ashley was still pissed because Shay was her best friend.

So here we are at the Teen Choice Awards and I must say Troian is looking pretty hot in her dress. How is it that can look so sophisticated and sexy at the same time? I can't help but roll my eyes when I hear Troian throwing compliment after compliment to Shay for wear that horrible yellow dress. I mean come on it doesn't even fit her right.

"Thanks babe." Shay blushed before quickly kissing Troian's lips. This just made me mad and I slammed my phone down a little harder than I intended. Every looked at me. The worst part was the super annoyed looks on Troian and Shay's face. I quickly turned away in shame. I don't know why I do these things. I'm usually not like this, I swear I'm not. It's just something about Troian Bellisario that makes me crazy.

"Hey, are you ok." a very husky yet feminine voice followed a soft hand on my shoulder. I knew it was Troian. I just loved how even after my little tantrums she still made sure I was okay. I turned to face her again and gave her all of the smile I could muster.

"You guys are on." A stage hand announced signaling that it was now our time to go out there and present. I had to hide a smirk when Troian grabbed my hand. I just knew Shay was pissed the producers requested for us to walk down first together, then her and Ashley.

As we started walking down the stairs, even over the screaming fans I can hear Ashley uttering the words 'Jealous Bitch'. That actually made me smile wider because I knew I was getting under Shay's skin. Little miss perfect was threatened by me.

So we had successfully made it to the stage and I smiled as I watched Troian wave at all the kids chanting her name. Then she started to speak and I swear I was melting. Her intelligence only adds to her hotness. I was so into Troian that I did not notice Ashley push up against me until her mouth was inches away from my ear.

"You do know Shay has been living with her for like a month now."

Ashley whispered before leaning back to take her spot beside Shay. They both were grinning like little devil when my smile almost instantly turned into a deep frown on national television. Before I could stop myself my hand came up and I shoved Troian into Ian.

Not my proudest moment but I was upset. I could tell from her face that she too was upset but more than anything she was embarrassed. Right after I did it I regretted it. I tried to talk to Troian after but she wanted nothing to do with me. She just walked away from me pulling Shay along with her. I was hoping to see her at the after party but she didn't even come. Neither did Shay for that matter. I will never forgive myself for doing that for two reasons. Now all the fans are constantly giving me crap about being inconsiderate and a spot light hog when that is so untrue and, now Troian and Shay aren't just friends with benefits, they are full on dating. Every time I see them pull up together on set, I think about when I shoved Troian at the Teen Choice Awards.