Could It Be?
Author's Note: So, this idea recently popped into my head and I thought I'd run with it. I've written Blair pregnant before and I've read other fanfictions where Blair becomes pregnant after her rendezvous with Chuck at the bar mitzvah. They all seemed to follow the same formula so I decided to take a stab at the idea with my own twist. My thinking is that I can believably make them OOC by jumping to the future. Also, Chuck seemed to be maturing by the finale and I'm guessing having a child will cause Blair to see that there are people other than her and have her drop some of her snootiness.
If you read my other stories, you'll see that I'm all about having Blair and Chuck mature while doing my best to keep them in character (which I've all but thrown out the window with the character assassinations the writers did this past season).
My stories tend to run the gamut, I've done smutty, fluffy, and angsty. With this story, I'm attempting to integrate all three. We'll start with angst, move on to tentative fluff, back to angst, then angsty fluff, and finally the smut ;)
I was also pretty gutted by that season four finale with Chuck telling Blair to let go. Maybe that was his way of showing her he's growing up and only wants what's best for her but I think he could have done that by vowing to become a better man for her, and then shagging her senseless in the back of the limo. Please don't judge me, I'm a hopeless romantic with my mind in the gutter.
Season five is almost here and while I'm pretty sure Blair's royal wedding won't happen, a lot more damage can be done to Chair in the meantime. Hopefully the writers will get their act together and give us what we want, but in all honesty I don't think they'll get together before the series finale but that's just me.
As for now, I'm going to pretend my story is how life went on for Chuck and Blair after 4x22 and I hope you enjoy reading it.
Anyway, my long rant is over for now and I'm eagerly awaiting your reviews =D Thank you in advance for your support and feedback.
Disclaimer: I do not own Gossip Girl, or Ed Westwick – sigh.
June 5, 2011
The news broke of Blair's engagement to the prince being called off. Chuck and Nate weren't in Nice two days when it was covered by every news outlet in Europe. Nate couldn't believe that Blair would throw away her chance of becoming a real-life princess. Chuck, on the other hand, reacted oppositely of how his best friend thought he would. Instead of hooking up with the numerous women Nate had in and out of their suite, Chuck wouldn't leave his room and was constantly on the phone learning whatever he could about Blair from his private investigators.
Chuck expected her to call him, text him, contact him in some way to say why she called off her happily ever after with the prince. But nothing, she wasn't even there when Louis and Sophie made the announcement. Blair disappeared from Monte Carlo and nobody spotted her. The Grimaldis told the public that royal life proved too much for Blair and that she was to be left alone.
"Come on, man," Nate said as Chuck sat in the corner with a glass of scotch, in no mood to party with the women Nate invited back from the beach. "You've been a buzz kill this whole time. We've got beautiful women, endless amounts of alcohol, and did I mention the women are easy?"
"I'm not interested, Nathaniel," Chuck told him as he downed the contents of his glass before standing up. "I'm going to take the bottle of scotch with me now and retire for the night. If you know what's good for you, you won't bother me anymore."
"You were the one who let her go, remember?" Nate called after him. Chuck stopped for a moment but continued to his room before slamming the door.
"Sorry, ladies," Nate said as he turned back to their guests, "It appears it will only be me tonight."
Chuck could hear the women giggling at whatever stupid story Nate was telling them and even the copious amounts of scotch he consumed wasn't enough to drown out his memories of Blair.
June 7, 2011
"Where are you going?" Nate asked as he walked into the suite to find Chuck packing.
"Monaco," Chuck told him as he went to the safe to retrieve his passport.
"Going there isn't a good idea," Nate said. "She must have a reason for not contacting us."
"Not a good idea?" Chuck exclaimed as he turned around to face his friend. "Blair just disappeared right as she was about to get her fairy tale. I need to know why."
"You need to make up your mind," Nate said as Chuck looked ready to punch him. "Do you want her or do you want to let her go? You can't keep expecting to get both."
"Don't talk about things you know nothing about," Chuck warned.
"Oh, I know all about this," Nate told him. "I've seen the two of you go back and forth, destroying each other in the process. Let her go."
"I'm done running away from her," Chuck said as he picked up his suitcase. "And I'm not going to stop looking until I find her and let her know that. And trust me, I will find her."
"This won't end well," Nate said. "If Blair doesn't want you to find her, you won't. And if you do and she doesn't want you, you're only going to hurt more."
"Not possible," Chuck told him with sadness in his voice. "Nothing could hurt worse than this."
June 23, 2011
"Just tell him," Sophie instructed her son. "He won't leave until you do. As it is, he's been outside the palace for two weeks now."
"You do know where she is," Chuck accused. "Tell me what happened."
"Blair had a nervous breakdown," Louis said as he avoided Chuck's eyes.
"You're lying," Chuck said. "She's too strong to have a breakdown."
"I have nothing else to say to you, Charles," Louis told him. "Now, please leave before I have security see you out."
"Tell me what happened to her," Chuck pleaded with him. "I need to know how she is."
"There is nothing I have to say to you that I haven't already said," Louis repeated. "Please leave."
"Why did she break off your engagement? Tell me," Chuck begged.
"Enough," Sophie said as she called over the guards who led Chuck out, leaving her alone with her son once again.
"While I warned you about that girl from the start," Sophie said as she put her hand on his shoulder, "It is an honorable thing you are doing. Not many men would keep a woman's confidence after what she did to you."
"It is the right thing to do, mother," Louis told her. "I just wish Blair's life weren't about to become so difficult."
"She made her own choices, and now she must live with them," she said. "And you have to move on with your life. Leave the Waldorf girl behind and focus on your future."
June 26, 2011
"And there's no way this could be from Louis?" Eleanor asked.
"No," Blair said quietly, "It's Chuck's."
"Are you positive, dear?" Cyrus asked gently as he took his stepdaughter's hands in his.
"One hundred percent," Blair told them as she closed her eyes, doing her best to keep the tears at bay. "This shouldn't have happened but I'm keeping it."
"If you keep his child, Blair, you know he will always be in your life," Eleanor told her. "Is that what you want?"
"He never has to know," Blair said softly. "I don't want anything from him, I have my own money. I have no plans to go after him for child support or anything to do with this baby."
"Darling," Eleanor said, "We both know he'll find out. As it is, he's been parked outside your father's villa for days. It's only a matter of time before he realizes you're not there and he comes looking for you here."
"Then I need to leave as soon as I can," Blair told her. "I won't have Chuck back in my life just because of this."
"Blair," Eleanor said, "I may despise the boy, but don't you think he deserves to know he's going to be a father?"
"No," Blair said as she put her hands on her abdomen, "If he knows I'm pregnant, he won't react rationally. I will not have him back in my life only because he feels an obligation to the baby."
"But he's looking for you, dear," Cyrus said gently. "And he doesn't even know about the baby."
"He's only looking for me because he found out about my broken engagement," Blair said sadly. "Chuck was more than happy to let me go before and I won't take him back just because I'm pregnant."
"And while I don't despise him, mother," Blair added, "I can't trust him with this now either. I won't have anything but stability in my child's life."
"If that's how you feel, why are you keeping his child?" Eleanor asked her daughter.
"Because, there's a part of me that will always love him, and it's not the baby's fault that Chuck and I are so screwed up," Blair told her. "I want this child to have a chance and you won't talk me out this."
"I'm not trying to, but this is going to be so hard for you," Eleanor said. "Having a child should not be something you have to go through on your own. I only want what's best for you."
"She won't be on her own," Cyrus said as he took his stepdaughter's hands. "I will be with you at every step of the way, dear. You won't be by yourself for any of this."
"Thank you," Blair told him as her eyes filled up with tears, terrified about the future but knowing that she would always have a piece of Chuck with her.
July 7, 2011
"I thought I already got rid of you," Eleanor said icily when she saw Chuck at the door.
"I need to talk with Blair," Chuck told her, the desperation thick in his voice.
"She's not here, now leave," Eleanor replied.
"Where is she?" he asked.
"Nowhere you will find her," she told him.
"Why are you all doing this to me?" he asked. "You know I love her."
"Well, you have a very funny way of showing her that," she said. "First you make her think you're getting back together and then you give another man your blessing? To me that doesn't show a woman you want her."
"He was better for her," Chuck exclaimed, his strict control on his emotions crumbling more and more with each second. "I could never give her what he could. I was trying to do what was best for her."
"And surprisingly, she still wanted you," Eleanor told him as she shook her head. "My daughter wouldn't want me to have you thrown in jail so you are to leave my property of your own volition right now before I have you forcibly removed."
The look in Eleanor's eyes told him she was waiting for him to give her a reason to have him arrested so he would leave, for now. "This isn't the end, Mrs. Rose," he said as he dejectedly backed away from her. "I'm not giving up, tell Blair I won't stop looking until I find her."
"Go," she said as she dismissed him, "Leave my family alone."
Chuck sat in the back of the limo, alone and finally giving into the tears he had been fighting for months. He knew something bad happened to Blair and it was killing him that he wasn't there to help her through it. After everything that happened between them, he knew that she was the only woman he wanted. Chuck swore to himself that he would remain celibate until he could be with Blair again. Too many times did his fear of being alone and jumping into bed with the nearest woman hurt his chances with her. It didn't matter who he was with or what he was doing, the loneliness he felt would remain with him until Blair was once more in his life.
October 17, 2011
"I can't thank you enough for doing all this for me," Blair said as she and Cyrus sat at the kitchen table in her new house. She chose England to put down roots because as much as she loved France, she knew that would be where Chuck would focus his search.
"It was my pleasure," he told her as he patted her belly, she was now six months pregnant and finally beginning to settle into her new life.
Blair still wanted to get her college degree and Cyrus was able to pull some strings with Columbia for his stepdaughter to receive it by the following summer. Because she wanted it as soon as possible, Blair devoted all of her time to studying and completing the coursework for two years in only one year. Cyrus was with her to help her with everything else. It was difficult but she was dedicated and pushed herself the most she could without causing too much stress to the baby.
"Thank you for coming with me to the doctor today," she said as she stared at her latest ultrasound photo. "I can't believe the baby is getting so big. February will be here before we know it."
"I look forward to it every day," he smiled. Blair had that far-off look in her eyes that she always got when she thought about the baby and her mind would inevitably wander to thoughts of Chuck.
"Have you thought about what you'll do when Charles does find you?" Cyrus asked her.
"Everyday," she told him quietly as she sat down with both hands rubbing her bump. "I'd be lying if I said I didn't want him back. But too much has happened, he told me he needed to let go. I wasn't about to guilt him into being with me because of the baby."
"But he's been trying to find you," he reminded her. "And he knows nothing of the pregnancy."
"I know that," she said, "And if he finds me now or ten years from now I'll still want him. He's the father of my child but I can't trust him with this until he proves he's not going anywhere."
"What happened that night?" Cyrus asked. "And why did you go to Monaco to marry Louis if you still loved Charles?"
"Chuck saved me," she told him. "His business deal with Russell Thorpe went south and the man took me as collateral. Chuck overheard me saying things to Russell that I never wanted him to hear. I only said what I said to buy time with Russell."
"After the police took Thorpe away, Chuck took me to the Plaza for a drink to calm my nerves," she said. "We crashed a bar mitzvah and had so much fun dancing. As we were leaving, I pulled him into a side room."
Cyrus nodded and touched her arm as she paused before continuing, "I wanted Chuck, I needed him. We made love and I knew once and for all that he was the only man I wanted. When I told him I was leaving Louis, I said things I shouldn't have. Chuck made me happier and more alive than Louis ever did, I don't know why I couldn't tell him that. But after he gave his blessing to Louis at Constance, we talked again and Chuck was so resolute on not being with me. He didn't think he could give me what I need."
"But he did, he always did," she said as she choked back a sob and put both hands on her bump. "I was fooling myself into thinking I could go through with a marriage to anyone else. As soon as I realized how late I was, I told Louis. He was so sweet, he said we could move the wedding up and that he would love the child as his own. But I couldn't do that, I was tempted but not enough to go through with it."
"Knowing that I was about to be a mother made me realize how much I needed to change," Blair told her stepfather as the tears were brimming in her eyes. "I don't want this child to think lying and manipulation are acceptable. How I'm going to teach him or her that, I don't know. But I want to be a good mother, more than anything else. And to do that I need to learn how to be my own person."
"You are going to be a wonderful mother, dear," Cyrus said with a smile. "Why are you fighting so hard against your want for Chuck? Still wanting him doesn't make you weak."
"If he were to find me after I have the baby, and knows that he's committing to not just me but to our child, then I can slowly let him into our lives," Blair told him.
"But you'd feel so much better if he were here with you instead of me," her stepfather said.
"No, I wouldn't," she said as she shook her head. "I'd always wonder if he were with me because he wanted me or because he felt obligated. This is better."
"You've been so good to me, Cyrus," Blair continued as she put her hand on his arm. "There is no one else I'd rather have with me. Of all my parents, you're the one I wanted with me."
That admission from her was more than he could take and he started crying. "I love you so much, Blair," he told her as he put his hands on her face. "I am so happy that you are my daughter. This child will be so loved."
June 15, 2012
A year had passed and Chuck still hadn't given up hope that he would find Blair. Most of the time he was travelling, following any tip that could potentially lead to finding her. The only time he was in New York for an extended period of time was for Bass Industries business and even then he worked from his laptop whenever possible.
Lily, despite her house arrest the previous year, still held enough pull that she was able to call in favors and now held joint controlling interest in Bass Industries with her stepson. Lily could see how broken he was without Blair. She knew he was serious about finding her when he didn't spiral out of control like he used to do. Chuck didn't drown his sorrows in scotch and women, he threw his energies into his father's company and searching for the woman he loved.
Chuck was never able to shake the horrible feeling that something was terribly wrong with Blair. He barely slept at night, his dreams always taking him back to his goodbye talk with her and then finding out about her broken engagement. Chuck had hoped with all his heart that she would contact him and tell him he was the reason she called off her wedding with Louis. But nothing, he should have known that her pride was too strong to let her go back to him after he said to let go, after he told her he needed to let go.
He was a fool to think he could ever move on from Blair. She was the first and only woman he ever opened his heart to, and it was always hers. Nate tried to get him to move on with different women but Chuck wanted nothing to do with any of them. The thought of having just sex with some random woman after making love with Blair last year made him sick. He could still feel her skin on his and he had no desire to be with anyone else unless it were her in his arms once more.
When Serena came back from her summer in California, she and Dan began to help Chuck search for Blair. None of them heard from her and they all grew increasingly worried with each passing week. While Nate didn't approve of his friends' continued search, he did back off with trying to get Chuck to move on. Nothing other than finding the love of his life was going to allow Chuck to live his again. It was a year later and Chuck still had hope that he would find her.
"Please tell me you're not making any stops on this trip," Nate said as he watched his friend pack for a business trip. "Just go for your meeting in London and come home."
"Stay out of my business and don't ever tell me what to do," Chuck said as he grabbed his BlackBerry off the dresser and slipped it in his pocket.
"Why do you continue to torture yourself?" Nate asked. "She doesn't want to be found. Besides, you were the one who told her to let go in the first place."
"And that was a mistake," Chuck told him. "One I've regretted ever since."
"What if she's moved and is finally happy?" Nate asked his friend. "Do you really want to throw her life into chaos again?"
"If you weren't my best friend, I'd kick your ass right now," Chuck said to him. "I love Blair and I know she still loves me. And she's in trouble, I can feel it. I could feel it since I found out she disappeared.
"You know how she gets," Nate told him. "She must have a reason for not contacting us. When she wants to talk with us, she will."
"Not this time," Chuck said as he picked up his bag. "Too many times have I sat back while she's fought for us. This time she'll see how I never stopped looking until I found her."
June 17, 2012
Chuck was in London for a business meeting. Lily was supposed to go but needed to stay in New York for one of her charities last minute and sent Chuck in her place. The meeting ended midday and he decided to walk back to his hotel. When he was only a few blocks away, he swore he spotted Blair across the street. Without thinking, Chuck darted across the traffic, narrowly missing the cab that went speeding by him.
"Blair," he shouted when she looked ready to turn the corner.
She stopped, instantly recognizing his voice and slowly turning around. Standing in front of her was Chuck Bass. While she imagined what it would be like to come face to face to him one day, none of that prepared her for how she felt. Her words failed her as she stared at him, unable to say anything.
"You look good," Chuck told her as he looked her up and down, noting that she had curves he hadn't seen before and itching to run his fingers over every inch of them. "You look even better than I remember."
"You look tired," she said, internally chastising herself for that being the first thing she says to him.
"I don't sleep much," he said.
Blair just nodded, panicking on the inside as she didn't know if she was ready for Chuck to find out he was a father.
"Can you join me for a drink?" he asked as he couldn't stop staring at her. She was finally in front of him now and the only thing he could think of was how beautiful she looked.
"I can't," she told him, "I have to get home."
"Someone waiting for you?" he asked with his heart in his throat. He didn't think he could bear it if she had moved on and was happy with someone else. Yes, he let her go, but there wasn't a day that went by where he didn't regret it.
"Don't go there, Chuck," she said sadly as she looked at her feet. "It's too late for that."
"Why?" he asked as he brought her chin up to make eye contact with him. "I've been looking for you this whole past year."
"Only because I broke off my engagement," she told him. "I've moved on."
"I haven't," he said as he kept her gaze. "And I never will, Blair. Please, tell me who's waiting for you at home."
"Goodbye, Chuck," she said as she turned away from him and made her way around the corner to her car.
Blair felt her eyes fill with tears as she got in and closed the door, pausing as she put the keys in the ignition. Just when she thought he gave her up without a fight yet again, she heard the passenger side door open and Chuck got in next to her.
"There's no way I'm letting you go again," he told her with resolve as she stared at him. "When did you learn to drive?" he asked when he realized he was in the front seat of a sports car and Blair was in the driver's seat.
"There's a lot I've learned this year, Chuck," she told him as she revved up the engine before reaching for the clutch. "You're going to want to put your seatbelt on, it's a long ride."
"Where are we going?" he asked as they left the city and were now on the highway.
"I told you, home," she said as she kept her eyes on the road.
"And where is home?" he asked as he held onto the door while her speed increased.
"Kent," Blair told him, "We'll be there in half an hour."
She knew she was taking a risk bringing him home with her but needed to know how he'd react to finding out about their child. While she wasn't sure if he could be trusted to stick around, she did trust him to meet their daughter. Blair was secretly hoping that he wouldn't be furious at her for keeping such a secret from him.
"Is it safe for me to assume you don't have a man at home who's going to kick my ass?" he asked only half-kidding.
"There's no man," she said as she bit her lip.
"But there is someone," he said uncomfortably.
"Yes, but not who you think," she said.
"Why did you disappear?" he asked, finally getting to what he wanted to know after a year.
"Because I had to," she told him. "It was my only option."
"You should have called me," he said. "I've gone crazy wondering about the what-ifs."
"You let me go," she said. "It was time I finally let go of you and move on with my life."
"But we're here now," he stated as he grew more and more confused. "And I'm done running from you."
"That may be so," she said as she looked in her rearview mirror and continued driving, "But we're no longer the Chuck and Blair you remember."
"What does that mean?" he inquired. "Because I want you, only you. Can we discuss what happened last year? Can you let me explain what a mistake I made?"
"I can, but you may not want to," she said as she took the curve of the exit faster than he expected.
"Not true," he said as she slowed down and turned onto her street.
"Maybe, maybe not," Blair said as she grew more and more nervous about not running away from him when she had the chance to in London.
"Why do I feel like you're not telling me everything?" he said as she unbuckled her seat belt and looked at him. "What happened to make you break off your engagement?"
"Come on," she said, ignoring his question and getting out of the car. She was already halfway up the path when the front door opened and he saw a teenage girl holding a baby.
"Blair," the girl exclaimed as the baby gurgled and Blair reached for her with a smile. "Rose was so good today. She just woke up from her nap, she's been fed and changed, and she missed her mummy tremendously."
"Thank you, Pippa," she said as she took Rose from her arms after handing the girl an envelope. "Have a great day."
"Who's he?" Pippa asked as she noticed Chuck frozen in place and staring at them.
"He's an old friend," Blair told the girl. "I ran into him in London."
"Oh, okay. Dinner is all ready, you just need to put it in the oven," Pippa smiled as she walked past Chuck. "Have a good night."
She was skipping down the block when Blair turned back to him with Rose in her arms and said, "Chuck, this is who was waiting for me."
"You were pregnant," he said quietly as he stared at the beautiful baby girl in her arms. She was the spitting image of Blair but he saw his eyes staring back at him. A million and one thoughts were going through his mind as all the pieces of last year finally fell into place for him, the color draining from his face.
Please review to let me know you'd like me to continue. I'd love to hear your thoughts and it's very easy to do, not to mention it would really make me smile =D
So, what do you think of my spin on Blair pregnant at the end of 4x22. I wanted to write something different from everything that's out there so this story is not going to be like the others you might have read.
Blair and Chuck are OOC but that is only because I like to mature their characters when I write them and quite frankly it's about time they grow up. I hate when Chuck freaks out and Blair's a total bitch. My thoughts on them in this story is that Chuck finally saw how important Blair is to him when she disappeared and he couldn't find her and motherhood mellowed Blair out while giving her lots of perspective on her relationship with Chuck and the type of person she was becoming.
With season five starting up soon, I'm not optimistic about for Chair's future so this is the alternate version I'm choosing to believe in until the writers on the show prove to me I can trust them again.
Remember, more reviews = more love = faster update. And I loved detailed reviews, the longer the better =)
