Shouji's Agony


A spur of the moment thing I made. This is basically Shouji Rauc's thoughts about himself and his existence.


I live, I breath,

I walk, I see.

I see the fire all around me.

The pain, the wailing,

The hate.

Who is to blame for this wonton destruction?

Who is the sole master of all this pain and misery?

He who stands before you.

I gasp, I writhe,

I talk, I sigh.

Sighing at my own misfortune.

The lack, the abundance,

My hate.

Who is to blame for my own existence?

Who is the one who made me the master of pain and misery?

He who stands before me.

I live, I die.

I die, I live.

My life, one endless cycle.

The program... the program...

Me...

The program defines who I am.

I define who I am.

The program forms me so I can live another day.

It lives, it thrives.

It hates, it writhes.

It controls me,

My pain, my silence,

My screams.

I cannot scream. I cannot cry out.

This program does not let me.

Please God, someone save me.

Save me from this life.

I do not want it.

For this life is only filled with destruction.

I was made for destruction,

I live for destruction,

Yet I cannot die from destruction.

Someone, please save me.

Save me from this life.

Restrain me, tie me down,

Hold me still, bind my mouth.

Tear through my flesh with a knife,

A direct stab through the heart.

Twist the blade, twist the knife.

Make it hurt, just one last time.

Let me drift away

To the nothing that awaits.


Please save me.

Bitte rette mich.

My heart stands still.

Meine herz steh still.

Farewell.

Auf wiedersehen.