This is a prompt from kmeme. Going to be rated M for possible future chapters. A warning for Sebastian lovers, this will not paint him in the best of lights. Will be a love triangle between Sebastian, Hawke, and Fenris.

Original prompt: Somehow Sebastian is convinced it's the Maker's will that F!Hawke is supposed to become the mother of his child. This leads to a new found obsession in which Sebastian is going to do everything it takes to get her pregnant, even if she is not willing. Once she gets pregnant Sebastian is seriously possesive and over over over protective of her and their unborn child.

Extra points if Hawke doesn't realize what Sebastian is up to. More extra points if she finds out after finding out about her pregnancy. All the points you want if she is freaked out by Sebastian once she finds out and Sebastian is determined to remain with her even if she doesn't want him anywhere near herself.

The scenery is up to the writer-anon: if F!Hawke are in a relationship or not, if Sebastian already broke his vows of not; during which act this happens or if it's post-game, etc.

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Hawke

I woke and tried to shake the dreams that had been plaguing me ever since I had saved Feynriel from the Fade. I was slightly afraid I had a demon attached to me. Maybe I should listen to Sebastian and Fenris. Maybe I should be a little more worried about mages and such.

But Feynriel was safe and sound. Tucked away in Tevinter where he could learn to control his powers. And perhaps my dreams were my punishment for flirting with Sebastian. If I had Sebastian's vows to me, I wouldn't like another flirting with him. It had seemed harmless enough at the time, but now…

I was a good girl after all. Far too busy taking care of everyone to worry about foolish things like romance. Never mind Fenris' puppy dog eyes he made at me when he thought no one was looking. Or the smoldering glances Anders gave me when I went to see him in his clinic. Then I had met Sebastian. Handsome, strong, kind Sebastian. He had made my heart skip a beat the first time I had seen him. Arguing with the Grand Cleric in the courtyard. I had taken his job just for a chance to meet him. And meet we had. I had been dismayed only slightly to learn he had taken his vows and was going to stay in the Chantry.

It was just a crush after all. It wasn't like I loved him, right? But lately the thoughts of him had hounded me. He seemed to be everywhere I went. Following me even in my dreams. The first had started off innocently enough.

Us sharing drinks or dinner cozily in front of my study fireplace. Mysteriously alone. That was how I had first realized it was a dream. My house was never empty. Those had gone on for a few weeks. Then they had progressed to him kissing me goodnight before he left. I knew I was going to go to the Void for those dreams, but they hadn't stopped there.

One night he had confessed that he loved me. Had been fighting it for years now. He begged me to let him stay. To show me how he felt. I had comforted myself with it was just a dream, and I let him lead me up to my room. No one had to know about my dark little dreams. My dirty shame of loving a man I could never have.

After that night, it had always been the same. He would enter through my window, speak of his love, of our life together. We would make love long into the night. I would fall asleep tucked safely in his strong arms. This had been going on for over two months now. Closer to three if I really stopped to think about it.

I had gotten to the point I couldn't be around Sebastian. I was sure he would know what I dreamed. I was sure my heated cheeks would betray me, if I managed to refrain from throwing myself into his arms. So I had been avoiding the Chantry in general. And Sebastian in particular. But I couldn't live like this anymore. There was too much to do. I couldn't keep having these dreams. There was no one I could turn to, save one woman. Elthina.

We had become close these last couple of years. Mainly due to Sebastian. I worried about going to her and confessing this, but I needed help. I wanted them to stop. I couldn't have the things dream Sebastian promised. And it was interfering with my waking life now.

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Elthina

I watched Sebastian as he paced my office. "She won't even come and see me now, Elthina. She's avoiding me. I thought this was the Maker's will." He said. His thick accent almost masking his desperate whine.

"Do not give up now, Sebastian. We are all counting on you. Once she has conceived, she will be fully committed to the Chantry. She is our only hope for peacefully dealing with the mages. They will listen to her. And you will be freed from your vows. You two will rule Kirkwall and Starkhaven. The Free Marches will be strengthened against the coming darkness." I hated doing this to him. I hated what we were forced to resort to, but it was the only way. Andraste had told me so.

I had been dreaming of her for some time now. She had told me what was coming. The part Hawke would play in it. The part Sebastian must play in it. He was the key to swaying her. And she was the key to swaying the mages.

It wasn't as if Sebastian wasn't in love with Hawke. He was. His vows were the only thing holding him back from going to her. And I had seen the way Hawke watched him. She was fighting with her heart as well. This was going to be better for everyone.

"I'm trying, Elthina, but I…" He trailed off as there was a quiet knock on the door.

"Come in." I called holding my hand up to Sebastian. We could continue this talk later. I smiled as his and Hawke's eyes widened on seeing each other. Yes, they were in love. This was the right thing for us all.

"Forgive me, Grand Cleric. I didn't realize you were busy." Hawke said quickly and would have fled if Sebastian hadn't clasped onto her arm. She looked at him with a flush to her cheeks. I sighed to myself as I thought of how beautiful their baby was going to be. A grandchild of sorts for me.

It would undoubtedly have the red hair and the blue eyes of both parents. I wondered if it would have Sebastian's calm presence or Hawke's humor. It would undoubtedly be strong of body and mind. They were both so wonderful. The Maker had made them for each other. I could see it now.

"I was just leaving, Hawke. Don't run off on my account." He said watching her. I wondered if she could read the hunger in his eyes as clearly as I could. She glanced at him and her cheeks flushed even pinker. Ah, young love.

"Sebastian, would you mind sending Erin to me for a moment? I need to take care of these documents. Then I can speak with Hawke." I smiled encouragingly at the nervous girl. Sebastian nodded sharply to me before he turned softened eyes back to her.

"Maybe you could come and see me before you leave?" He asked her.

"I…of course, Sebastian." She said quietly and looked down at the floor. Sebastian reluctantly released her and went to send Erin to me. Erin was a healer mage who had taken vows. It wasn't completely unheard of for a mage talented with healing to join the chantry. We had needs for healers. And she was carefully watched. She was the one helping us make the potions to drug Hawke with so Sebastian could seduce her.

I smiled at Hawke and motioned to the seat in front of my desk. "Do sit, Hawke. It has been a while since we've seen you. How are you doing?" I asked. I knew the loss of her mother was still hard for her. I hoped she would soon have something good to look forward to.

"It's difficult, Grand Cleric, but I'm hanging in there." She smiled, but it never reached her eyes. She wrung her hands nervously.

"What brings you here, child?" I asked soothingly. She glanced at me and then away.

"I hoped to speak to you confidentially." She answered after a moment.

"Is this confession?" I asked puzzled about this. She normally went to confession with Sebastian. She was most comfortable with him. She was understandably nervous about the Chantry, having been raised in an apostate family. I hoped, with Sebastian's help, we could show her the Chantry wasn't as she feared it was.

"I know you don't normally take confessions from any other than the brothers and sisters, but…" She took a breath and looked up at me. "I can't trust this to anyone else."

"I'll hear your confession." I nodded to her and glanced at the door as there was a knock. "Why don't you go and get comfortable on the couch? I'll take care of this with Erin and join you in a moment." I motioned her towards the small living area I had in my study. She did as I asked while I opened the door for Erin.

"Sebastian told me it was time for an update." Erin said glancing at Hawke who was staring intently at the fire.

"Yes. Would you be so kind as to take it for me?" I asked inclining my head towards Hawke. Erin nodded and moved over to the desk with me. Her eyes turned hazy for a moment while I blocked her from Hawke's sight.

"It's done. I shall see to this at once." Erin nodded to me.

"You're sure?" I asked quietly. She nodded again before taking the fake documents and leaving the room. I had needed her to see if Hawke was pregnant. Seemed she was. This was joyous news indeed.

I moved back to Hawke and forced my smile away. She was so nervous. I needed to do whatever I could to sooth her nerves. We needed her and the child healthy.

"So what did you want to talk with me about?"

She took a steadying breath and toyed with a buckle on her armor. "I've…been having dreams lately. Well, for about three months now."

"Dreams?" I asked trying to mask my fear. It couldn't be, could it? She wasn't supposed to remember being with Sebastian.

Her face was aflame with embarrassment. "Yes, Grand Cleric. Maker forgive me, but I've been dreaming of Sebastian. They plague me ever night. Filling me with longings for something I can never have. Something so shameful and sinful. I…don't know what to do."

"You love him, don't you?" I asked careful to keep my tone soothing rather than joyful. This might work out better than we had hoped. Maybe her remembering would be a good thing.

"I've tried not to, but…" She trailed off and wiped her tears. "These dreams torment me. Do you think I'm evil? Maybe possessed?"

"No, child. Sebastian is a good and kind man. It would be easy to love him. That doesn't make you evil or possessed." I moved to sit next to her. I was surprised when she allowed me to hug her to me. She normally didn't like to be touched. She was really upset. She laid her head on my shoulder and cried.

"I just don't know what to do. I can't bear to be around him. I'm so afraid he'll find out. So afraid I'll hurt him."

"Your life has been hard and stressful, child. More so of late. This could just be a way for you to have some comfort in your life."

"But it's wrong to think of him like that. To dream of him like that!" She protested and stood to pace in front of the fireplace.

"What if it wasn't?" I asked. She froze and turned to me.

"What are you saying?"

"What if you two could be together?"

"He took vows, Grand Cleric. He belongs to Andraste. He wants to stay with the Chantry. I won't risk hurting him by confessing my feelings to him."

"But he hasn't reaffirmed yet. I've made him hold off. He's wanting to for the wrong reasons. He's scared, Hawke. He's afraid he's not worthy of being the Prince of Starkhaven. He needs someone to show him that he can do it. He needs someone like you supporting him."

"He…he says he's staying in the Chantry. He said he's not going to take back Starkhaven. And I do support him. He knows this."

"Yes, but he thinks you want him to stay in the Chantry. If you encouraged him to take back Starkhaven. Showed him you cared, I believe he would see that it is the only thing to do."

"You want him to retake Starkhaven? Why?"

"It is his destiny. It is the will of the Maker. He says he's waiting for a sign, but he has had plenty of them. I think he's waiting here for you."

"Grand Cleric, you're supposed to be helping me with these dreams, not encouraging them. And Sebastian has made his choice. I won't influence him. If you were hoping to tempt me into it, you're mistaken. I would never betray him like that. I want him to be happy. I will support whatever he chooses. It was a mistake to come here."