'Every time I don't I almost do' –taylor swift
a fanfic about holly j. I hope you enjoy and please review!
I do not own degrassi, any of these characters or the song that gave me this idea
I'm sick
I'm never sick
How can I have kindney failure
I'm no failure, I'm a winner
I start to cry
Who can I call? Sav? Fi?
I doesn't feel right to call them…
I pick up my phone and scroll down all the phone numbers
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Declan..
It's been so long since I spoke to him..
Still calling him seems familiar
I click on the number
Then I understand what I'm doing and I hang up
I just broke up with Sav
It was so hard…
He was so happy
His parents finally let him date..then I break up with him
It was so hard….with Declan I didn't really broke up, He left..then he got back and we never really got back together so we didn't really broke up. It still was hard to tell him we weren't getting back together. But it was so different from right now.
I walk to Fiona and Anya who were waiting for me.
I didn't know what to say to them
Maybe the point wasn't that I didn't know what to say. But they're not the persons I wanted to talk to.
I didn't want to talk to my mam, dad or sister either
I felt like calling Declan.
But I couldn't
My kidney failure got worse..
How can I get worse…
I fight so hard
I do everything the doctor tells me
I need are transplant or I'll die.
I don't want to die
I'm still so young..
I've got a whole life in front of me
A great life
Starting with graduating
Going to Yale
Get my dream job
Get married
Have kids
Watching them grow up
A whole life to be happy..
I start to cry I can't stop
I've got no one to talk to
And the only person I want to talk to I can't
Not because he won't pick up. He would
Not because he can't help me. He can
But because I'm afraid of what would happen if I call him
Because I've already got so much on my plate, I can't add this to it
I watch at my phone
I already typed a text:
I need you, you're the only person I can talk to right now
-Holly J
I delete it and text Fi:
I have some news…
-Holly J
I'm adopted
I'm freaking a adopted
My parents never told me…
They're not my real parents
Heather isn't my real sister
What would my mam be like?
Do I look like her?
And who is my dad?
Why did they gave me up?
And the most important question right now: would they donate a kidney to me?
I want to talk to him, I have to
I pick up the phone and call
'Hey It's Declan, leave a message then I'll get back to you'
I don't know what to say..
So I don't say a thing
I'm about to have my kidney surgery
The surgery that could save my live..
But also the one that could end it what if this was the last moment I have before I die.
How would I want to spend it?
I would want to no longer be scared
So I called the only person in the world who I thought could take my fear away
I finally called the person who I needed so bad the past year.
'Declan? It's me ,Holly J'
