'Every time I don't I almost do' –taylor swift

a fanfic about holly j. I hope you enjoy and please review!

I do not own degrassi, any of these characters or the song that gave me this idea

I'm sick

I'm never sick

How can I have kindney failure

I'm no failure, I'm a winner

I start to cry

Who can I call? Sav? Fi?

I doesn't feel right to call them…

I pick up my phone and scroll down all the phone numbers

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Declan..

It's been so long since I spoke to him..

Still calling him seems familiar

I click on the number

Then I understand what I'm doing and I hang up


I just broke up with Sav

It was so hard…

He was so happy

His parents finally let him date..then I break up with him

It was so hard….with Declan I didn't really broke up, He left..then he got back and we never really got back together so we didn't really broke up. It still was hard to tell him we weren't getting back together. But it was so different from right now.

I walk to Fiona and Anya who were waiting for me.

I didn't know what to say to them

Maybe the point wasn't that I didn't know what to say. But they're not the persons I wanted to talk to.

I didn't want to talk to my mam, dad or sister either

I felt like calling Declan.

But I couldn't


My kidney failure got worse..

How can I get worse…

I fight so hard

I do everything the doctor tells me

I need are transplant or I'll die.

I don't want to die

I'm still so young..

I've got a whole life in front of me

A great life

Starting with graduating

Going to Yale

Get my dream job

Get married

Have kids

Watching them grow up

A whole life to be happy..

I start to cry I can't stop

I've got no one to talk to

And the only person I want to talk to I can't

Not because he won't pick up. He would

Not because he can't help me. He can

But because I'm afraid of what would happen if I call him

Because I've already got so much on my plate, I can't add this to it

I watch at my phone

I already typed a text:

I need you, you're the only person I can talk to right now

-Holly J

I delete it and text Fi:

I have some news…

-Holly J


I'm adopted

I'm freaking a adopted

My parents never told me…

They're not my real parents

Heather isn't my real sister

What would my mam be like?

Do I look like her?

And who is my dad?

Why did they gave me up?

And the most important question right now: would they donate a kidney to me?

I want to talk to him, I have to

I pick up the phone and call

'Hey It's Declan, leave a message then I'll get back to you'

I don't know what to say..

So I don't say a thing


I'm about to have my kidney surgery

The surgery that could save my live..

But also the one that could end it what if this was the last moment I have before I die.

How would I want to spend it?

I would want to no longer be scared

So I called the only person in the world who I thought could take my fear away

I finally called the person who I needed so bad the past year.

'Declan? It's me ,Holly J'