Chapter 1

I'm sat on my bed starting at my boring white four walls. One window lets me see the outside world. It's raining but I'm not looking outside i turn my head so I'm looking at the door. I can sense he is here. I know what happens now... I get to go home with him and see my family, I mean if you can call them that.

"Phoebe, your father is here," Nurse Rosemary speaks softly "it's time to go home phoebe"

I look her in the eyes and maintain that contact for several moments.

She gives a look of sympathy and turns around to leave, my dad walks in the room. He stares at me with an impassive look but his eyes give it away. He's sad. I don't blame him, I have done nothing but make my whole family sad.

He walks towards me and puts one arm around me, I don't move at all.

"Let's go home Bee," he says softly, I look him in the eye and give a small smile.

We stand and walk out of my boring room, we see Nurse Rosemary and Dr Flynn stood outside my room. My father shakes Flynns hand and we carry on walking down the corridor.

I stand still and turn around, I run to Rosemary and throw myself into her Arms. She returns my hug and strokes my hair

"Listen sweet girl, you are not going to return to this place promise me?" She quietly demands

"I promise Rosemary" I say barely a whisper.

We exit the building and we get into the car, as we drive off I see the buildings name on top of the gate 'West Seattle Psychiatric Hospital'

I close my eyes and think of the first time I thought I was saying goodbye to this place.

"Phoebe we are here," my father gently shakes me "come on, let's go inside"

I get out of the car and nod at Taylor as he takes my bag out of

My hands. We open the door into the huge foyer and i see my

Mother, my brother and both of my grandparents who stand with huge smiles on their faces. Why are they smiling? Why do they care?

I awkwardly stand infront of them for a few moments before my mother runs to me and hold me in her arms, she's crying softly telling me how much she has missed me and take comfort in her smell, the scent of strawberries and vanilla. It's home.

She backs away and I barely have time to prepare myself before my brother hugs me.

"I missed you Be-be" he sniffs

And then again I am smothered in kisses and hugs of my grandmother and grandfather. I back away and walk up The spiral stair and head into my bedroom and straight into the middle of the room and looked around closed my eyes and remember the things that happened in this room. This room where I tried to kill myself. Twice. My once white carpet has now been replaced by a slight grey one. Oh the irony, me Phoebe Grey once the perfect daughter now the tainted, damaged one. I turn around and look at my desk and see the classic picture of my friends and I.

We were the popular group but we weren't the mean bully type. We were the type that everyone respected. I slowly sit down on my window seat and think about my friends

Daisy is the nicest person you could ever meet but she's also the most fiercely loyal and will do anything to protect her friends.

Cleo is sarcastic and also loyal. She doesn't take any shit from anyone and that's why most people know not to push her.

Alex, Eli and Jamie are your classic football buddies, Alex being the captain. All three are the most hilarious people ever! It's no secret that Eli likes me but we were so close that I never told him that I didn't like him that way. I wish I had.

Hi guys! So this is my first story so please tell me how I did but please go easy!