God & Mortal

PART 1/2: Cutting Our Ties

I knew that falling for you would be taboo, but I didn't care. All I wanted at that moment was to be with you. I keep saying that I want to stay with you longer, but the truth is I wanted to stay with you forever even knowing that this is not our fate. This is not reality. You and me are not reality. That stupid scarf of yours, that dumb smile, those beautiful blue eyes that gave me warmth; Before I knew it, I've grown to love you so much. And now, you're standing in front of me and saying the words that I dread to hear. Those words that I have been trying to avoid. Reality was coming to haunt me.

"Hiyori." he mumbled without making eye contact with me. There was this sensation that overflowed me suddenly, a feeling of worry. My mind was overtaken by bad thoughts. What is it that Yato was desperate to tell me?

"Hiyori, meet me by that park at 6:00 pm. There's something that I need to tell you. Something very important."

"What could possibly be so important?" I whined, I tried to remove Yato's grasp from my wrist. I really needed to focus on my entrance exam, I couldn't afford to waste anymore time. My eyes looked up to meet Yato, I knew right then that he was serious. His eyes peering into mines.

"If you don't come, I'll go to you." he declared abruptly. "I'm serious Hiyori."

"Let's cut our ties." Yato finished. He then looked up to meet my eyes. I felt my legs becoming numb as I'm unable to function at the words he said. I tried my best to force a smile upon my face, thinking that he was joking. I laughed a bit to lighten up the mood. "Yato, quit joking. I really need to get back to studying. I don't have time for this." I said before quickly picking up my bag and turning to leave.

"Hiyori, I'm serious." he spoke in a deep voice. I could tell by the tone of his voice that he was dead serious. I felt worried, my heart suddenly beat hard against my chest as I was extremely terrified of what Yato was saying.

"Y-yato, I already told you. I don't want to cut our bound. I want to stay with you longer." I said, but Yato's blue eyes continues to look cold and stern at me. What's with that look in his eyes? Why was he looking at me like that?

"You said longer. How long is longer Hiyori? Why can't you just leave now? You are already too involved in this world. I want you to live in your real world." He stated, Yato continues to look at me. I can't read what he really meant. I've always thought Yato wanted me to stay besides him and support him. What is it that he really want?

"Yato. Do you really want to cut our ties?" I questioned, a part of me doesn't want to hear the answer Yato has got for me. At this moment, I wanted to run somewhere far. I wanted to still be with Yato. I can't bear to be away from him, even though he can be annoying and stupid at times. Yato completed me.

I can see Yato's eyes averting from mines. He stares at Sekki in his hands. Yukine had transformed into two dual blades a while ago before Yato came to tell me this. "Hiyori..." Yato started before looking back and meeting my eyes. I felt tears start pouring down my cheeks as I can no longer hold them in. Why did Yato want to cut our ties? Why all of a sudden he had to bring this up again? Why can't he just let me be with him? Why does he want to get rid of me?

"I've put you in so much danger already. I don't want anything to happen to you that would harm you. I want you to be happy and if that means cutting all ties with you. I would do it for your sake. For your safety." He finished. I can hear him grip onto Sekki, Yato's eyes forced closed. These are not the things I want to hear from him. I don't want Yato to disappear from my mind, my memory. He was too precious to forget.

"… I don't want to hear you anymore... Yaboku. I won't be happy without you. I need you." I walked closer to Yato who stood still with Sekki in his hand. Without thinking, I threw my arms around him and held him in my embrace. My face buried upon his chest as I sob. Tears staining his jersey. I didn't want to let him go. I couldn't. He felt so far from me and I wanted to hold him like this forever. I want to be with Yato forever. I continue to cry while embracing Yato. I felt his head dipped low and onto my shoulder. I heard Sekki hitting the ground as Yato wrapped his arms around me and returning my embrace. I could feel his warmth against my body. I closed my eyes and calmed down after a while. I took in his scent. His godly scent that I grown to love so much. I can't imagine not being able to be without him. I can't imagine my life without him. Yato had made such a big influence in my life. How could I forget him? How could he be okay with letting me go? I'm not okay with him cutting our ties.

I felt a tear falling onto my cheek. Yato... he was crying. I pulled away and looking at him. His blue eyes filled with so much sorrow. My hand reached up to wipe his falling tears and cupping his cheek. Yato was so gentle and so vulnerable. Even a god of calamity had feelings of sadness. He forcefully pulled me back into a tight embrace. I closed my eyes and take him in.

"Hiyori..." he whispered in a soft voice against my ear. "I'm sorry, I love you. Goodbye."

That was the last thing I heard him say to me before the only thing I saw was blackness. My mind started to clear as I could barely remember the details of the jersey god. I could not make out his ocean blue eyes nor his godly scent. It was as if Yato never existed. It was as if he had disappeared from my life forever. I didn't want to say goodbye this way. I couldn't say goodbye to him. The thing that hurt me the most was that he loved me, I never had the chance to tell him how much he meant to me and how I much I love him too. "Yaboku, I love you too." I thought before I finally lost all my thoughts of him. Yato completely faded from my mind, I no longer remember anything that had previously happened. There I knew, Yato had forcefully cut our ties.